Nuggets of Truth ~ My Weight Loss Journey

Judgement and Ridicule

2012-02-12T09:23:00.000-08:00

This morning I had the awesome pleasure of reading blogs! On more than one occasion I came across a few where the writer experienced verbal or emotional abuse from their parents and/or friends when they were young...all because they were, in these people's eyes....fat!

I could so relate to these situations because I too was considered fat when I was a kid. You see, I was the 2nd heaviest girl in my school. I know this because when I was a kid, they would have these "health" screening days where they would weigh and measure you. I'm sure this was done in the schools as a way to help us, but the reality is, at least for me, it scarred me for life!

In the 6th grade, I weighed in at 140 pounds at 5'4"! WOW you might say, but hey, I was fully developed, yes boobs and everything!! And I was very muscular. My dad always said I was build like a brick "S***" house. I never thought that was a good thing!!!! The funny thing is....I did not look fat, but the scale said I was....so I was!?!?!?!

This weigh in started me on the long journey of low body image and diets! Yo-Yoing myself up to 274 pounds!!

Anyway, as I'm typing this right now, I have my sweet little dog "Beemer" in my lap. He's sleeping. He's the little white fluff in one of the pictures on my sidebar. Anyway, this dog love me ~ no matter what! I cannot remember anyone else, well maybe the Lord and my Hubby, who looks at me with adoring eyes. I mean they are penetrating. It's like he's is trying to tell me that he loves me with his whole being.

The sad things is.....that I probably saw those same eyes when I was first born. I'm sure my parents looked at me with wonder and awe. I bet they had those adoring eyes for me. The crazy thing is, I did not do anything at all to warrant this admiration or love. I just was born. Geez how hard is that?

Anyway, all this just began to make me wonder.....how did I go from these adoring eyes to the eyes of judgement? How did that happen? I'm mean...I am the same person, I'm good, loving, giving, etc. Just because I'm "FAT"... I get that look of disapproval? That look of judgement?

I get it, I get it, I really do....But why do we humans put so much on the outward appearance of someone. One writer said that she will never be 120 something pounds. You see she's very tall and if she got to that weight, she would most likely die as that weight is just too thin for her.

But to the world, that should not matter, because what really matters is that we should weigh 120 pounds....Huh?

Really?

I am so sick of the scale telling me who I am and what a failure I am because I'm 76 pounds away from perfect. (My stupid brain is already saying, "Wow only 76 pounds away, why that is so doable..." I want to totally finagle a way to get there. Even I can't stop myself!!

But the thing is...I may never get there.....I don't think I was ever there. When I was growing up, I truly went from 100 pounds to 140 in a flash! My body is dense, I have a lot of muscle. I sure don't want to lose that muscle just so I can see 120 pounds on a scale.

I guess what I'm saying is....My goal is not to reach for a number that somebody out there thinks is the perfect number. (Who is that somebody anyway?) I'm reaching for a fitness level. I want to be able to do any kind of sport I want. I want to be able to run and walk anywhere. I want to be able to buy clothes at regular stores. I want to get off of this blood pressure medication. I want to keep my cholesterol down. I want to feel good in my body. I want to grow old and not be a sick grandma!

If I get to 120 pounds or 140 pounds....does not matter to me....as long as I'm healthy and fit. I just want to feel good on the inside and out.

So Mr. or Mrs. "Somebody" if you don't like that I don't weigh your 120 pounds, just go pound sand!!!"""

Working my way to health and fitness.....How about you?

Keep focused!!

Against the Wind....

2012-02-09T14:38:00.000-08:00

In the beginning of my journey and until this very day, I naively thought that this journey of health, fitness and weight loss was a straight path to success!! I had a life threatening condition (Obesity) that needed attention....I made my mind up, I set my goals to achieve my ultimate health and fitness....I set my calorie goals, water intake, exercise plan, hired a trainer, got a nutritionist, started my blog, sought counseling, got my family and friends on board, cleaned out the crap in my house...I got my head right and I was FINALLY ready to go down the straight and narrow path to success!!

Ready....Set....Go!!!!

But there's one thing that I did not count on....one thing that I never considered and that one thing is the obstacles that I would encounter.....Going against the wind!

The following story was told to me this morning by my Hubby. He had this awesome experience I want to share with you.

He is an avid biker, bicycles that is.....well he used to be. Right now he's not in his top shape for riding, but he has been feeling the pull of the road. However, even though the pull has been strong and his desire building, he has been putting it off. You see he has had chronic insomnia for over 30 years. He averages 0 to 3 hours of sleep on a good night and sometimes there is no sleep at all. He says, that the mere fact of having so little sleep, is the very reason why he can't fulfill his dreams....reach his goals....do the very thing he loves ~ riding is bike.

I hear what he's saying and I so agree that that is a very good reason not to even try. I mean I can't even fathom that kind of problem. If I got the little bit of sleep he gets....I could not function. I need my sleep!!

Prior to the talk with my Hubby, we heard a sermon from our Pastor telling us about his depression...about his journey to wellness and overcoming this debilitating problem in his life. He told us that he feels that his depression is not a disease...a problem that only drugs can cure, but he feels that the depression is a symptom of the real problems in his life. He said the depression is an excuse to not really face those problems.

Hummm.......

So as my Hubby and I discussed this together, he went on to tell me about his bike ride he recently had. It was a beautiful Oregon morning. Sunny blue skies, crisp and bright. He donned on the proper gear, the bike was ready to go, he had enough nourishment and water...it was time! He had taken an OK ride the day before, kind of like a warm up and achieved 12 miles for his efforts. This day however, felt like it was a turning point day. Not only did he want to achieve 12 miles, but he wanted to double it!! Now keep in mind, this is a man who can easily do MS150's....That's 150 miles!! So 24 miles should be no problem. Piece of cake ~ Right?

So he sets out on his ride...and decides to take a path that he's taken before. You see....he's done this many, many times and always had great success. I mean...no problems!! Should have been no problem this day. So he sets out...He was so excited for the goal...but the one thing he did not anticipate was the obstacles in the road. He did not count on the wind!!!

On his first 12 miles, he felt great! Sunny breezy beautiful day. Here's where the obstacles came. When he turned around to start back, he did not realize how really windy it was. You see on his first 12 miles, the wind was at his back, pushing him along. There were no other obstacle...things were in order and good! It was easy. It was a straight path to his goal.

But going back the other way was a whole different story. Now he was facing the wind. He said he felt like he had entered a storm. The wind was so strong he was going no where fast!....Ever felt like that in your journey? He was working and fighting to gain some distance with very little luck. His frustration grew when a pack of bike riders flew past him, with ease, leaving him in the dust. Seems they did not realize there was a storm! At this point, my Hubby was really disappointed in himself, making things even harder to do.

Just like my journey....it seems there are those who blow right past me with their success. Seeming to make it with ease...no problems.

Hubby said, he realized it was all in his perspective. You see, he did not use the wind...he fought against it. The bike pack helped each other, encouraged each other to make it through the wind. My Hubby was fighting against it. He said it occurred to him that the obstacle is not a bad thing. He said, a sailboat captain never looks at wind as bad. It's needed. That boat won't move without it. So wind is not the problem....it's how you use it!

It was at this point, that he began to realize that this bad wind, obstacle....might not be so bad after all. This obstacle was purposeful. There was something to be learned.

All of a sudden Hubby's perceptive changed. He began to look up and and see what was really going on.

Now my Hubby is a prideful man....something he does not want to be. He makes his mind up about something and that's just the way it is. His biking goals is to approach all things in the same gear. Now he has 21 gears on his bike and these gears are supposed to help him when facing certain obstacles. But his prideful self just does not want to "rely" on these helpful tools. In your journey, have you noticed if you've been prideful in any aspect of what you are doing? So set on what you "think" is right and not willing to rely on something that may really help you? Hummmm...I'm so there!! Anyway, on this day, Hubby found that his pride was not helping him get home. He was seriously contemplating calling someone to get him. Finally he decided that he had to let go of his pride and "Switch" gears and on the bike to help him make distance. He not only switched the bike gears, but he also had to switch gears in his attitude and his thinking to get the job done. This was not a straight path home to success!

He said, "When God shows me a path, His path, I never take it. I say "Nope"...I'm doing it my way. I'm always missing what He is trying to show me. Like the little reminders that I have 21 gears to help me through. No I wanted to go my own way. Seems when I say no to Him, He just gives me a little more wind."

Soon, not only was he struggling with the wind and worried about getting home, but his knees, neck and back started to hurt and his attitude was sinking to new lows.

Then he really had to start "thinking" about the obstacles. Yeah he was experiencing one, he was not sure he was going to make it. Then finally he looked up and saw a left turn up ahead.

This was just what he needed. With new encouragement he pushed toward this new "short term" goal. Once he got to the turn, he realized that the wind was not pushing him in the face, it was not slowing him down. but maybe even helping him a little. On this turn he found that he could rest a little, but still put in the distance. He said that he felt so much joy at this turn in the road and he knew that the Lord was with him.

Much too soon, he saw that his small slice of heaven was quickly coming to an end and there, just up ahead was a right turn into the wind. He said, he started naming the turns...one stretch was Destruction Blvd, one was Stormy Circle, and Call a Cab Avenue for the turns that were in the wind and all the good stretches were called Hope Street. Cute! Anyway, he said he could not face the whole journey all at once. He said, he just had to FOCUS on each stretch, one piece at a time. He said, after each difficult stretch, he felt triumphant and joyful and he would give thanks to the Lord.

As he was getting closer and closer to home, he realized a couple of things....

In everything we do...there will always be twists and turns in the journey.
We should consider that there may be reasons for the twists, turns and obstacles. Don't let them throw you off your plan. Look to see what the Lord is trying to show you along the way.
Adjust your attitude. So what if the wind is blowing in your face...keep pushing through!
When obstacle come, we should learn how to use them to our advantage to help us reach our goals.
When you are on a straight path with no obstacle....there is no guiding. It's easy! It's when you have the obstacles (the winds) that come ~ that's when the guiding comes. Have to trust that the Lord knows exactly what we need and will get us to our goals.
Wind at your back is easy.....you're not necessarily thinking about the Lord and what he can do for you. It when you turn back and you're facing the wind (you obstacles) that you start thinking about the Lord and asking him for help. Need to focus on the Lord at all times!
You can't always ride with the wind!

Finally he made it home. He said that he was really grateful and realized that he was not running a race. He did not care if he comes in first, he just wanted to finish it and he did!! For me, I feel like I'm racing toward my goals and many times I have to stop myself and remind myself that this health and fitness journey is not a race. It's a lifestyle!!! I just need to get to my goals...don't care how long it takes (well honestly I kinda do care how long it takes because I don't want to waste time...it's the old do a diet and lose 20 pounds in three minutes kind of thinking that I fight all the time! That's not the kind of race I'm running!)....I just want to make sure I get there!

After my long talk with my Hubby and getting back to our Pastors sermon. What we discovered when thinking about my Hubby's insomnia is that that problem is his excuse. After much discussion we realized that the real problem, the real thing stopping him from achieving his goals is fear! That is the problem!!! The sad thing is...if he would just face his fear and get out on his bike, that the physical activity may just help him sleep. (When he does ride...he gets more sleep). So what's stopping him?

I can so relate to him because I suffer from the same problem ~ fear! It has stopped me so many times from doing things that will help me reach my goals.

So now that it's out in the open, we are going to encourage each other to break through that fear and start achieving our goals!

Other nuggets from my Hubby....He said, "The journey is not a straight path.....No where is the journey straight....You will go through the storms and winds of life! Look for the lessons that the Lord is showing you. I did not see any lesson when I was riding with the wind...I saw it only when I turned around facing the wind! Once I embraced it...I found success! I often find myself leaning on myself only...allowing my health and lack of sleep to be my crutch and my excuse! Today, I'm going to start leaning on my God and quit making excuses!!"

I so love my Hubby!

This story helped me see that the journey is not a straight path to success. It's a journey of obstacles. Even with all the tools and support I have, I'm still going to be bumped off my plan. The new thing that I learned, is sometimes there's something I need to learn during these times of obstacles. So now, instead of fighting the obstacles, I'm going to look for my lesson and even some miracles! I'm never going to take my eyes of the goal, but I will keep pushing through whatever is given to me and fight until I get there!

How about you....Do you fight the wind?

Keep focused!

We Can Do This!!!!

2012-02-08T08:51:00.000-08:00

Failures are milestones on the success journey.

Each time you plan, risk, fail, reevaluate, and adjust, you have another opportunity to begin again, only better than the last time!

Becoming a Person of Influence

GOT TO KEEP PUSHING THROUGH!!

STAY FOCUSED!!

Things are Happening!!

2012-02-07T09:02:00.000-08:00

Well even though the pounds are not just shedding off...things are happening!! I had a body comp yesterday and found that my Percentage of Lean Body Mass went from 64% to 66.1% and my Percentagle of Body Fat went from 35.6% to 33.9%. Getting leaner!!

The real key to success and to reaching your potential lies in your ability to continually improve.

Activity alone does nothing for you.

But when you set the right goals and work to reach them instead of simply staying busy, improvement is not only obtainable ~ it’s inevitable.

Becoming a Person of Influence

I guess the point is..... to keep pushing toward the goal...even if you can't see the changes. If you are diligent....focused....working your plan....THINGS WILL HAPPEN!!

Stay focused!

Some Inspiration

2012-02-06T08:44:00.000-08:00

If you’re willing to stay determined, work according to plan, and keep getting up when you get knocked down, you will be able to achieve your goals ~ and someday your dreams!

Becoming a Person of Influence

Reality

2012-02-03T05:50:00.000-08:00

I'm still up 6 pounds from my trip to Austin. Things have been so difference since I've been back. Came home the first week having to prep my house to be painted, work and just life stuff. The next week and a couple of days were spent painting and visiting with our son. This week, I've tried to get back to normal. Since Austin and with all of the busyness of life, I have been so lax on my morning Treadmill time and I've lost my variety in food selections. I feel I'm on auto pilot.....but going nowhere with my weight loss.

Just now, I have my workout clothes on....yes....I'm getting onto the Treadmill....even if it kills me....Anyway, I happen to look down and my legs looks soooo fat. I have not seen this for a while, have my legs changed that much in 3 weeks. I mean, prior to Austin, I was on the Treadmill 5-6 days per week. Since I've been back, it's been, maybe 3 days per week. (I have also made it to see my trainer and other classes, but I've been lax with the treadmill) Can this short a time, of inactivity, really make that much difference. That is scary!!!

Right now, I feel as big as I did when I weighed 274 pounds. That is a terrible feeling!

This weekend I will be facing nothing but food situations that will be out of my control. Frankly I'm worried for myself, as I can't seem to get on my path.

Anyway, all I can do for today, is make the best choices I can. I'm going to exercise, drink my water and eat my healthy food.

I will let tomorrow worry for itself and when I get there, I'm going to still make good choices and do what I know is the right thing for me.

How are you going to handle this weekend - with all the football parties and festivities?

Keep focused!

Success

2012-02-02T06:16:00.000-08:00

OK...I apologize. Man I hate to whine, but I could not help myself yesterday. Thanks for listening and super thank you's to those who left a comment. I have to tell you, it really made my day and helped me through!!

So the rest of my day was AMAZING!!!! I set out to do some stuff and I ACTUALLY FOLLOWED THROUGH AND GOT EVERY THING DONE!!

Hummmmm....so I can set a goal and hit it! AMAZING...I knew I had it in me!!

So prior to getting this stuff done.....each thing I had to tackle, I really had to fight to get them done. I kept thinking that I could put them off until tomorrow. I had five things on my list and I had to fight off the thought of putting them off. The most important thing was I needed to go to the gym. I really, really, really.....REALLY fought that one. But you know.....I made myself go and I'm so glad I did. I had a great work out and all during the class, I could feel my confidence grow and I just felt proud that I got this done!! Yeah me!

I also told you in my post, that I was going to get the letters back up on the wall. I did that...and this time....I'm put a lot of adhesive on those suckers. The next time they come down, they will come off with DREAM shaped sheet rock with em!! I also said that I was going to do something to reach towards my goals - which I did by going to the gym. But I went a little further. I've been looking for a gym partner and I saw this woman at the gym, who I spoke with before and I asked her if she needed a gym accountability partner. She said yes and now I have a gym buddy. So cool!!

And finally the best part of the whole day....I did not give in and I did not accept failure!!! I pushed through!! I can really do this!

So I'm off to another successful day!

How about you?

Keep focused!

Am I losing my ***AM?

2012-02-01T07:35:00.000-08:00

This morning, not very happily, I got out of bed and headed for my treadmill. In the semi darkness, I got everything ready and climbed onto the treadmill and almost tripped!! Searching around I finally found the culprit. It was an "E"!

You see I have these five wooden letters on my wall, that really mean something to me. Unfortunately the first two letters fell off the wall early January and now....the third one came down.

All this kind of feels about where I am right now. I have been struggling with getting stuff done...from being the woman I want to be....from living the life I want to live....from reaching my goals. I AM STRUGGLING!!! So while I was on my treadmill, I was thinking about the letters falling from the wall and I was thinking....Is this a sign? Is someone telling me I've lost it. Is there something in the last two remaining letters? AM...What could they mean? What is this about?

Am I losing my DREAM?

Once again, I've got that race horse caught in the gate feeling. It's like I'm in the gate, I'm ready, I'm pushing at the gate, but it won't open. So now I'm in the stall, I'm ready to go and I'm frustrated and mad because I can't get out. I wrote about this feeling before, November 2010, and when re-reading the post, I'm realizing that....I'm in the same place as before....I'm still not ready!!

For the love!!!!.....What in the world is stopping me from at least trying to make things happen?

My hopes of rowing, of being a runner, of being the woman I want to be, of helping other people, of living the life of my dreams.....seems to be ebbing away from me........I'm losing it....I'm losing my letters!

So what do I do....well first off, I'm adhering those letter right back up on that wall and today.....I'm going to do something to reach for my goals. I'm not going to give in and accept failure. I'm pushing through!!

Can I do it? Can you?

Keep focused!

Are you thinking....or doing?

2012-01-30T07:16:00.000-08:00

Joy it is not about what you think.....it's about what you do.......

You think you're an athlete, you think you are healthy and fit, you think you're following your health and fitness plan and doing exactly what your trainer asks you to do, you think you're a great Wife, Mother and Grandma (Baboo), you think you're a great housekeeper, you think you're a great employee, you think you are creative, you think you're a great neighbor, you think you are a giver......

You think...

You think....

You think.....

This is what you think.....But is it what you do?

How about you...are you just thinking about things or are you doing all you can to achieve your goals in life? Are you all you want to be?

Lately, I've been doing a lot of thinking....Now it's time to do!!!

How about you....Are you with me?

Just do it!!

Keep focused!!

Update

2012-01-29T10:29:00.000-08:00

Play this first ~ then read......

What a Wonderful World!!!

Been humming this all morning. I'm grateful to be a live and for all things I have.

Feeling a little better. Home all cozy and taking care of myself. Still have all the symptoms, but I'm hopeful to be better tomorrow!!!

Something I learned recently....In order to get to your goals....you have to have passion. While reading articles of others who have achieved big things in their lives, the common thing they all had was they had passion. I honestly have to say, that I have had a lot of passion for a lot of things. Usually these things don't have anything to do with me and what I want or need. It's always for someone else. It's time, for me, to put some passion into living MY life and accomplish things that are important to me. I'm going to be more passionate about my health and weight loss plan...more passionate about my marriage and family and finally more passionate about my writing (the novel stuck in my head) and for my crafts!

How fun is that?

Stay focused!

Well no wonder....

2012-01-27T13:02:00.000-08:00

I have had a hard time this week getting it together. I worked out only one day and the rest of the week, I was home from work and into bed early. I have not been very productive. Well today, I'm down with a bug. Squeaky voice, sore throat, headache and congestion. I want my Mama!

Anyway, just knowing that I was fighting a bug, all week, gives me a little hope, because I'd thought I'd lost my mojo for working out. Thankfully, even though I'm not doing much today, I have a spark of excitement growing.....Just knowing that maybe tomorrow or the next day, I will be back in the game.

Honestly.....I CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!

Take care of yourself today...

Stay focused!

Oh my Goodness!!

2012-01-25T20:03:00.000-08:00

I just heard something on Dr. Laura's radio program that so spoke to me. A woman called in needing help with an issue that has been going on for a while. She was unable to complete some certification for her work. She had been sabotaging herself. She's paid for the classes, she'd do the work, but then she would not complete the course.

Even though, I was not the caller and really talking to Dr. Laura and even though our problems are really different, I totally could apply this conversation to my own weight loss and fitness journey.

I feel like I've done an OK job with my journey so far....but in the back of my beady little brain...something is niggling at me and I really feel like something is stopping me from reaching my goals.

So here's the call....with me inserting my info and and my situation into the transcript....Read on to see how it applies and how maybe this new knowledge will help get me on the road to success.....

Dr. Laura: "Joy, welcome to the program."
Joy: "Hi, am I on the air?"
DL: "Yes you are Ma'am."
Joy: "OK, my question is.....How can I stop self sabotaging myself during my health and fitness journey?
DL: "I don't know what that means. Self sabotaging yourself...what does that mean?"
Joy: "Ummmm.....I've been on this health and fitness journey for over 2 years now and if I could quit sabotaging myself and get to business, I would be at my goal weight. I'm mean, I only needed to lose 124 pounds to begin with. I've lost 70 so far and I could be at my goal weight if I would quit messing around. I've put a lot of time and effort into the gym and eating well (most of the time), but I keep doing things that stall my progress."
DL: "Well you know that if you got to your goal weight, you'd have a lot more responsibility."
Joy: "I know."
DL: "Now think about that. That's important. If you followed through and got to your goal weight, you would have a lot more burden on your back and a lot more responsibility and some people find that scary."
Joy: "I actually love the added responsibility and I would love to be able to lose the weight so I could help others...."
DL: "No, no, no, no....you can't say you love something that you are avoiding."
Joy: "Well I've been doing a lot of good things to work toward my goals, because ultimately, I want to help others with their journey to health and fitness, but I've just stalled myself out."
DL: "Yes, see you'd have more responsibility.
Joy: "OK"
DL: "Well what else would you have more of if you reached your health and fitness goals? People would have higher expectations of you?."
Joy: "That is true."
DL: "So, you'd have more responsibility and people would expect more."
Joy: "Yes"
DL: "Anything else that would change?"
Joy: "I'm not sure."
DL: "Well think a little bit....if you lose the weight, get healthy and fit, some things would change. What would increase is you'd have....More responsibility....People would expect more.... What else would increase?"
Joy: "I think that's all that would increase."
DL: "So lets look at what would decrease. If you lose the weight...what would decrease in your life?
Joy: "My fear!"
DL: "What else?"
Joy: "Disappointment from my family and friends....and co-workers!"
DL: "Uhuh"
Joy: "And I would have to keep my fitness up and not gain the weight back. That would be awful!"
DL: "No, that would be an increase!"
DL: "Ok, there's fear....and disappointment....you've disappointed other?"
Joy: "Right!"
DL: "Ok, I'm going to list 4 big things and you're going to tell me which one you are avoiding....and this is not going to be easy! Are you avoiding responsibility? Are you avoiding greater expectations on you? Are you avoiding disappointment of others? Are you avoiding regaining the weight?"
Joy: "Ummmmh?"
DL: "You have to pick one."
Joy: "Expectation of others....."
DL: "And that's the flip side of disappointment..."
Joy: "True"
DL: "So, on the one hand, people are disappointed with you and that hurts you. And on the other hand, if you lost the weight and kept it off, all of that would stop. So what would be a good reason to not let go of people's disappointments? How does that protect you?
Joy: "They don't expect me to get this done. I mean, I've tried many times, I'm sure they are waiting for me to fail. So...."
DL: "Which means, that protects you how?....It makes life a lot easier if you don't reach your goals. Life is going to get tougher if you succeed."
Joy: "Yeah, I know."
DL: "Sympathy will be gone....A lot of sympathy gone!"
Joy: "True."
DL: "See you are used to being "kind of a loser".
Joy: "Well sort of....I have had some success!"
DL: "Just listen to me, I said, "sort of a loser"....you're "familiar" with that role...you know how to play it. Being a success, the power that goes with it, the expectations that goes with it, the potential for failure that goes with it.....It's easier to just disappoint others."
Joy: "But...in the past...."
DL: "We're not talking about what happened in the past. Because wherever you've been, you've left and you've returned to disappointing others.... because that is your familiar place."
Joy: "But I don't want to disappoint...."
DL: "It doesn't matter what you want....this is what you DO
Joy: "OK"
DL: "We all can say things....I want to be thin, I want to be fit, I want to write books...whatever it is. What we do, tells us what we fear and what we love."
DL: "Now sit and think about what is the worst part of getting more powerful and successful."

Commercial break.....

DL: "OK, Joy, you've had some time to think about my question."
Joy: "OK, the worst part about getting more powerful and successful is......If I fail, then my fears of being a failure and gaining all the weight back will be true."
DL: "Bingo! That's exactly right!
Joy: "Yep! Because if I don't try and get this done and then if I fail then I'm a loser!"
DL: "That's right"
Joy: "Yep!"
DL: "So I guess we should not try!"
Joy: "That's what I've been doing by sabotaging myself."
DL: "Yeah, it's a good plan, but lets do it without stalling your progress."
Joy: "I know....well I try, but I deliberately eat stuff I shouldn't or avoid my work outs, you know....I guess I just deliberately don't do it!"
DL: "Well you try.........to fake it with these other people. So they will think well of you."
Joy: "Yes!"
DL: "Here's the deal.....the first day that I went from a local radio show to an international one, it was over night. Friday was local, Monday was international. I sat by my phone over the weekend, hoping someone would call me and tell me they changed their mind. Because I thought, you know, if you fail locally, less people know about that than if you fail internationally. So I thoroughly understand as does every other human being reading this...that taking risks exposes you to some failure, some embarrassment...but it is the word "some". Because you have had enough life experience and you're smart enough that if you made some mistakes that wouldn't make you a loser and a failure, that would make you a successful person, who like everyone else, made some mistakes. I think you're assuming that it has to be all or none! You either have to be perfect at it or you seriously suck! And there's nobody you know, in a position of power, who has not goofed. Do you?"
Joy: "No"
DL: "Does that make them a loser?"
Joy: "Some do!"
DL: "Only if they don't learn from it and repair it."
Joy: "True!"
DL: "So if you make some mistakes, you'll go....Oops and you'll learn something from it and you'll repair it and that's what makes a successful person, not somebody who makes no errors......About six years ago I was learning how to sail, and I was doing a race and we had to change a sail....there's one in the front and there's one in the back. We had to change the sail in the front. That's not my job...my job is to steer. I'm supposed to pay attention to may job and ignore everybody else. Sometimes that's hard, but I'm getting better at it. And this guy who's had 35 years of experience hoists the sail up....upside down! OK...and I'm looking up and I'm thinking....that looks different! Laughing.....but I figure, I'm just a novice, I must not know something. I'm doubting myself, right? So I don't say anything. Well the guy who hoisted it looked up, and said, "Oh, my God" and had that sail down and flipped over so fast it was amazing. And what impressed me was I did not think that he was a jerk or a loser because he hoisted it upside down....stuff happened....it shouldn't but it does! What impressed me was how quickly he knew how to remedy it! And that's what I remember from the story of how impressed I was that he knew what to do. So when you get your power and you get successful, you're going to make mistakes! And the big thing is, are you just going to collapse? Are you just going to hate yourself? Are you going to throw yourself out of the window of your mind? Or are you going to fix it?
Joy: "Well I know what I've already done, so I guess I will fix it then."
DL: "Yes...and you're going to join the rest of us who struggle."
Joy: "Oh...OK!"
DL: "See you've been thinking that there's something usual about you and there isn't! You're just like the rest of us. Scared..."
Joy: "Yeah.."
DL: "That's the problem...you think that you're alone. I mean I sat there...."I" sat there and hoped that somebody would fire me over night so I would not have to take the risk. But I tell you, I turned on that microphone and I felt wonderful, because I was in the position to help more people. It's all in how you look at it. But I spent the weekend with the same worries that you've had for decades. So I'm trying to tell you it's normal. What makes the difference is you excepting it as normal and moving ahead anyway."
Joy: "OK"
DL: "So, get your self back in the game, make some mistakes, learn how to remedy them and keep going up that ladder!!!"
Joy: "OK"
DL: "Because that will ultimately make you happy!"
Joy: "Yes!"
DL: "Being here does not make you happy....I want you to be happy!!"
Joy: "OK!"
DL: "So call me when you, lose the weight and reach your health and fitness goals!"
Joy: "I will!!!!"

Keep focused!

Are you Inspired?

2012-01-20T07:36:00.000-08:00

Inspiration.....do you need it? Are you looking for it? Are you inspired now?

Have you ever wondered how those who have gone before you found their inspiration? I suppose there have always been others around who could have inspired them. Just like today, with the wonderful tool of the Internet, we can Google up all kinds of inspiration with the tips of our fingers. In seconds our computer screen can be filled with hundreds, maybe thousands of inspirational messages, stories and tales from those who have gone before us. Believe me, I've sought out a lot of them!! And yes many inspire me...there have been people, inspirational sayings, posters, writings and advise that have helped propel me on my health and fitness journey. Truly without them, I may not have even started. So I am most grateful!!!

But yesterday, I was really looking for something to get me revved up.....and frankly, nothing was doing it for me. I was as blah and uninspired as I've ever been. Please know, my non-inspiration did not have anything to do with the people who's stories I read, because they are truly inspiring. What it had to do with....was me!

I guess I am just tired of looking for inspiration from others. Finally yesterday, I decided that instead of me always looking to others for inspiration....I decided that I wanted to be the inspiration! Not that I haven't inspired a person or two, but what I'm looking for is this.

There are so many people out there who have giant obstacles in their life, and when they put their mind to it, they overcame those obstacles and achieved amazing feats, that most would say was impossible!

So I'm thinking....yes I have obstacles.....and I have things I want and need to do. But today, even with the success I've had so far, I'm still hiding behind this wall of fat and I have been too afraid to really put myself out there to reach my goals.... to afraid to break the wall down....

I guess I've been searching for the next new phrase or comment, or suggestion that will help me to be willing to go to that next level. I think I'm still looking for the easy answer, or a sign, or something that will help me. But for me, the reality is....there's nothing stopping me from busting down all of those bricks in that very thick wall. I'm free to bust them down....I'm free to takes steps toward my goals....There is nothing holding me back...except me! The other thing is....it's not going to be easy, yes I will have obstacles and closed doors....but that does not need to stop me. There is nothing stopping me from the impossible!!!

What I'm supposed to do is to keep pushing through, every day!! Doing all I can each day, not taking my eyes off of my goals. I'm to push forward...all the way...without stopping! My attitude needs to be that, nothin's stopping me! I'm going for it ~ TODAY!!!

I am ready to push down the entire wall...I am ready to do the work...I am ready to make things happen...I am ready to be the inspiration!!!!

The things you do today are an investment for tomorrow.

The greater the price you are paying, the greater the potential dividends you may receive.

If you want to know what your future will look like, find its pattern in the present.

Becoming a Person of Influence

Are you ready to be the inspiration? Lets do it!!

Keep focused!

You were right!

2012-01-17T09:05:00.000-08:00

I have such wise and amazing friends! On my last post I shared that after getting home from Austin, I had gained over 9 pounds in a week. Even with heavy exercise, good food choices and water consumption, I had a gain. I was really hoping for and pushing for a loss. Instead when I jumped on the scale I saw this disappointing gain of 9 pounds.

I was feeling really frustrated, mad and defeated!

Honestly I had a great week, last week, and I did not think I'd see this happen.

Well my wise and encouraging friends helped me make it through the day with all of their love and support and I am happy to report 3 of those pounds are gone ~ Just like they said they would be!

Getting back to my normal routine is awesome! I feel so much better and "in control" of things. I had a great food day, drank all my water, did 5 minutes treadmill, 15 minutes jumping rope, 10 minutes rowing machine 30 minutes on the bike and 45 minutes of weight lifting. I felt great when I got home!

So happy to see that scale moving in the right direction!

How are you doing today? Are you working your plan?

Keep focused!

A Bit Discouraged!

2012-01-16T06:39:00.000-08:00

Being away from home is difficult for me. During my journey, I've had several vacations and been pushed out of my routine many times and I've never come back this off track!

I am up 9 pounds. Is this possible in one week? For those who travel, do you experience this?

Of ALL the vacations I've had, I was the most focused and determined to stay true to my plan. I had two flying days and 5 vacation days. The flying days only having access to restaurant or airplane food and during the vacation we had access to a grocery store, but was unable to cook anything in our room. We had some fresh fruit and yogurt in our room. I am so thankful to live in Oregon, our fruit and veggies are so fresh and wonderful. Even in the winter. The fruit and veggies in Austin were not good! Well at least they were not good at the hotel.

Anyway, I did not have a whole meal the whole time I was there. I halved everything and my Hubby and I either shared or I had the other half for lunch the next day. And a lot of our meals were salads, or a meat with veggies. No sauces, red meats (except one time) and very little bread. I only had two desserts (half servings) and a little candy.

I exercised 4 of the days during the week, not including all the walking at the airport for two days. Of those 4 days, I spent 4 hours the first day, about 40 minutes the 2nd day, 2 1/2 hours the 3rd day, plus we walked another 4 miles that day in the park, then the last day I was in there for 1 1/2 hours.

I drank a lot of water.

I even ate off of small plates. Were my half serving sizes still too big. Did not always look like it to me.

(I did have alcohol each evening - I don't usually do that)

So what happened?

What would have happened if I did not do what I did?

Frequent travelers....any thoughts?

Really disappointed. I never wanted to see 213 again. NEVER!!

I'm back at it today, but not very enthusiastically....

I guess I have a little motivation to keep going. Because if being focused like I was did not help me, what would I be like if I just let myself go...Geez, this is frustrating!

Here's a little Nugget from my toolbox...

Before you can proceed on any great journey, you must have a dream.

The promise of the dream helps you take the first step.

The hope of achieving the dream keeps you going, day after day, even when you feel too tired, too sick, disappointed, or discouraged to take another step.

Source: Becoming a Person of Influence

Keep focused...rah rah.....

I got Tagged!!!

2012-01-13T07:44:00.000-08:00

Tagged: I was tagged by Michele and Jessica! Thank you so much!! This is a fun way to share a little bit more about me and to learn a little more about some of you, too! There are a few rules about being tagged:

From Michele at Ruminations and Uncovering: Toward a New Me!

1. Post these rules.

2. You must post 11 random things yourself.

3. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post.

4. Create 11 new questions for the people you tag to answer.

5. Go to their blog and tell them that you've tagged them.

6. No stuff in the tagging section about "you are tagged if you are reading this." You legitimately have to tag 11 peeps!

Here are my eleven random tidbits:

The freezer in our house is like a vault and I can't remember the combination. Anything that goes in there, I totally forget about. Great place for Hubby to store his stash of goodies.
I cry when watching sappy movies...sometimes commercials.
Love the color purple.
Want to go to Haiti to help with the earthquake restoration.
Love gardening!
Wanna row in the Senior Olympics (I'm old enough now)
I was asked the other day if I was over 21....I'm 50! I asked my Hubby if the guy was just being nice. Hubby said, not sure, but take it as a compliment anyway. I did!!
I pick up trash. A little OCD about trash. Makes me crazy to walk by and not pick it up!
I think my hair color is really brown.
This must be a growing older thing...but I'm losing my eyebrows!! They are there, just really blond and short. I will be all pencil soon! Not sure if I can do the tattoo thing.
Love love love my Hubby, Kids, Grandbabies and little bubs~My puppies Bentley and Beemer.

Now on to Michele's questions:

1. Did you play a musical instrument in school? Which one? Do you still play? I played the Clarinet in high school (for a short time), then learn how to play the piano. Of course, I quit playing. I really enjoyed it, might pick it up again.

2. Do you collect things? What? I've collect Snowmen, Santa's and now I'm into unusual egg timers. I have a pepper, tomato, pig, owl, strawberry....looking for holiday timers!

3. What was the last sporting event that you attended? High School football game.

4. Have you ever seen brilliant night sky stars? Where were you? At Lake Powell while we were on a houseboat, we saw the most beautiful light show. There were so many stars it took your breath away.

5. What would a perfect day be for you? Every day that I wake up is a perfect day! Bonus days is when my Hubby and I sneak away to a coffee shop before work, get grand baby hugs and kisses, have an excellent food day, hiney hicking workouts, hard work, good books, making cookies....

6. What is one of your latest book reads? What kept you reading it? Currently reading Kick-Ass Creativity. Motivated to read it because I want to get my creativity fired up!

7. What kind of pen do you use? Gel pens - purple ink :-)

8. Apple or PC? Well I have a PC, but really really really want an Apple!

9. What magazines or weeklys do you read or subscribe to? I subscribe to Taste of Home and Fitness. (Funny all about food and exercise)

10. What satisfies you about the work that you do? I get to make a difference in young people's lives. I want them one day to sit on their front porch, rockin' in their rocking chairs and remember that woman (and I don't even care if they remember my name), but I want them to remember that woman who made a difference in their lives, with some little Nugget of Truth, that I was able to share with them. How cool would that be?

11. What do you hope for yourself in one year? I hope to be down 35 more pounds, I am determined to get in that row boat! Want to have my novel started....or maybe done (wouldn't that be cool?), I want to get up on my water ski, want to run a couple more 5k's, want to incorporate time for my crafts, want to mentor women.

Now, passing on the tags. Loads of you have already been tagged, so I extend the tags to the following blog author's and welcome responses from ALL readers of this (my!) blog:

Margene
Chris
Sarah
Julie
Lori
Kristin
Jane
Ewa
Sharon
Kimberlynn
Dawne

with these questions:

1. If money wasn't an option, what would you really want to do for a living?

2. What is the one thing that you are really afraid to do?

3. What brings you the most joy?

4. What exercise is your favorite?

5. What is the one thing that pushed you to start your weight loss and fitness plan?

6. What keeps you motivated?

7. Who inspires you?
8. Is there anything holding you back from achieving your dreams? If so, what?

9. Are you a hugger? When was the last time you got hugged?

10. What would your perfect day look like?

11. Are you going to reach your goals? If so, what's your plan?

Here's the questions from Jessica....

21 Things You Probably Didn't Know About Me!

I was so excited when Jessica from See How She Runs tagged me in her post 21 Random Bits Post! I love learning new things about my bloggy friends! Here are my 21 things..

1.) Got B's and C's in school

2.) Was on the swim team and was a really good swimmer in Jr & Sr high school. Got lots of awards and lettered 6 times.

3.) Taught myself how to snow ski by sitting on the mountain watching other people ski.

4.) Love flowers and butterflies.

5.) Would love to have a million dollars to give away!

6.) Would love to be a housewife and not have a full time job! I would have a super clean house, cook awesome meals for my Hubby, go to the gym, do crafts, volunteer and work part time at a craft shop or florist.

7.) I love to organize things.

8.) I'm not a shopper and would not know a bargain if it slapped me in the face!
9.) My most favorite time of year is fall.....no winter.....no spring.....no summer! I guess I love all seasons!
10.) Would love to live in a small town in the mountains. Lakeside house would be great, with just enough sun to have a garden and fruit trees.
11.) Always wanted a horse.
12.) I am not book smart at all...but very resourceful!
13.) I loved playing with my Barbie when I was a kid. I had a Barbie house, furniture, car, pool and horse. Of course, she had lots of clothes and shoes oh of course she had Ken!
14.) I love to play games ~ Dominos, Phase 10, computer games, Rummy, Apples to Apples, and many others.
15.) I have a treasure that I put way up in a tree when I was a kid. I would love to climb up there and see if it's still there. I can't remember what I put in the box, but I'm sure it's a treasure!
16.) I started my "Hope Chest" when I was 10. I was lucky enough to see it when I was older and got a look at the treasures I stored there. Oh my goodness! What was I thinking?
17.) My first dog when I was a kid was named Elroy. He was so mean! Used to bite me all the time.
18.) I will be married 25 years in August. Hoping to fit into my wedding dress. I can get it over my head and just past my shoulders....Goal is to lose 35 more pounds before then. I can do it!
19.) Being 50 is awesome! I feel better now than when I was in my 30's and 40's! (I don't really remember my 20's - too busy with my kids!)
20.) I actually went to the movies and did not buy popcorn, candy or soda. Amazing how much crunching is going on when you are not one of the crunchers.
21.) Really love to color.

Wow - that's it. My brain is mush!

I look forward to reading and learning more about all of you. Thanks for sharing a bit of your day by stopping by. Have a great day everyone and stay strong in your journey to be fit and healthy!

Stay focused!

Working Hard!

2012-01-12T06:53:00.000-08:00

Had a great day yesterday. Spent a lot of time in the gym. Did 65 minutes on the Treadmill, 30 minutes on the bike and 45 minutes lifting weights. Here's what the gym looks like....

Here's a picture of me.....

That workout outfit is an original...I wore this when I was 274 pounds. At that weight the shirt was skin tight. Now it hangs on me and there's plenty of room. Still got big boobs ~ will they ever go away? Don't like em!! Sorry guys - TMI!!! (I will post a picture in my regular clothes soon)

Then when my Hubby got home we went for a walk in the park. We were gone for an hour and a half and walked about 4 miles. It was beautiful.

Look at my inspiration...

SOOOOOO COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Had a great food day....well except for the piece of chocolate cake and ice cream (1/2 of it - Hubby got the other half)....well I am on vacation. It was delicious!!!

Unfortunately I was up a pound from yesterday. Ack!! Of course I was fully dressed and weighing on a different scale. Will be fun to see what my scale says.

Anyway, no matter what it says, I made the best choices I could with what I had to work with. I ate good food, moved my body and drank a lot of water!! That is success for me!

How are you doing?

Keep focused!!!

Vacation?

2012-01-11T08:13:00.000-08:00

I'm on the weirdest vacation ever!!! My Hubby is taking a class in Austin Texas, that's where I am today! It's so beautiful!

Anyway, as usual, I had my mind made up on how I was going to spend my time....Lounge by the pool, soak up some rays, shop etc. Except it winter here too!! Why did I think just because it's Texas it should be hot. Anyway, the weather is just like at home, so I'm in for most of the day. There will be no lying by the pool or catching rays. Drat....

So I had to switch gears. In my mind, I envision myself a different person. You know, someone a little more refined. Someone who listens to Classical music, reads the Classics. I'm a wanna be. The reality is...I think that radio and TV talk shows are the best and I read Christian murder mysteries. Humph!

So on Monday, I decided to change my perspective on life and see what it's like to do something different. So instead of having the TV on or listening to my podcast radio show, I would find a Mozart radio station. You know they have them on Pandora. I turned it on and it was just lovely. So that morning while reading my Bible, I listened to Mozart. It was kind of cool having back ground music, it seemed to follow the story line and it really made the reading much more interesting!

Then I hit the gym. I have always wanted to hang out in a gym and just do what I wanted to do, with no time limit and that's exactly what I did. I spent 65 minutes on the Treadmill, did my whole weight routine, including planks and push ups, then I did 30 minutes on the bike, did some stretching and then went to the pool for some laps, ending up in the hot tub!! Three and a half hours later I was done! I really did something I've always wanted to do and it was certainly different than my normal workout routine.

Then the rest of the day was spent reading blogs and working on my Bobybugg. I don't think it's tracking my steps correctly, so they asked me to do another 30 minute walk, which I did. After that was done, they wanted another 30 minutes. I said, "Look lady...I've now spent 4 hours in the gym today, and I'm not doing any more. I will do it tomorrow!" Which she agreed would be a good idea.

We are staying at the Embassy Suites and they are doing major renovations on 3 floors below me. So every day between 12:30 to 2:00pm they turn the water off. Oh and of course, they are making tremendous noise from about 9am to 6pm. So my Hubby gets back from class around 3:30 or so, so after my workout, I thought I had time to get into the shower before he comes home. But nope...the water was still not on at 4:30pm. So I had to use wet towelettes to clean up. Thankfully I smelled more like chlorine than anything else. My hair was a wreck, but what can you do? We went to dinner and thankfully Hubby is willing to split everything. So we got a sandwich and a salad. I really had an OK food day, except we got a little bag of pistachios and we mostly ate the whole thing that night. Geez!

So after a great Monday, I thought I would repeat it again on Tuesday. Nope, not such a great day! I did not get up to read my Bible or to listen to Mozart. I spent a lot of my day working on the Bodybugg instructions...They wanted 10 minutes walking warm up, then 20 minutes on the Treadmill, then 10 minutes rest and then 2 hours of normal activity. I was still stuck to my room, because I could not take the armband off and of course there was no water for a shower.....Then after that I spent a good part of my day talking with the tech people, who were running diagnostics on Bodybugg. Still don't know if its working or not. I will find out in 7 days. Needless to say it was a wasted day for me. Also, I spent the whole day watching crime shows. Which did not really help my disposition! When I was done with my tech person, I went to get a shower and the water was on, but cold. Augh!! When Hubby got home, after a very short time, he said, has this noise been going on all day. And I snapped "YES". I mean yes....I have to admit it was getting to me. Then he made the great decision to see if we could move to a different floor to which they agreed. So we spent a good part of our evening moving and then we went to dinner. Again splitting the meal.

My food was not that great yesterday. I went to the little store and got a rice crispy treat and Rollos. I don't know why I did this. I guess I needed something familiar...something I could control.

I totally got home, had my healthy lunch and ate both of my treats...super fast!! Augh!

So my perspective showed me, that when I put myself first and do the right thing. Great things happen. I have a successful day, I feel good about what I got accomplished. When I choose to let my circumstances get in my way, then I fall back to my old habits, which does not make me feel accomplished or successful. Just makes me feel bad. Real bad!!!

So this morning, I got up and had my healthy breakfast and then promptly fell asleep until 9:00am. I thought, well since the morning is almost gone, I might as well turn on my crime shows, you know...give into the circumstance. I almost went there, but instead, I got up and turned on the A/C and got the room really cold -- that got me revved up! Then I got myself dressed, cleaned up my room, wrote this post and then I'm off to the gym. I'm going to do a similar routine as Monday, then if the water is on....which I hope it will be, I'm going to shower and I'm getting out of this room for the afternoon. I'll walk to wherever is safe to go to and I'm seeing some stuff. Then when Hubby gets home, we are going on a 8 mile trek around the lake. I guess there's a Stevie Ray Vaughan statue he wants to see. Then it's off to dinner.

Hope you are doing something different with your health and fitness plan. Are you getting a new perspective?

Keep focused!!!!

I Fit With Room To Spare

2012-01-08T08:51:00.001-08:00

I am on a plane right now - crying!!!!!! I have a window seat and I fit with room. I tried the middle seat to be sure and I can do it without leaking over the edge. Oh my goodness the journey is so worth it.

More to follow!!!

Keep focused on your journey!!

Health & Fitness Journey Continues....

2012-01-04T07:24:00.000-08:00

January 1st starts my 3rd year of my health and fitness journey and I'm still fired up and excited! I can't believe it!!! Never would have believed that I'd still be here at this time. I have never been this focused on my health ~ ever!!

Things I've accomplished these past 2 years...

Lost 70 pounds
Gone from sized 24-26 clothes to sized 14-16 ~ sneaking into 14's!! Shirts used to be XXL, now I can fit into my daughters medium sweaters.
I actually shop at more than one clothing and shoe stores. Possibilities are endless.
I exercise 4-6 days per week. I can walk for miles.....At one point, when I was so heavy, I had trouble walking from my car to the mall entrance. No endurance! I have participated in five 5k's and one 10k so far ~ running and walking! The last 5k I ran the whole thing without stopping!
I can run with my Grandbabies!
My life went from feeling almost bed bound with limited possibilities to a whole world of things to do.
I track my food and calories. Still doing it - Never thought I could be so disciplined!
Drink tons of water. Now I crave it like crazy!
I don't fear that I will break chairs and/or furniture. I don't fear that I won't fit in a booth or theater chair. I am anxious about the airplane seat (I'm going to Austin next week). I have not been on a plane for a long time, so I can't wait to see how it goes!
I actually got a coat for Christmas and it fit. That never happens. I always had to take things back. After a while, my poor Hubby quit buying me clothes for Christmas. Too disappointing.

So I'm looking forward to 2012. I have so many tools in my toolbox. I've been through this a while. I know what to expect from myself and my body. I know I can do better and push harder and this year, I am ready to do just that!!!

I am ready to jump in. NO MORE FEAR!!!

How about you.....are you ready to get this done?

Keep focused!!!

Crossing the Threshold...

2012-01-02T16:04:00.000-08:00

Do you have something you want and need to do?

Are you at the crossroads?

Is it either put up or shut up time!

If you are at that place and you're ready to cross the threshold and take a hold of life. Then let's do it!!

I'm am so inspired by those who overcome amazing things in their life and who succeed ~ no matter their circumstances.

I want to be one of those people!!!

And yet...I've refused to cross over ~ to take a chance!

Yeah....I've put my toe in the water, I've put my neck out a ways, I've opened the door....just a crack ~ only to jump out of the water, reel my neck back in and I've slammed the door ~ HARD!!!

Why?

BECAUSE....

Because....

Because why Lord?

I'm afraid!!!

Are you afraid? Are you afraid to take that tiny baby step toward an amazing life. I am....

Why Lord?

I'm afraid of failure.....

Are you afraid of failure too?

Lord how do I over come this?

Trust me first....And BELIEVE you CAN!!!!

Are you willing?

I'm willing!

Lets make this the best year ever!!!

Lets finally live the life we desire...lets try, lets be willing, lets take some risks (legal and healthy ones!!), lets reach our goals, touch lives, make a difference!!

We can do it!!!

Keep focused!

So you think you can't?

2011-12-30T18:46:00.000-08:00

I have no words of my own....but I can share what I saw from a movie I just saw. It's called....Soul Surfer. If you want to be inspired to do the impossible....Watch it!

It's an inspiring true story of teen surfer Bethany Hamilton, who lost her arm in a shark attack and courageously overcame ALL ODDS to become a champion again, through her SHEER DETERMINATION and UNWAVERING Faith.

In the wake of this life-changing event that took her arm and nearly her life, Bethany's feisty determination and steadfast beliefs spur her toward an adventurous comeback that gives her the grit to turn her LOSS into a GIFT for OTHERS!!!

A quote from the move.... "I don't need easy...I just need possible!"

You can change you life!!

Are you ready for your possible?

Lets do it!!!!

Keep focused!

A Christmas Gift

2011-12-24T16:39:00.000-08:00

My Hubby and I rarely go to Starbucks for coffee. First of all it's too high in calories for me and too expensive, so we only go on special occasions or if I have a gift card. Lucky for us it was both. So this morning we donned on our workout wear and hit the streets walking to the coffee shop. Our round trip is a little over 2 miles and it's just a great time to be together and enjoy our beautiful Oregon weather. Today it was cold and crisp, the sky was blue and the sun was shinning. We were in great spirits anticipating all of our Christmas festivities that we were about to enjoy!

My Hubby and I ordered our drinks and found a cozy spot for us to enjoy our special treat. Of course we ordered thinking about our waistlines. I ordered a tall, "skinny" Chi Tea and Hubby ordered a tall "skinny" Peppermint Mocha - Yummy!!!

As I was waiting for my Hubby to bring back our coffees, I was just sitting in my comfy chair thinking about the many Blessings I have in my life. I could really feel the love of the Lord this morning and I was filled with joy!!

Soon my Hubby had our drinks and he was standing in front of me trying to figure out who's drink was who's and as he was handing me my drink an older gentleman came into the store and came right up to us. Without any word from him, he threw his hat on my Hubby's chair and started to get in line.

I simply said, "Sir, that is my Husband's chair."

Then the man snapped angrily at me and said, "Well I don't see him sitting there!!" I tried to explain, that he just got back with our coffee and he was getting ready to sit.

Without another word, the man grabbed up his hat and stormed toward the order line.

I was floored!! First of all, the man came in and did not assess the situation around him. He just bullied his way toward the chair. Secondly, he could have said sorry and found another seat. But no, he had to be mean and spoil my day.

Well after he did what he did, I called out to him....."Well Merry Christmas to you!"

That was when something came over me that I cannot explain......Without a word to my Hubby, I got up from my chair and went to the man. I said, "Sir, I am sorry, you can have my chair."

When our eyes met, I saw so much sorrow and pain. We made a connection that I cannot explain. It's like he transferred his pain to me....we exchanged something! Because he gave me a tiny smile and he said, "I'm sorry!.

I then said, "Merry Christmas", to his reply he said with a joyful smile, "Merry Christmas!"

Before I knew what I was doing, I grabbed my Hubby and we started back home.

The minute I left the building I started to cry....I had to really think about what the tears were about. Because I was so overcome I could not talk. It was one of those cries that hurt in your throat...You know when you get so choked up you can't talk. That's what it was like.

At first I thought I was crying because of the injustice done to me. Here I was enjoying a Christmas morning with my Hubby and this man spoiled it for me.

But after some time, I realized that I was crying for this man and his pain ~ I could feel it to my core. The other reason why I was crying was because we exchanged a gift. I was able to give him something that morning. I gave him joy, love...and compassion.

As we were walking, holding my Hubby's hand, I wept and wept.

Since I could not talk to my Hubby, I decided to talk to the Lord. He told me that this man's name is Charlie and that I should pray for him. That's all he told me....And that's exactly what we did!

So this Christmas day, would you please give a gift to my new friend Charlie? Please pray for his pain and sorrow to be released and for him to be filled with joy!!

I love you my Friends. Be kind and compassionate to those who harm you. You have no idea where they are coming from. Always expend a gift of love and compassion wherever you go.

Love love love you!

Restoration

2011-12-23T04:06:00.000-08:00

Take a good look at this picture. Have you ever felt like this before? Do you feel like this now. Here you are looking firm, sturdy and in good shape....Even kind of shiny! Feeling good! Oh yeah, you've weathered the storms, fought the good fight and you've made it to your destination. You are ready for your purpose......

But have you ever thought of the journey to get there? To reach those goals? Maybe you are in the midst of your journey ~ you are in process...You are on your way....

Just like this fine desk. Before it was a desk it was once a tree. Can you even imagine what the effort it took to get to the finished product? Well first, we need some dirt, then a seed, then water and sunshine and time....plenty of time and patience. Do you suppose there might be some perseverance and some grit to weather the storms? How about being frozen, scorched, parched, lived in, rubbed up against and maybe even pooped on. Have you ever felt like that?

Well then after a lot of time, the tree is ready for harvest. The once majestic, is drastically cut down, hauled off in a truck to the mill, where it is debarked, cut up and whatever else they do to make a tree into lumber.

Then our once tree, now lumber, is off to the carpenter who crafts the raw material into a fine school desk.

Now look at the picture again. It is a really fine desk. Pretty cool!!

But not only did this desk have to go through the PROCESS of going from a tree, to lumber before becoming a desk. Once it was done....it had to survive the batterings of life. I mean this ole desk was battered!!! Not only by the numerous amounts of kids who used it....but this desk was found, in November, by my Friend, who found it under a mound of rubble, in a destroyed school. This school is located in Haiti and this desk has been under the rubble since the earthquake.

My Friend said he was helping remove rubble from a building, where he found this now fine piece of furniture in pieces. At first he did not know what it was, but he kept finding more and more of the desk, and after a lot of searching and time and patience, he was able to recognize what it was and he decided to REBUILD the desk and RESTORE it to it's original state.

Can you imagine? That something that was almost beyond recognition has been restored!?!?!

You might be wondering what does an old desk that was reconstructed in Haiti have to do with weight loss and fitness?

I not really sure either, but something is niggling at me....That old desk is like many of us. We were born and we grew into something beautiful, just like the desk. And just like the desk, we've weathered the storms of life, we've been battered, shook up, and some of us, even destroyed!!! Look at some of our bodies. They are broken and misshaped just like the desk. Some of us are beyond repair, because of the choices that are made, the excuses that are used and the lies that are listened to. Others of us are in the PROCESS of being recreated, reconstructed....RESTORED!!

Just like that ole desk, it's taken time, love, care and patience for its journey from wholeness, to brokenness, to restoration....just like it's going to take time, love, care and patience for our weight loss and fitness journey. But if we are diligent.....we will make it....if we keep our focus on the goal and keep pushing forward no matter what.....we will reach our goals!!! We too will be strong, solid, beautiful, purposeful....RESTORED!!

We get to make the choice!

Keep focused

Craziness is Almost Over!

2011-12-21T07:36:00.000-08:00

One more tree to decorate...

A bunch of cookies to make...

Fifteen more Christmas cards to fill out and mail...

Some stocking stuffers to pick up...

A couple of more presents to wrap...

Christmas Eve meal to make...

Three bathrooms to clean...

One and a half days of work...

AND THEN I'M DONE!!!

WHEW!!

Still eating well, drinking my water and exercising.

Down one more pound......

70 pounds lost!!!!!!!!!!!

Woo Hoo!!

Even with all of the busyness ~ you can still make a difference in your health and weight loss!! Don't give up and wait for the New Year. We still have time!!

Keep focused!!

Loving the Season!

2011-12-17T12:56:00.000-08:00

I am absolutely loving the Season! I feel so much joy in my heart, loving my family and friends. Just grateful for all the Blessings the Lord has given me this year! I am hanging on to every minute this season brings. So grateful!!!

Being at 205 pounds is such a Blessing. Yeah I know it's not 150 pounds, but I will soon be there! Last Christmas I was heavier and not as in good a shape as I am this year. Can't wait to see what next year brings!

Even with the busy schedule I am still working my plan. This morning, I was up bright and early and my Hubby and I went for a 4 mile walk in the crisp and foggy Oregon weather. It was wonderful being together and exercising!

Still striving to get more weight off before Christmas!! I can do it!

How about you? Are you still focused on your weight loss and fitness plan!

JUST DO IT!!

Keep focused!!!!

Are you waiting?

2011-12-14T07:19:00.000-08:00

Are you waiting for the New Year to get started on your weight loss and fitness plan? Or maybe are you coasting on your plan until the New Year or are you even thinking about quitting your plan until then?

Now is not the time to quit!! Now is the time to focus!

Even though my schedule is packed, my list is long, and my to do's are many I not waiting for the New Year to keep going on my weight loss and fitness plan.

The worst thing for me would be to wake up on January 1st and have to face pounds added back on. I would hate that! I'm striving to have a loss! I lost weight during Thanksgiving...I can do it again during Christmas!

I am working my plan in spite of everything else I need to do. I'm not stopping! I'm still exercising, keeping my calories at 1600 (using my small dishes - they work!!!), drinking my water and keeping a positive and joyful attitude.

You can do it too!!! I encourage you to make this December the best one ever! How cool would it be to wake up on Christmas morning smaller than you were last year? THAT WOULD BE AWESOME!!

There's still time to get this done!! YOU CAN DO IT!!!

Keep up the good fight and stay focused my Friends. Lets end the year with results!!

Keep focused!

The Easy Fix???

2011-12-12T07:32:00.000-08:00

I have found a wonderful weight loss tool that has really helped me. The sad thing is, that every time I share it, I get the deer in the head lights look. I can almost here the thoughts....Yeah, that works for you, but I'm not trying that. Nope not me!!! I have not had one person even say they were interested.

I bet though, if I would share a fun and easy fix to this weight loss problem, they'd be all over it.

I have been doing this new thing since the first of November and I've lost 10 pounds and maintained my weight through my Birthday, my Grand Babies birthdays, 2 Thanksgiving meals, several restaurant experiences, I've been exposed to sweet and goodies galore and I've even made some mistakes. And I'm still on track.

This is so working for me and I would love for someone else to at least try it. I would love to see if it will really work for others.

Anyone out there willing to give it a go? Any brave souls out there. Anyone want results?

This is what I did.....

I got two sets of beautiful small plates and bowls. See prior post..
On my plate, I fill half of it with veggies and fruit, a quarter of the plate with protein and a quarter of the plate with grains. I allow myself a small portion of dairy.

That's it!

I'm telling you, there is something about eating things from small dishes! I've even had terrible food choices served to me, but if I follow the order of the plate...veggies/fruit, protein and grains, I have not gone wrong!

I've tried this before. I used to eat my regular serving of oatmeal in our regular soup bowls. You know the size, it could fit 3 cups of cereal and milk before it overflows. Of course my oatmeal serving is not that big, it's the 1 serving size. Anyway, I put that one serving size into the regular soup bowl and there were times that I would get done eating that serving and I wanted more. I probably could have had at least one or one and a half servings more to be satisfied.

Now I take that same one serving of oatmeal and I put it in my one-cup bowl and I'm telling you, that I have trouble eating the whole thing. Every day I struggle and sometimes, I just can't do it.

IT'S THE SAME SERVING SIZE!!!! NOTHING CHANGED EXCEPT FOR THE DISHES!!!
Every day after that meal I go away quite satisfied and you know what, I'm not even hungry for my 10:00am snack. I blast right past it to lunch. I'm just not hungry!!

Before I'd be eating my snack by 9:00am and by lunch, I would have eaten my whole lunch, plus my 3:00pm snack and I still would be hungry!!

Now I eat my lunch on my little plate. It looks full and delicious and I'm always satisfied.

That's how I ate my Thanksgiving dinners. On my small plates. I actually lost a pound the day after Thanksgiving!!! I could not believe it!

Even at my company Christmas party, I asked the server for a small plate. I actually pointed to a saucer and she brought me a salad plate. I told her what I wanted to do and even she could not fathom what I wanted to do. Anyway, my meal came and I slide half of it onto the small plate and the other half into a to-go container. I had my meal and I was satisfied. I EVEN HAD DESERT!! Half of it hit my plate and the other half went home with me. I bet I still had 1000 calories for that meal. It was so heavy with cream and sugar. But the good thing is....I did not have 2000 calories!!!

I challenge you to at least try this. I really want to see if this helps others. I know it has changed my life!

Let me know if you are willing to give it a go.

Keep focused!

Guest Post from Liz Davies

2011-12-11T08:29:00.000-08:00

Fitness Encouragement for Cancer Patients

Those undergoing cancer treatments may feel like the therapy are more demanding than the actual disease. Treatments can drain their energy levels and make them feel lethargic all of the time. Other symptoms include feeling sick and nauseous. This is not the lifestyle that anyone wants to live so it is beneficial to know that there are ways to help lessen the effects. Exercise is a great way for cancer patients to reclaim strength and overall wellbeing.

Firstly, physical activity can help people by increasing their muscle and enabling them to become stronger. Often during chemotherapy and radiation muscle is turned into fat so it is important to combat this with strength training if possible. The added strength from doing exercises will allow patients to have more independence and show them that life can still be extremely fulfilling during this time in their life. Any type of physical activity gets the heart moving and blood flowing. The increased heart rate allows patients to feel less lethargic.

Not only is exercise beneficial for physical reasons but it also increases emotional well-being. An improved mood, decreased level of stress, increased self-confidence all help battle the common occurrence of depression that many cancer patients become susceptible to.

What are the best exercises for cancer patients? There is not a specific answer for that. It depends on the type and severity of the cancer and the level of fitness the patient is in. One type of exercise that is usually good for everyone is stretching. There are different ways of accomplishing this but Tai Chi, Pilates and Yoga are common forms that can be changed for different levels of physical fitness. Increased flexibility is important to amplify blood flow and keep muscles and joints active. Another type of exercise that has in the past been avoided is strength training. Muscle is lost so strength training is very important. Types of this exercise include working with resistance bands or lifting weights. Even putting the household groceries is a way to keep the muscles moving in the body. As patients gain more energy cardio exercises like walking, swimming and running are found enjoyable and help manage weight gain.

Motivation is something that may be hard to come across during cancer treatments. Staying positive and setting goals are important ways to stay motivated. Small goals like walking around the block, taking the stairs instead of the elevator are even helpful and prove to themselves that the goals are attainable. It is important to choose exercises that will be found enjoyable so they will be easily fit into a daily routine.

These ideas and tips are ideal for people going through any type of cancer treatment, whether that is mesothelioma or pancreatic cancer. But as always when starting an exercise routine it is important to consult with a doctor or in this case a trainer that specialized and is certified in working with cancer patients.

Liz Davies is a recent college graduate and aspiring writer especially interested in health and wellness. She wants to make a difference in people’s lives because she sees how cancer has devastated so many people in this world. Liz also likes running, playing lacrosse, reading and playing with her dog, April.

Howdy!

2011-12-08T07:37:00.000-08:00

I have had my share of computer problems for sure. Finally I got it back! I've had limited access to a computer, which has been frustrating!! So hopefully, this......Huge Piece of junk will continue to work. :-) and I will be on my way.

It's amazing how I've learned to become dependent on this thing for my weight loss and fitness journey. I track my calories & activity level, blog, and research things. I really need this resource!!

Health Update!

Doing great!! Finally broke through my plateau! I had gained 7 pounds back over September/October. It's amazing how fast that can happen! Looking back, I was struggling with the latest back injury during that time. Anyway on November 1st, I adopted my small dish routine and you know what? It's working!

For the first time ever I actually lost weight during the month of November. At the first of November, I weighed in at almost 215 pounds. On Thanksgiving day I weighed in at 205 pounds. Can you believe it?

I wish I could tell you the total calories I had for each day, but without my computer and Bodybugg, it was just too difficult....OK it was time consuming to calculate manually, so I don't know exactly how many calories I took it, but obviously a lot less!!

At Thanksgiving, my plate was 1/4 smaller than every one else! I did not walk away from the table hungry or unsatisfied. My clothes still felt great! I even had pie....It was just about 2 tablespoons worth, but in my little cup, it looked like a lot more!

Oh and the best part.....I had two Thanksgiving meals in two days and still lost weight!

AMAZING!

Right now, I'm holding at 205. I had this brilliant idea......You know Pistachios are everywhere right now and I thought it would be great to get some.....And you know....Costco has this jumbo bag for just $16.99....so I got a bag! Well come to find out.....they are not just nuts.....but they are coated in salt and pepper! AND THEY ARE AMAZING! A couple of days ago I had some. The next day, my mouth felt awful and my body felt like I had gained 40 pounds. Of course....that did not stop me from having some more the next day. Not quite so many, but just enough and days later, I'm still struggling with the bloated feeling. So I'm drinking lots and lots of water. Hopefully things will get back to normal and I will start losing again!

Well I have so much more to say, but no more time!

I hope you are doing well and I hope you are reaching for your weight loss and fitness goals!!

Keep focused!

Happy Thanksgiving!

2011-11-23T07:32:00.000-08:00

May the Lord richly Bless you this Thanksgiving! May your home be filled with family and friends. May it be filled love, peace and joy! Be safe and warm!

Above all else ~ take care of yourself! Get you exercise in, drink your water, eat sensibly. Don't lose the ground you have taken! Keep pushing forward and keep focused!!

Love love!

What I Focus On...

2011-11-19T10:01:00.000-08:00

I'm very visual, so if I can see it, then I can make it happen.

Example: When I was younger, I wanted to snow ski. I got everything I needed ~ Ski's, boots, poles, warm clothes and my lift ticket and I was ready to go. I looked like a million bucks, all decked out in my new duds! Without having a lesson, I went on the ski lift, not knowing that the area I was going to was for intermediate to advanced experts! Ah...that was so not me!! I had no business being up there because I was still struggling with the rope tow!

My friends that I went with skied before and they soon left me crashing and burning on the side of the mountain. I finally gave myself a break and tried to look pathetic enough for search and rescue to take me down the mountain. Unfortunately no one came to my rescue so I had to fend for myself.

After exhausting myself, I plunked myself into a snow bank and I began to watch the other skiers. From as far up as I could see them to as far down, I watched the movement of their body. I watched how they approached the moguls, how they bent their knees, used their poles, where they positioned everything.

Before long, I began to feel the "rhythm" of snow skiing. Once I got that into my head, I kid you not, I got up out of my snow bank, pointed my skis down hill and I was skiing!!! True story!!

So that's how I work!

Looking back I can see I've used this same technique in other areas of my life. Just never really thought about it. And unfortunately I kind of forgot about this, until recently, when I looked up one day and noticed my Focus Board!

I made this when I first started my weight loss and fitness journey. These were all of the things I wanted to add to my life. Some of the things I've never done before.

The athletic woman - That's how I see myself. Strong and fit!
The Dare to Dream - Is a reminder to me, that dreams can happen!
The picture of the bust and paintbrush - I so want to get my creative self back!
The words in the middle - Are just affirmations words about me!
The words about God - It says, "Let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think about yourself." Romans 12:2
The butterflies - Well God spoke to me one day, using butterflies. This is my reminder of his promise to me!
The woman in the row boat - I still have the dream of rowing in the Senior Games (Olympics for old people) I'm of age now......
The women with the hat - It's about being a Woman of God!
The pen and the hand - I want to be a writer!
The woman on the ski - I so want to water ski again!
The word "Legacy" - I want to change my family tree and create a lasting legacy for my family....
The Sun - My mom always called me sunshine and to me the rays of the sun remind me how far I want to tough others. To the far reaches!!

Funny thing about this poster is, my Grand Daughter looks at it and says that the pictures of the women are me. She says, "That's you, Baboo!" (Her name for me!) She points to each one and says the same thing. So she's already seeing me there!!

I too see me there and some of these things are already happening!

I am starting to see that athletic body!
I am dreaming!
I am getting my creative flair back!
God is transforming me!
God is keeping his promise!
I am a Woman of God!!
I can so see myself rowing!
I am writing!
I can see myself skiing!
I am building the legacy!!
And I am reaching other!!!!!

What I focus on is powerful!!! If you notice...nothing on the poster is looking back.....everything, shown, is pointing forward. Nothing negative.....ONLY POSITIVE!!

I'm on my way to making these things happen!!

How about you? What are you focused on?

Keep focused!!!!

I'm focus!

2011-11-16T13:41:00.000-08:00

Looking ahead for the day....I'm prayed up...I've got my plan....my food is ready, got the water bottles full, my attitude it in check and, today, I'm ready to make stuff happen!!!

This has been my attitude for the entire month of November. At the first of the month, I was logging in at 214 pounds tipping almost to 215 ~ Yikes!!

Focus, determination and just plain hard work is getting me closer to my goal. Today, I finally got back down to 208 pounds. I feel like I'm on my way again!
You know...if I work really hard and stay focused...I could almost be in "wonderland" by New Years!!!!Wouldn't that be awesome?

How about you ~ are you focused?

Just do it!!

Holidays are here!

2011-11-15T10:49:00.000-08:00

OK are you feeling the holiday pressure yet? I was starting to feel it take me down. But instead I decided to get my self together and get focused!

In the past, this time of year, would give me license to do and eat whatever I wanted! Most of the time I would be totally out of my normal routine and out of control with everything....too tired, too stressed, would eat too much and of course spend too much! Over indulgence, in everything, was the recipe for this time of year!

Not this year!

Already I've got my plan in place....

First of all I have my holiday "To do" notebook. The book has two sections for November and December. Each section has a page for each day. Each day I add my list of things to do. When planning my schedule, I make sure that the list is manageable and that I can get each item done that day. I only reschedule an item one more day and I make sure to get it done. If I can't, then I evaluate if the item is necessary to get done at this time. If not, I either reschedule it for a much later date or eliminate it all together.

Part of my daily plan......I put the most important things on the list first!!!

I make sure that I read my Bible, exercise, journal my food, drink water and blog (either writing or reading).

I also make sure that I plan my food out daily and stick to my menu. That way, if I "CHOOSE" to have a holiday treat, I can work it into my calories for the day!

Just because it's the holidays, does not mean that I have license to blow my health and fitness plan!

Also, the other important thing I need to do is get ~ REST!!!

No movie, TV show, book or whatever, is worth not getting my rest. Without it, I am not worth much the next day.

Sooo instead of being frustrated and stressed.....Get busy and sensibly plan your holiday festivities. You will be so happy you did!

Keep focused!!

2011-11-14T07:28:00.000-08:00

Do you need a little motivation today to get off of the couch?

Having trouble getting your motivation to get to the gym?

Do you need a little nudge?

Well here's a little something I saw yesterday while I was at the vet...This might help!

I was sitting in the waiting room with my little dog Beemer, he was getting a vaccination. My total attention was on him, but in the background of noises and people talking, there was a ruckus going on. After this had been going on for some time, I finally directed my attention to this noise.

When I looked up, a woman as wide as a door was coming my way. She was coming slowly towards me, struggling with her purse and her two little dogs on leashes, one in each hand. This poor woman was so large and out of shape, that she could only barely shuffle as she walked. I could tell that she was exhausted from her short trip from her car, which was parked right outside the door, to the waiting room. She was sweating, and huffing and puffing. The poor woman was on the verge of collapse. When she finally got to the bench, she plopped herself down, almost on top of me, because she did not have any more energy to move down a space to give her enough room to sit.

We had only a moment before my name was called and I was given my very excited Beemer. He was happy to see his Mama. Of course I was distracted from the woman and took my little doggy home.

While I as in my car, I was sorry that I did not take the time to talk with this woman. You see, she was about my age. We had that in common, oh and we had two dogs in common and of course we had a weight problem that we both share. I had my in...I could have taken the opportunity to help her or a least see if I could at least encourage her. Well I missed that opportunity and now, all I can do is pray for her..

Oh and of course, I can use this opportunity as fuel to keep me going and to encourage you.....We don't want to be this woman!!! We don't!! I remember struggling to walk 10 feet. I remember!! I don't ever want to go there again!!

So come on.......get your motivation....get to the gym....get your workouts done! Eat healthy today, drink your water and put on your winning attitude!!

We can so do this!

Are you with me?

Keep focused!

Small Dishes

2011-11-12T09:04:00.000-08:00

I have moaned and whined myself silly trying to figure this food thing out. No matter how I tried, I could not get my calories to 1700 per day. My range has been 1700 to 2600! This is not helping me lose weight. I would always pack sensible foods for the day and would do really well, but by the evening, I would be too hungry and could not stop myself and that's what killed my calorie count for the day. So I decided to make a change. I got new "smaller" dishes just for me!

Aren't they cute?

I decided I wanted to try "smaller" dishes because I thought...if I need to have fewer calories....then I need to eat less. Having less on a big place was just not satisfying to me. Here's the difference in plate sizes we have in our house. I used to use the big ones and fill them up....

Big difference huh?

This is what my breakfast looked like today.

I have to tell you...I was quite satisfied and very happy eating this meal. I use to have this very same portion size in that larger bowl and you know...I never walked away from eating this very satisfied. I always wanted more!! Right now, I am very happy and I had that bowl of oatmeal about 2 hours ago. Anyway...this is working for me!!

During the past couple of months I've struggled with my weight. I was up to almost 7 pounds gained. Since I started the small dishes thing. I'm back down to 208 pounds and getting ready to lose more!! Whew!

Once again, I'm not the first to think up this brilliant idea. I just got some really good information from my medical provider backing up this idea. Happy reading!

READ THIS ~ IT WILL MAKE A DIFFERENCE!

By James Beckerman, M.D., Providence St. Vincent Heart Clinic – Cardiology, part of Providence Heart and Vascular Institute

Here it comes – the time of year when we trade our regular jeans for that slightly larger, looser pair, so we can comfortably enjoy all the holiday feasts that the season serves up. Turkey, gravy, stuffing, potatoes, pumpkin pie – who can resist? It’s no fun to say no, but after a couple of months of yes, even the comfy jeans start to feel uncomfortably snug. By January, we’re back to making the same old resolutions to eat less, work out harder and sweat the extra pounds back off. Is there any way around this yo-yo cycle?

There is one strategy that might help, and it’s the focus of our November resolution: this holiday season, instead of changing the size of your pants, try changing the size of your plate.

A resolution for the holidays, and every day

The advice is simple: Use a smaller plate, and there is a strong likelihood that you will dish up less, and therefore eat less – and you won’t even miss the extra food. Don’t buy it? There is a lot of research to back it up.

Brian Wansink, Ph.D., a researcher and writer on the psychology of food choices, has led a number of studies showing that the size of a plate, serving bowl or serving spoon influences how much people eat:

In his Super Bowls study, students at a party dished up snacks either from two large bowls or from four smaller bowls. The students who served themselves from the large bowls took an average of 53 percent more food and ate 56 percent more than those who dished up from the smaller bowls.
In a free popcorn study, moviegoers who were given free large buckets of popcorn ate 45 percent more than those who were given free medium-sized buckets. The size of the container made such a difference that even when people were given stale, bad-tasting popcorn, they still ate 34 percent more if it was served in a larger bucket.
In an ice cream social study, nutrition professors and graduate students were invited to a social event where they were randomly given small or large bowls and scoops and invited to serve themselves some ice cream. Those with the larger bowls were surprised to learn that they served themselves an average of 31 percent more, even though they believed and reported that they had taken no more than anyone else. The spoon size increased serving sizes, as well, even for those with smaller bowls. Those with both bigger bowls and spoons ate an ice-cream-headache-inducing 57 percent more than those with small bowls and spoons. If the nutrition experts can be fooled so easily, the rest of us don’t stand a chance.

These and other studies suggest that the amount we eat is often influenced more by visual cues – such as the size of our plate, or the amount of food we are served – than by how hungry we actually are. Some studies have suggested that you can decrease your portion size by 25 percent and feel just as full as you would with a larger serving – your mind and stomach can’t tell the difference.

So as the season of feasting begins, dish up – just use a smaller plate. By using a 9- or 10-inch dinner plate, rather than the typical 12-inch or larger plate, you will probably serve yourself 20 to 25 percent less food than you normally would, without even being that aware of it. That smaller amount of food on your plate will translate into good news for your waistband – one study found that the average person lost two pounds in a month, just by using a smaller plate for dinner.

Once you’ve made it through the holidays in the same-size pants, keep it up. Take these lessons and apply them to the rest of your meals and snacks – not just during the holidays, but every day. Switch to smaller serving bowls, serving spoons and cereal bowls. And when eating snacks, don’t eat out of the bag – measure out a reasonable serving, put it in a small bowl, and enjoy. You still may need to switch to a different pants size eventually – but chances are good that it will be a smaller one.

Are you ready to give this a try?

Stay focused!

So much fun!!

2011-11-09T21:58:00.000-08:00

My party was a blast!! We had a great crowd, great food, funny speeches, a beautiful facility, decorations and cake!! I had a wonderful and memorable time! My Daughter did a fantastic job with the planning of the party. It was a huge success!

Here we are. Isn't she beautiful?

As you can see, I still have a lot of weight to lose, but I felt great in my new outfit. Everything I wore is a stretch for me, but I think I pulled it off quite well!

Other highlights of the party....My guests brought me presents.....lots of them!! I got....

A Luxury plush blanket
A black cap
Gloves
2 Jackets
2 Flannel Nightgowns
74 pairs of socks
10 tubes of toothpaste
Mouthwash
Shave Cream
Shampoo
Razors
Deodorant
5 Toothbrushes
Plus $95.00

All for the Portland Rescue Mission!!

I can't wait to take everything to the mission. I am sure they will be Blessed!

On the weight loss front. Here it was my birthday and part of what I needed to do before my party was to go to the gym. Before I met with my trainer, I put in time on the treadmill, getting in a 5k (walking & running). Then my trainer came in and we did my whole weight routine, push ups and planks, in intervals of 45 seconds each, ending with 10 minutes on the Elliptical....Then I got to do it all over again. She kicked my butt!!! I reminded her that I was now 50 years old and I needed a break. She literally laughed at me and pushed me harder! Two hours later I left for my pedicure, which was wonderful!

I did my small plate thing during the dinner at my party and ate a small piece of pizza, a little bit of salad, one bread stick and two chips with dip. I did have a small piece of cake, but I did not eat it all. Wow who knew I could do such a thing, even on my Birthday?

I have to say that I've never been in a gym on my actual Birthday. I have to say, it was pretty cool. So glad I did it and very glad I kept my calories under control for the day. I actually lost .4 pounds the next day. Woo hoo!

Have you ever been in a gym on your Birthday?

Keep focused!

PS: I actually was able to down load the pictures from my new camera all by myself....Amazing since I can't even turn on my TV!! I'm a big girl now!

I get to be 50 today!!!

2011-11-07T08:34:00.000-08:00

It's my birthday today and I get to be 50!! Can you even believe it? I can't! Time sure flies!!

This morning my Hubby asked me if I feel 50 and I said, "You know, I don't! I feel the best I've ever felt in my entire life!!"

This whole weight loss and fitness journey is so much more than just losing weight and getting a skinny body. For me, this journey has opened doors that I thought would NEVER open. I feel like I can do it all!! The doors are wide open!! I guess a lot of people feel this way after graduating from high school or college. I never had that feeling that I could do whatever I wanted or that I...could have it all. Never felt good enough or worthy enough to even try.

Today I feel that I can do whatever I want. Well I do have some limitations, so I can't really do all that I want, but I can sure go through the appropriate open doors to things that are unknown to me today. I can walk through and see what there is for me. How exciting is that?

And I don't know what's happened lately, but not only do I have my health and fitness plan in motion and things are working....but because of all of the organizational skills and dedication that I needed to get that part of my life in order, these same skills are helping me get organized and focused for the things I've always wanted to do.

We are having a big birthday party tonight (I got a new camera and I'm hoping that I will (remember) to take pictures and then learn how to get them on my computer...I know....I can't even turn our TV on, but you know what....I'm going to learn to do this) Anyway, I have asked my guests to not bring me gifts (I just hate the Over the Hill gag stuff). Instead of wasting money on that, I asked them to bring things for the Portland Rescue Mission. So I'm hoping we will have a truck load of stuff to Bless them with. How fun is that?

Sorry I got off of my point...not only did I help with this event, but I've also, kept my house cleaned, laundry is done, my legs are shaved........come on ladies, you know when you're really busy that does not get done...am I the only one? Oh and my check book is in order, the bills are paid plus I'm taking two classes right now that have home work and on and on.......And I'm doing all of this in a very timely and calm manner...All because I took the time back in 2010 to focus on my health...and look what I've learned. I am so capable! It's amazing what good health brings!! I'm thinking of the energy I have, clarity of mind, hope for the future.....So exciting!!!

Of course, I'm not taking all the credit for this. I have relied so much on the Lord and His strength through this whole process and I know without Him and my very supportive family and friends, I would not be where I am today. I am soooo grateful!! THANK YOU...THANK YOU...THANK YOU!!!!

So Friends, celebrate with me today, I am almost a senior...got my first AARP letter in the mail...It made me laugh! Can't wait for my discounts!!!!

Are you getting so much more from your health and fitness plan?

Keep focused!!

Well...Well...Well!!

2011-11-05T20:43:00.000-07:00

I'm baaacccckkkk!!!!!

My computer has been repaired and I'm up and running. I tried the IPhone thing, but it just took too long to post things. Since my last post, I have been quite busy! Doing really good things, keeping focused and working on my plan.

You know, I've discovered this, and I'm quite sure that I am the first to realize this most amazing fact.....Anyway, I've discovered that.....

If you are working your plan for months or years and you are not getting any closer to your goal and if you keep doing the same thing over and over again and you keep getting the same results......Then what you are doing is NOT WORKING!!

Brilliant I know!

Example: I set a goal to consume 1800 calories per day and without perfect planning...lately my calorie count has ranged from 1800 to 2600 calories per day. Do you think I'm losing weight? Ahhhh NO! Most of the time, I would look at my plate and say, "This is not a plate that a healthy fit person would choose! Maybe I should not eat this." Unfortunately, I would not listen to this brilliance and I would eat it anyway and then, guess what? No weight loss!

If I keep doing this over and over and if I don't make a change in my calories ~ I will not lose weight! I might even gain weight ~ Augh!

Another example.....Exercise. I have been exercising for at least 5 days per week for almost 2 years. Woo Hoo for me! I'm a lot stronger than I was when I started.....But I'm kind of stuck in the same place. If I don't make a change and increase my efforts....You know work until I sweat.....I mean soakin' wet kind of thing....then I will never reach my fitness goal. If only I would be willing to do that...then maybe I'd be in a different place right now.

So far I've been at this for almost 2 years and when I started I had 125 pounds to lose. If I would have made better choices all this time....If I would have noticed that doing what I was doing was not really working for me....If I would have been willing to listen to my trainer, my Hubby, my Daughter, my body....I might be at my goal weight right now and enjoying maintenance.

Now I don't want to discount some of the good stuff I've done, I mean I have lost 66 pounds.....However, what I'm doing right now is not working!!!

I'm not progressing....

I'm stuck....

I've stalled out....

I need to change!

So here's my plan.....

1.) I'm going to the store and I'm going to get new plates and bowls just for me. I want them to be pretty, but I also want them to be the size of a saucer and a cup. Almost kid sized. (I want a set for home and for work) For me....I have a big plate, I need to fill the big plate. I did this experiment last Thanksgiving, where I used a saucer instead of a dinner plate. I still did the 1/2 plate veggies, 1/4 carbs, 1/4 plate protein thing and I kept it to just one serving. The plate looked full and very appetizing. I ate it and I felt most satisfied. And you know what, I probably felt better than anyone else in the room because I did not eat too much. All in all, I probably had about a cup of food and it was enough! I should figure out the calories for a plate that size. Anyway, the smaller plate and bowl I use, the less food I eat...which means fewer calories!!!

2.) Next I need to get the crap out of my house!!! I've always allows some sort of sugar in the house...Well you know for the Grand Babies.....Anyway, my thought is that I need to discipline myself enough to be able to have sweets in the house. I mean why should I punish everyone else because I can't control myself. Does not seem fair....except for this is not working for me! The reality is....If it's in the house...I eat it and I eat a lot of it. Except for when I put stuff in the freezer. It's like a vault for me. I put stuff in there and it's like I've lost the key and can't get back in. Last night, I was looking for a treat and my Hubby reminded me that we have cookies in the freezer. I said, "We do? What kind?" He told me that they are the Monster Cookies I made last month. I totally forgot about them......Well then, the minute he told me, I had to have one! Well OK...I had that one plus a bite from another one. (Can you believe I did that? Geez!) Anyway, I'm not in control with having sweets in my house. It's not working for me....sweets have to go!!!

3.) No more judgement or negative talk. No more!! I'm done with that!! Do you know....and I've done this before...where I've actually said something into existenace. When I was a kid I went to the pig barn at the State Fair and we saw these enormous pigs in their stalls. I came across another stall and all I saw was this vast amount of pink flesh lying in the stall. When I took a closer look, I realized it was a women, wearing short shorts, laying on a cot. She was huge!!! Probably the first really obese person I had ever seen in my life. (You know, back when I was a kid, the majority of the population was thin...very thin. I think I was the fattest person in my class until middle school. Then there was another one, just like me. Just two of us in the whole school) Anyway, when I saw this woman, I made this vow that I would never be like her and guess what....I turned out just like her....Maybe this was God's way of getting back at me for judging this woman. I don't know. It seems, when I'm critical of someone else, I get it right back on myself. So I'm not doing that anymore. I'm not judging others....I'm not speaking ill of others and I'm not speaking ill of myself. No more judgement from me. Well except, I saw this very thin person yesterday, and I quickly said, "Oh I would never want to be that thin"....Hee hee, do you think the reverse judgement will work?

4.) It's time to get SERIOUS about my exercise. I am an athlete. I can do many things and this body is capable of more than I'm doing. I just need to be willing. And I think...I READY!!!

Anyway, my point is...what I'm doing lately is not working. I've been holding at the same place for months now and it's time to go to the next level. I ready to get the rest of this weight off. I'm ready to reach my fitness goals....I'm so close and if I really focus I could reach my goals by the end of Summer!

How have you been?

Keep focused!

Even Though!!

2011-10-22T11:36:00.000-07:00

Even though my computer is at the shop - that does not have to stop me!! So I put my thinking cap on and remembered I can do this on my IPhone. I know I'm amazing!!!

Anyway...I heard some thing the other day that has been mulling around in my beady brain. And here is is.....

There is a difference between trying.... And doing!!! Just do it!!!

Think about it!!

Keep focused!!!

Surviving Injuries Series #6 - Perseverance

2011-10-20T07:11:00.000-07:00

This is the last post for my Surviving Injuries Series. However, I think this is the most important part of the journey to restoration and good health. Without perseverance I would have never gotten through!!

All during the journey, while dealing with injuries, there has been a lot of emotions....A LOT!!! I've been mad at myself because I got myself so fat that I've caused my body to fail on me. I've been mad at my body, mad at thin and healthy people....especially the ones who smoke. That really makes me mad. I see these beautiful women, thin women...sitting somewhere puffing on a cig. NOT ATTRACTIVE and not healthy at all. I'm like, geez, if I was that fit I would never do that to myself. (I know...I know I'm sure people think things about me...but come on....smoking?.....)

A.N.Y.W.A.Y!!!!

Then there have been times that I've been mad at my trainer for pushing me so hard and of course.....I've been mad at God. I know He did not want me to be like this.....but He could have zapped me a little earlier to get rolling with the program. (No Lord....don't do it now!) Whew!

There has been depression, sadness, frustration, IRRITATION, stalled progress, stubbornness, and crying....lots of crying (Do you know that it is really hard to exercise while you cry? The mixture of sweat and tears is not a good thing...at the same time! Plus what do you do with a runny nose.....YOU REALLY DON'T WANT TO KNOW!)

Anyway, lets just say there are a lot of emotions that go into this!

And LOTS of OPPORTUNITY to QUIT!!!

Have I thought about it? Oh yeah I have.

My reasoning is...I have pain, plus all of the above emotions now....and I had all of that when I was 66 pounds heavier....what's the difference. Pain is pain right? "So lets just quit so we can COMFORT ourselves with food". (This is me talking to myself......Bad me....Bad!!)

Fortunately the sensible me did not follow that dreadful advise. No I kept on with my plan.

I did not quit!

I listened to my body!

I made adjustments in my plan!

I adjusted my attitude!

I strengthened my body!!

I PERSEVERED!!

Today I'm about 90% back to normal. I can do most everything I did before. A couple of things kind of give me some problem, but each day, I can do a little more!!

Here's a little information I found, not sure who it belongs to, but it helped me get through this injury...

Energy matches energy in this world. It's a law. It's stated in many ways...

Like attracts like!
What you focus on is what you get!
What goes around, comes around!
As ye sow, so shall ye reap!

You are an EXTREMELY POWERFUL person, whether you have figured this out or not. And you are always using your power ~ use it wisely!

If you want to change, you have to change your pattern or model of living that you learned in your life.

Because whatever you focus on is what you move toward.

So during this process.....I thought of good health, I saw myself active again, I saw myself thin, I focused on getting well and I changed a lot of things. And you know what? I'm moving forward!!!

How about you? Are you moving toward your goals?

Keep focused!

PS: My brand new computer is now going back to the manufacture today. I will have limited access to a computer. Not sure how long it will be before it comes back. No matter what is going on in your life right now, do everything in your power to reach your goals!!!

Love love!

Surviving Injuries Series #5 ~ Strengthen Your Body

2011-10-19T07:33:00.000-07:00

I never knew how really weak I was before I started this journey! I used to fall....I used to fall a lot! Going up stairs, going down stairs...I'd fall while walking, sitting on chairs, and while carrying stuff. One time I was be-bopping outside one of my favorite stores. I had just found a great outfit and I was so excited! So I'm strutin' my stuff back to my car and the minute I stepped off the curb, I fell flat on my face.

Another time, I was coming out of a store and I was feeling all benevolent and wanted to "help" out by carrying my packages so no one would have to retrieve my cart. So I decided I would gather all of my packages, on one arm....this is Christmas time, so I had a few......and my car keys in the other hand. So again, I'm struttin' to my car and just left the curb and all of a sudden I fall. This time, I fell on a glass bowl. The only thing I was worried about were my keys, oh and I was in the middle of the road, but my car keys flew across the parking lot and I did not want anyone to get them. I guess I was already in shock. Anyway, I try using my arm to get up and it feels all funny and wet. I look down and I see a gaping hole in my arm and blood is gushing everywhere. I landed on the bowl, cutting my arm and a small artery!

You can see why I have a little phobia about shopping...

When I called my Hubby to ask him to come get me from the hospital he wanted to know why I could not drive myself...why did I need an ambulance to come get me. When I told him I cut an artery and they would not let me drive, that kind of calmed him down. When he went back to the store for my replaced packages, he was shocked by the amount of blood that was covered in kitty litter.

FALLING IS NOT FUN!!!

Other things about having a weak body. I did not know that my legs were so weak. Carrying extra weight and weak quads does not help your knees. That's most likely why I had my knee problems in the first place, then when I started exercising like a wild woman I aggravated the problem. The physical therapy tech advised if I would get more weight off and get my quads stronger this would help my knees and he was right!!!

Again....I was told if my core body was stronger, I would not have had this problem with my back.

So the bottom line is.....there are so many reasons to strengthen you body....

Because I'm stronger I've stop myself from falling. I cannot tell you the number of times that I've caught myself before falling down the stairs. Had I not had the strength I have now, I would have fallen. There's only been one time that I fell and that was this summer while I was carrying my grand baby. I had her in a football hold with one arm and I was walking along. The next thing I knew I was on my way to the ground. When it was all over, my daughter kept asking me if I was OK and I was like, "forget about me, how is the baby?" My daughter let me know that she was OK but she was worried about me. Apparently, I lobbed my grand baby away from me and did not fall on her. She suffered no injuries. Because I was strong enough, I was able to get her out of danger and I did not fall on her and crush her!

Because I'm stronger my knees don't hurt.

Because I'm going to get a lot stronger, I will avoid more injuries in the future!!

You know the thing I worry about most.....as I get older.....is falling and breaking a hip!! That scares me!!! I want to get this body in shape so this does not happen to me!

How did I get stronger?

First of all. I listen to and do what I was told by my physical therapy tech and my trainer. I also listen to my body. I work hard in the gym ~ consistently. I push myself and keep pushing my body to the next level. I do what I can and most importantly....I never quit!!!

NEVER!!

How about you.....Are you strong?

Next up ~ Perseverance!

Keep focused!

Surviving Injuries Series #4 ~ Attitude!

2011-10-18T07:13:00.000-07:00

Well first of all....I don't know if you've noticed or not....but attitude has a lot to do with everything! Our attitude matters in how we handle things at home, school, work, with our families and friends, especially how we handle our weight loss and fitness and then importantly how we handle injuries.

Now I've been all over the place with this!! When I got my knee injury, I was told by the physical therapy tech that I would never row or run. My attitude was..."Oh yeah? Watch me!!" and I did it! Then I got the chest wall contusion...that was just a blip on my radar. Kind of a nuisance mostly. Then my knee started acting up again, kind of worrisome, but I kept pushing through. Then it was the tennis elbow injury. This injury kind of set me back. I'm like what the fig...Will I ever get a break? I could tell then, that my attitude was slowly going in the dumper.

Then came September...yet another injury...and frankly the depression set in. All the other injuries, I was sure that I would heal from and carry on. But for some reason, I thought this was the nail in my coffin ~ literally! I thought...."I've got back problems now....I'll never heal.....it hurts too much to do what I need to do....I've got to stop my journey....there is no hope". PATHETIC I know!!

But you know something. I heard this statement from a radio program of this young woman who was born without arms. She was a determined little thing. I did not hear her whole story, but do you know that she does all kinds of things. She is even a pilot....she flies airplanes...without arms!!! Now she's traveling the world telling her story. She's amazing!

One statement I heard from her that helped change my attitude about my situation....Here it is.....

"It's our choice to use what we are given....and we have the choice to use it in a positive way!"

It's our choice. It is my choice to pick myself up and do what I can and use this situation in a positive way.

That one statement helped snap me out of my depression and I changed my attitude.

This ole back problem is not holding me back!! I am not quitting my plan and I am moving forward. I'm pushing through!!!

How about you....are you pushing through?

Next up ~ Strengthening my body!!

Keep focused!

Surviving Injuries Series #3 ~ Adjustments

2011-10-16T11:01:00.000-07:00

Obviously with injuries...you just have to take the time to recover. And when you are older...it takes longer....At least that what I seem to be experiencing lately!

So while I'm waiting...I just did not give up and not continue on with my journey. Nope!! I had to make adjustments.

There were days when I could only do my physical therapy exercises because of the pain. I could not beat myself up for that, that's all I could do. Then there were days I could walk and I did it. I have been able to lift weights and jump rope...on a good day. I do what I can!! But I've not given up!

I am not very organized with my blog...unfortunately, because I wanted to reference back to a post (but could not find it) about this person that I noticed in the gym. All I saw was a silhouette of a person in a darkened cycle room. This person was peddling with all their might. When I got closer, I realized it was a woman on the bike and she had her hand in a cast. You see this athlete, did not let her injury stop her. No she just made an adjustment. She pushed through!

The other thing that needed to be done was I needed to reduce my calorie intake. Seems I could not have the same calories as I did when I was doing higher activity. I had to shave off about 300 calories just to stay even. Fortunately I have not gained anything during this injury period. I have not lost any either.....

Each day...if I allow myself to rest, adjust my exercise plan and lower my calories I have a little success. I'm feeling better and getting stronger!!!

Next up Attitude.....How to push through!!!!

Stay focused!!!!

Surviving Injuries Series #2 - Listen to your Body!

2011-10-14T07:29:00.000-07:00

If your are like me, you hear the cry of everyone else's needs before you hear your own. A lot of how I get myself into trouble is I don't hear the first pang of pain. No I hear it when my body says, "I'm not going anywhere!!" This even happens with illness. I feel a sore throat coming on and I just keep pushing until it's the full blown in the bed, sick for 3 days deal.

When what I should have done is to listen to my body and taken care of myself....EARLY and before it blows into a real / major problem.

So when my back first started hurting....I got my first jolts of pain...but I did not listen...I just kept pushing through my workout. Then after that it was a flurry of activity to get ready for camping. So here I have a small pain in my back and I'm lifting heavy boxes, bending, twisting and doing everything I should not have been doing. Then the whole week, I'm lifting and toting my grand babies everywhere....ALL GOOD THINGS....BUT WHAT I SHOULD HAVE BEEN DOING IS TAKING CARE OF MYSELF AND RESTING!!

The neglect of myself has turn into almost 2 months of pain and physical therapy. And a big fat delay in my fitness program.

Right now I don't think it was worth it. A couple days and maybe even a week of rest most likely would have helped me a ton!! I know what I did do, pushing through or more like bull heading my way through, did not help me!

So I'm learning to listen to my body.

I'm even starting to think about the following.....

Got a headache ~ Take an aspirin
Got a cut - Put on a band aid
Sore tooth ~ Go to the dentist
Need a hair cut & color ~ Get it done!
Need clothes & shoes ~ go shopping!
Hungry? ~ Eat something
Full? ~ Stop eating!

I need to keep asking myself "Do you have a need? If so, do something to take care of it". Looks like I need to listen to more than just my body. I need to learn, if I have a need.....I can and should take care of it right away. No more putting myself on the back burner. I'm important and deserve to be taken care of!

LISTEN!!

How about you do you listen to your needs? Do you do something about them?

Next up discipline & attitude!

Keep focused!

Well Duh!

2011-10-13T13:58:00.000-07:00

Can not help myself. I will not be posting the next item in my Surviving Injuries Series ~ Listen to your body! This will follow shortly....

What I want to talk about today....because this seems pressing to me!

...is that....

It has come to my attention...that if I keep doing the same thing over and over....

and then....

I keep getting the same results.....

then....

I know it's coming.....

then it seems quite obvious that....

what I'm doing....

IS NOT WORKING!!

That's where the DUH comes in!!!

So what this means to me is....

Obviously the calories that I'm taking in are too many and I don't have enough variety.
Obviously all of the exercise I'm doing is not enough....not hard enough...
Obviously my attitude it not on track

Things are not work!!!

OBVIOUSLY!!

What does that mean?

I NEED TO DO THINGS DIFFERENTLY!!

DUH!!!

So that's what I'm going to do.

More to follow...

Keep focused!!!

Surviving Injuries Series #1 ~ Don't Quit!!!

2011-10-12T07:25:00.000-07:00

Injuries happen....They just do. For me prior to January 1, 2010, if I got an injury I would quit any health and fitness program I was in. I tend to get a lot of injuries. Prior to my focus on my health and fitness I had shin splints, leg cramps, feet problems, back problems, and of course the Hemi Facial problem. Plus all kinds of ailments and pains. So each time something would happen I would quit my program.

Since I've started my health and fitness program, that wonderful day in 2010, I have still experienced some injuries......

March 2010 ~ Knee Injury...Chest wall Contusion...& Feet Problems....
November 2010 ~ Tennis Elbow...
December 2010 ~ Back Pain...
September 2011 ~ Back Pain...

The good thing is...I have not quit!! I'm still here and I'm fighting to get well!!

A while back my trainer said, "You know, all athletes get injuries." I was really taken back by that, first of all, because she thought "I" was an athlete! And second of all, I did not realize that this happens to athletes. Never thought about it.

It even happen to the greatest well trained and fit athletes of all times. So I was wondering who is the greatest athlete and what happened to them ~ what kind of injuries did they suffer? According to Greatest athletes of all times, Michael Jordan is their number 1 pick. According to their source and after doing some research, I found that Michael broke his foot the 2nd year into his 18 year basketball career.

If this athlete would have quit because of that injury, he would not have been able to go on to do...

NBA

Naismith Memorial Basketball Hall of Fame Class of 2009
6-time NBA champion: 1991, 1992, 1993, 1996, 1997, 1998 (all with Chicago Bulls)

6 NBA Finals appearances: 1991, 1992, 1993, 1996, 1997, 1998

5-time NBA Most Valuable Player: 1988, 1991, 1992, 1996, 1998^[1]^[2]
10-time scoring champion: 1987, 1988, 1989, 1990, 1991, 1992, 1993, 1996, 1997, 1998^[3]
3-time steals leader: 1988, 1990, 1993
3-time minutes leader: 1987, 1988, 1989
14-time NBA All-Star: 1985, 1986, 1987, 1988, 1989, 1990, 1991, 1992, 1993, 1996, 1997, 1998, 2002, 2003^[4]
3-time NBA All-Star Game MVP: 1988, 1996, 1998^[5]
6-time NBA Finals Most Valuable Player: 1991, 1992, 1993, 1996, 1997, 1998^[6]
1-time NBA Defensive Player of the Year: 1987-88^[7]
11-time All-NBA selection:

First team: 1987, 1988, 1989, 1990, 1991, 1992, 1993, 1996, 1997, 1998^[8]^[9]
Second team: 1985^[8]^[9]

9-time All-Defensive selection:

First team: 1988, 1989, 1990, 1991, 1992, 1993, 1996, 1997, 1998^[10]^[11]

NBA All-Rookie selection:

First team: 1985^[12]^[13]

NBA Rookie of the Year: 1985^[14]
2-time NBA Slam Dunk Contest champion: 1987, 1988^[15]

Runner-up in 1985

7-time The Sporting News Most Valuable Player: 1987-88, 1988–89, 1990–91, 1991–92, 1995–96, 1996–97, 1997–98
Sports Illustrated Sportsman of the Year: 1991
Ranked #1 by SLAM Magazine's Top 75 Players of All-time
Ranked #1 by ESPN Sportscentury's Top 100 Athletes of the 20th Century
Selected in 1996 as one of the "50 Greatest Players in NBA History"
Selected in 1996 as member of two of the "Top 10 Teams in NBA History"

1991-92 Chicago Bulls (67–15; .817)
1995-96 Chicago Bulls (72–10; .878)

[edit]Olympics

Two Olympic gold medals - USA: 1984, 1992

This is to only name a few things he did. I also think he played baseball and probably accomplished many other things!!

WHAT IF HE HAD QUIT????

What if I quit now? Geez I have had way more injuries than him. I think the only other thing, that I could find quickly, is that he suffered from a knee injury (which I don't doubt).

Thank goodness he did not quit!!!

Thank goodness I'm not going to quit either....Because even though, I may not be the athlete that Michael is, I still have some things that I need to do and accomplish. If I quit, I will never get there.

So I am fighting to survive this injury.

Next in the Series ~ Listen to your body!

Keep focused!!

Surviving Injuries Series

2011-10-11T06:29:00.000-07:00

Look forward to My Surviving Injuries Series ~ ~ coming soon to your computer.

Keep up the great work and as always.....Stay Focused!!!!

Pushing through.....

2011-10-04T05:50:00.000-07:00

Even though......

Whatever it is for me and for you.....we need to push through!

This morning I got up...not prepare for the day or the week. I don't really feel good and my back is smarting (for those too young....it means it hurts like heck!!!) My house is a mess, I have part of my fall decorations up. My check book is a mess and I have bills to pay. There is no food in the house...we are almost out of toilet paper - now that is a near emergency!!! I have invitations to make....about 30 to go! I have daffodil bulbs and pansy's to plant.....Plus I need to work, exercise, take care of my family and myself...all the while not feeling 100%....with a bad back and I have a cold coming on.

Whew!! I'm tired just thinking about all of this.

Wah wah wah....that's all I hear!

But you know what? None of that matters, because I'm still pushing through! I've decided to have a fabulous attitude about all of this busyness. I guess this all means I'm alive....I've got things to do and people to take care of. I have purpose and exciting things to look forward to. This is awesome!!!!

So for today, I'm planning ahead and I'm pushing to get things done, with joy! I'm going to get stuff done, I'm going to have a great food day and a kick butt exercise day. I can't wait!!!

I can do this!!!

How about you...Are you pushing through?

Keep focused!

Challenge Results

2011-10-02T09:00:00.000-07:00

Last Monday, I decided to do a mini Challenge (from Monday - Friday) to finish out the month strong. Again, I was up a couple of pounds and weighed in at 213 pounds last Monday. I've been hovering around 210 all summer and was bummed that I was up at 213 again. My lowest over the summer was 208, but I've had trouble getting there again. So I wanted to put in some focus in last days of the month to see if I could make a difference in my weight loss. This is what I wanted to do and what I got done....

Exercise daily ~ I exercised Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday Thursday and NOT FRIDAY!
Drink 100+ oz of water ~ Got all my water in Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday and NOT FRIDAY!
Calories under 1700 ~ Weekly average 1681
Blog daily ~ This should have been an easy one - as I love to Blog! ~ I got it done Monday, NOT TUESDAY, Wednesday, Thursday AND NOT FRIDAY!!

Not bad, I could be proud of this....But I'm not. I mean what's most important is moving more and eating less and I did that, and I lost 3 pounds this week, which I am grateful for, but what I'm disappointed about is I did not do what I said I would do. That's my frustration! These goals are not hard. They are things I really wanted to accomplish this week. But obviously I let other things, again, interfere with my plan. Like what happened to FRIDAY?

I spoke to my Daughter yesterday about reaching goals. I told her that I just have trouble getting things done. And she brought up something I thought was very insightful for me. She said, you know, when you are reaching for something, it does not have to be perfect! You just have to do it! CAN'T BE PERFECT ALL THE TIME! Just do SOMETHING toward reaching your goals. For example.....

On Friday, I knew I needed to do my exercise. The problem was I got up too late to do my regular things in the morning and I don't ever go to the gym on Fridays (so I did not even think about it) but I still could have taken a walk at my lunch time or in the evening with my hubby and I most probably should have done my physical therapy exercises anyway. I should not have given that up. So there are ALTERNATIVES I can do to get the goal done!

Water....Just get it done, it's not hard...just do it!

Same with the calories. I just have to do this!

Blogging....well I just got too wordy on one and could not get it out and then on one, I forgot to push publish, so I had to do it the next day. My daughter gave me some ideas on how I could have made this happen...I could have put out some little teaser of the ideas I had that would take time to write. At least I would have had something done and not missed a day.

So it does not have to be perfect and when setting goals......it seems I need to think ahead of ALTERNATIVE things I can do in case my day gets away from me.

Soon I will be setting new goals for October and I am going to reach them!!

Here's last weeks Fitness Challenge Info:

Workout Summary:

Monday: Total 20 minutes
20 minute~PT Stretches

Tuesday: Total 115 minutes

40 minutes ~ Treadmill
20 minutes~PT Stretches
55 minutes~Water Aerobics

Wednesday: 20 minutes
20 minutes~PT Stretches

Thursday: 57 mins

37 minutes~Treadmill
20 minutes~ PT Stretches

Friday: Rest Day

Saturday: Total 60 minutes
40 minutes~Treadmill
20 minutes~ PT Stretches

Sunday: Total 20 minutes
20 minutes~PT Stretches

Weekly Total: 4 hrs 52 mins (292 mins)

Work Out Reflection

Really boring!! Still limited with my back, which is frustrating. I felt good some of the days and push a little and paid for it the next day. Will I ever learn?

Work Out Goals for This Week:

Hope to be able to do more this week. We shall see :-)

Keep focused!

Leap of Faith Continued...

2011-10-01T10:32:00.000-07:00

The other day, I could not spend my day like I usually do....Doubting, looking at things from the outside ~ not engaging in life, being frustrated, stingy or sad. That day I set myself up to live!

So while driving to work, with my blog post wording (from the other day - Leap of Faith) still ringing in my ears, I decided that I was going to extend grace and politeness to my fellow drivers on the road. You see...usually...I'm running on the edge of late and have my drive time, timed to the minute, and I cannot have ANYONE get in my way. If they do....well I become this woman that I do not want to be. I'm mean, think awful thoughts about the person, swear (under my breath of course!), and then I arrive at work frazzled, angry and a smidgen late. Not good for a manager to do!! Not setting the example I want and need to set. Then this makes me even madder and then the day goes on......Sometimes good, but a lot of times, if I start my day off like that, the rest of the day does not go well.

So that day, determined to be different, I set out for my mornings drive. Well can I tell you first of all, that it was a gorgeous drive? It was sunny and kind of foggy. The fog, was laying low to the grown and looked all dreamy. Then the sky was blue and super clear and the temperature was crisp and cool. It was the perfect fall morning. Had I not decided to relax, I most likely would have missed this beautiful gift from God! Anyway, I'm driving along....I'm kind of on my almost running late mode...But I'm determined to not let that ruin my day. So I see this person who needs to turn in my lane, so I let them in with a wave and a happy smile on my face. This persons presence in my lane, causes me to not get through the light, they did though, and I wished them a happy day. Because of the lateness of my morning, I hit two school zones and had to go 20 miles per hour. This day, I did it happily and did not edge toward 25 miles like I usually do...I know....that's bad!!!! Merging onto the highway, again, I was happy to let people get into my lane and I moved over to accomodate others. I also did the speed limit to work ~ ~ all the way. When I got there, I was actually 7 minutes early! Now when I usually leave at the time I left that day, I would be about 2 minutes late. HOW IN THE WORLD DID THAT HAPPEN? I parked in my usual spot, in the north forty, and semi walked and skipped to my office. It was a joyous time for sure!!

Now here's the fun part, when I got into the building, it seemed they put in new lights or more lights ~ or something....because it was so bright and cheerful!! I literally checked it out, because it was so different than the day before. Even in our suite, every thing looked cleaner and brighter.

Could it really be that my attitude could make that much of a difference!?!?!?!

It must because things were different. I was different!!

That was a great day!

Here's the daily devotional I had that day.

Risky Obedience Comes With A God-Guarantee
by Jon Walker

“Risk your life and get more than you ever dreamed of.” (Luke 19:26 MSG)

Risks of faith require us to take Step 1 before we see Step 2. God uses risks, large and small, to stretch us into a life of faith. The irony is that if we concentrate on the risks instead of God’s faithfulness, we fail to understand that the greater risk is remaining independent of God.

If we believe what we say we believe, then regardless of what we are able to see on the other side of a faith-related risk, the reality is that God is there. What may appear to be a no-guarantee situation actually comes with the greatest guarantee of all — a God-guarantee — that he is working everything out (Romans 8:28; Jeremiah 29:11).

With a God-guarantee, you can enter into the risky obedience of attempting things that are impossible unless God gives you his strength to do them.

With a God-guarantee, you can enter into the risky obedience of loving other believers so deeply and richly that you prove to the world that you are filled with God’s inexhaustible love.

With a God-guarantee, you can enter into the risky obedience of loving your seemingly unlovable neighbors, just as God loved you even when you appeared unlovable.

With a God-guarantee, you can enter into the risky obedience of changing your priorities to match God’s priorities, in faith sacrificing what you cannot keep for the things that can never be taken away.

With a God-guarantee, you can enter into the risky obedience of telling others about Jesus and teaching them how to faithfully follow him (Matthew 28:19–20).

God guarantees you will succeed when you take the risks of faith he asks you to take. What step of faith have you delayed because you’ve been uncertain about God’s guarantee?

Give God permission to clear any obstacles in your life that keep you from trusting his promise (that, in itself, is a risk that requires faith, isn’t it?).

Have a fantastic day - Stretch yourself!!!

Stay focused!!!!

Leap of Faith

2011-09-29T07:38:00.000-07:00

A few months ago, my 3 1/2 year old Grand Daughter got a new trike. It's pink, very sturdy and cute! She was so excited to get on it....when it was in the house!! When we got outside, donned with her helmet, getting on that thing was another matter!

After some coaxing and persuading, we finally got her on the trike. I can so picture her sitting on it with her happy and triumphant face. So adorable!!

Then you could see her countenance change when she realized that she now had to do something...Something she's never done before...Something that might be fun, but she's not sure because she's never done it before. You could see that she really wanted to, I mean she wanted to please her parents and grand parents who were so happy for her and encouraging her to do this really big thing. She was excited....But!!!

After some time, she made several attempts at trying to ride the trike. Could not quite coordinate the peddles and handle bars and all of the various instructions and encouragement that was directed towards her. And after a short time, in a moment of frustration, she started to cry and wanted off of that trike. She quit!

Today...she's a wild woman on her trike!! She peddles super fast, lets her Papa (my Hubby) ride on the back, and she even rode down a fairly large hill while we were camping!! Scared me to death!

So amazing what time, confidence and a little faith will do!!!

I am really curious as to what happened that made her decide that she wanted to ride that trike. What pivotal thing happened? What decisions did she have to make to even try? What fears did she have to put aside to be able to do this amazing thing?

I want to know these things.....

Because I'm at that moment!

In my weight loss and fitness journey and in my life....I've stuck my foot out and tried to do some things. I got my toe wet....I kind of liked it, but when the waters got rough, I pulled my foot back, turned my back on life and kept myself protected...Fear and trepidation have set in and made themselves at home.

Right now....I'm tired of this....I'm ready to move on....

Maybe that's what happened for my Grand Daughter....Maybe she just got tired of not being able to do what she really wanted to do. I can't really find out how it all happened for her, but I'm guessing....She faced her FEARS!!! Took a LEAP OF FAITH...and got on that trike. I'm sure she struggled a little, but I'm guessing after a short time, she found success and simply started to ride!!

So that's it....I'm ready!

For today...I'm going to push aside my fears and I'm going to do plunge into this life. I'm going to start living like I want to fly down a hill on my trike....by the seat of my pants....on the edge of my seat!!! No more sitting back, protecting myself and staying safe. It's time to live!!

How about you...Are you with me?

Keep focused!

This is one of my daily devotions today...

Risk Your Life, Get More Than You Dream

by Jon Walker

“He replied, 'I tell you that to everyone who has, more will be given, but as for the one who has nothing, even what he has will be taken away.'” (Luke 19:26 NIV)

Jesus once told the story of a master who gave three servants each a sum of money to handle while he was away. When he returned, the first servant told the master he’d doubled the money through investments, and the second said he’d made fifty percent profit for the master.

But the third servant, in essence, said he’d been afraid the master would punish him for making mistakes, so he hid the money in the cellar until the master returned.

The master rewarded the first two servants, saying those who handle small matters well will be given greater responsibility. But he rebuked the third servant, saying, “Risk your life and get more than you ever dreamed of. Play it safe and end up holding the bag” (Luke 19:26 MSG).

In order to live a life of faith, we must take risks. Not just any kind of risks, but ones that are specifically directed by God. These God-nudges push us beyond the border of our “State of Independence,” where we live by sight, into the “State of Grace,” where we live by faith.

As Pastor Rick often says, when we do not live by faith, we live faithlessly. Any decision independent of God is a faithless decision. Jesus calls you to risk your life for God, but he also guarantees that God will always be waiting for you on the other side of each and every step of faith you take.

God is for you. He says, “Risk your life and get more than you ever dreamed of.”

What step of faith is God asking you to take today?

Are you running?

2011-09-28T06:38:00.000-07:00

So many times in my life, I've been told things I need to do....things I must do for myself and it's usually things I don't want to hear. Many times, I've close my ears and ran away from the information that might benefit my life. I'm just too stubborn to be told what to do...

I've known people who do this....I shared the other day that I had a friend who was whining about being fat and I told her that I would be happy to help her and maybe even be her accountability partner....The minute and I do mean the minute she could break away from me, she literally ran out of the building. She could not get away from me fast enough. Obviously she did not want my help! She ran away!

Have you even done that?

I do it!

Why do we do that?

For years and years my mom told me, to lose weight, I needed to take in less calories and move more....I bet I've heard that for 40 years and I refused to listen to her. Well first of all, it just seemed too simple....I mean to lose weight, I always felt like I had to do more, complicate it, make it HARD to get it to work. Not anything so simple as eating less and moving more....

But for me that's what it takes. (Now I know there is more to this, there's the emotional side of things, hormones, stress etc) I get it, but the bottom line....eat less and move more!

I heard yesterday....again someone giving me advise that I don't want to hear....and I totally want to run away from this advise and not accept it and that is....my physical therapist told me that it may take 8 weeks for my back to heal....Well I just don't want to hear that. I don't want to spend 2 more seconds being denied what I want to do and that is I want to move this body, I want to strengthen it and get it in shape so I can row! Remember I want to go to the Senior World Olympics when I turn 50....

And dang it....It seems every time I get close to doing this, I get an injury. First time I was committed to doing it I got sick and they thought I was having a stroke - it took 5 months for them to finally diagnose me with Hemi Facial Spasms. Then I had the chest wall contusion, knee problems, tennis elbow and now my back. (All of these injuries in the past year and a half)

Shouldn't there be a limit on how many injuries one must suffer? I think I've had my fill!!! Sick of it!

Anyway...I guess, I'm not going to run away from this....I'm going to put my focus on getting stronger, doing every thing they say to do and I'm taking these 8 weeks and I'm going to get well!

I will row ~ ~ one day!!

No more running!! I'm going to face what is, do what I need to do and reach for my goals!!

How about you do you run away?

Keep focused!

Mini Challenge

2011-09-26T06:28:00.000-07:00

OK summer is over and fall is here....we have just 5 days until October. How about we do a mini challenge....

I need to focus....

This week this is what I will do....

Exercise daily
Drink 100+ oz of water
Calories under 1700
Blog daily

Are you with me?

Keep focused!

Brokenness to RESTORATION / / Fitness Challenge Info

2011-09-25T10:27:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I saw something that really affected me the whole day. I could not stop thinking about it.

This whole thing reminded me of how I once was...

We have some friends who owned a home that had been in the wife's family for decades. It was beautiful inside and out. The grounds were magnificently groomed, they were park like, with cement picnic benches, bird baths, exquisite florals in all colors and varieties and the most lovely trees. This property also had a pool, which I coveted and it had the most magnificent view of the valley below. It truly was breath taking!! A place where you knew God's hand was right there sculpting it and loving it to perfection. It kind of looked like this on the outside.....

On the inside this couple put around $70,000 of upgrades that included granite counter tops, plush carpeting, rich paint and beautiful fixtures. It truly was a gorgeous home.

Unfortunately, this couple who were also beautiful on the outside, had a lot of problems, on the inside ~ within themselves and their marriage. And after a few short years, they were divorced and needed to sell the property. Due to the depressed real estate market this property, has been on the market for a couple of years, in fact it's still for sale to this day.

Yesterday we drove by and got a glimpse of what poor choices, brokenness and neglect can do to things and to people.....

Today this is what the house looks like... (this is not the home, but it looks like this)....

Can I say.... devastating! As we were driving to the property we almost missed it....there was nothing left that reminded me of the once beautiful home except for the swimming pool. If that had not been there, there would have been nothing to remind me of what it once was.

The worse part is the wife has left the state and no one has heard from her and the husband turned back to his old ways and is using drugs again.

This is what going your own way ~ off the path, brokenness and neglect can do....

This is how I ended up a year and a half ago. Broken, lost, fat ~~ not just fat, but morbidly obese, out of control and losing my life.

It wasn't supposed to be this way.....

I was created lovingly by my creator and was once lovely and perfect in His eyes and of course in my parents eyes. As life battered on and the waves of situations and circumstances hit me, my beautiful exterior began to fade and as I allowed this to happened to me and being most neglectful, I soon began to look unlike the once beautiful person I was meant to be. I'm not talking talking just about outward beauty, but also the inside part of how I thought about myself and lived my life. I was not living like someone who was taking care of herself.....I was more like on a crash course to destroying myself. Most positive that was not God's plan for my life!

I was slovenly, disrespectful, negligent, abusive, hateful and just plan ugly to myself. I did not care what happened to me or my body. I allowed it to become dilapidated, broken, stretched out and almost unusable. And how I thought about myself....well I almost imploded on myself.

Thank goodness there is hope!! And restoration!!!! And a way out!!!! The Lord finally opened my eyes before it was too late and I began a journey that has changed my life!

With some simple changes (some not so simple - but doable), focus and time I am being transformed from a broken down mess into the woman that God had in mind. I am rising up! I am living life!! I am being restored!!

How about you...Where are you on this journey?

Now on to the Fitness Challenge....

Fitness Challenge ~ ~ I am quite sure that Jessica will kick my butt this week again!!!!!.....

Workout Summary:

Monday: Total 45 minutes ~ Weights
30 minutes - Stretching

Tuesday: Total 20 minutes - Stretching

Wednesday: Total 20 minutes - Stretching

Thursday: Total 40 minutes - Treadmill
20 minutes - Stretching

Friday: Total 46 minutes - Treadmill
20 minutes - Stretching
Saturday: Total 0 minutes

Sunday: Total 20 minutes - Stretching

Weekly Total: 4 Hr 21 minutes (261 mins)

Work Out Reflection
Getting better every day. My back is healing and I'm able to do more - Yeah!!!

Work Out Goals for This Week
Continue on with physical therapy and stretching and get back to my normal classes.

Keep focused!

More Honesty

2011-09-24T09:39:00.000-07:00

I don't know what's come over me...But I feel like I need to confess....

My weight loss ticker is off....I'm not 208 pounds right now.....I'm finally back to 210 pounds. I was holding at 215 pounds for a while and even saw 218 when I reweighed myself one day (I'm sure I had on super heavy clothes.....Ahem)

Whew....glad that's off my chest! I will not be changing my weight loss ticker...can't be spending the time doing that, because it won't be saying 208 pounds for long.....The scale is moving!! Five pound weight loss!! Woo hoo!!!

The other thing I needs to confess.....

I've been reading blogs today and I see a lot of hurting, struggling, frustrated people out there. And according to my Hubby and Daughter....I've been kind of one of those people. Here I'm thinking I super positive and uplifting in my posts and they both said I've been kinda whiny on my blog and in real life.....Oh that hurts!

My Daughter told me..."You first whine...then you encourage with something positive." She said, "What I want to see is RESULTS."

"GULP!!!".....

What I'm hearing is....Stop talking about it, stop thinking about it, stop wondering about it, STOP WHINING ABOUT IT...... JUST DO IT!!!

So I took the criticism and made some changes and they worked!

I really put in effort and focus this week and the results are coming in!

How about you....Are you making things happen?

Keep focused!

Lets be HONEST!!!!

2011-09-22T13:16:00.000-07:00

I have been messing around with this weight loss and fitness thing since January 2010. I've had some success, down 66 pounds so far! I've also had some set backs, but thankfully despite it all, I'm still plugging a long.

That's the thing...I'm pluggin'.....

Weight loss is so slow for me. It's frustrating!

Here's my story....

I'm doing all "they" tell me to do and I do what I know is best for me...I'm exercising (when not injured), I'm journaling my food, I'm drinking water, I have a good attitude...yada yada yada!

But the scale is hardly moving....

I want to tell you that "I just don't know why this is happening to me. I'm doing EVERYTHING I can..." But the reality is.....it's simple.....I'm still eating waaaay more than I need to, to lose weight! That's my reality!!!

So I decided to do a little research and went to my favorite source Google! I put in the following words in the search bar...."How many calories for 208 pound body". The first source that comes up was:

Calorie Calculator

So I plug in my info and I found that to maintain my weight at 208 pounds, I need to consume 2527 calories.

It also told me....

To lose one pound per week, you might decrease your required calories by 500 per day.

(-500 calories X 7 days per week = -3500 calories)

Interesting....because my food journal says that I'm averaging around 2000 per day.....You know what that means? I'm fudging!!!

That is the REAL truth!! I'm fudging....I'm a fudger!!!! I can't say anymore that I don't know why things are not happening...why the scale is not moving....Can't say that anymore because I know the truth and that is I'm simply eating way too many calories and obviously I'm not recording everything I eat. I can't fool myself. This is fact!!! It is!!!

So my BRILLIANT Friend Jessica is after me! We started doing a Fitness Challenge together that has really helped me stay focused on my fitness goals. Unfortunately with this back thing she's smokin' me on the challenge, but I will be back soon.....Heh heh heh Jess watch out!

Then after some time and I guess with all of my whining about not losing weight, she suggested we exchange food journals.

Ahhhhh what?

To me that's like standing in the middle of a crowd naked.....Why...I can't show my journal....Well for crying out loud, my dirty little secrets would be revealed. Well fortunately for me, not all my secrets are secrets because the reality is....I'm not doing all I can and I've been revealed by having no weight loss. So I could not really hide from what I'm doing.....But to share my journal.....Well that's really EXPOSING my deeds!!!

So I had a choice to make. I could blow her off and give excuses why I could not join with her and be accountable to her....Or I could be a big girl, put my big girl panties on, suck it up and share the good and the bad of what I'm really doing....

So what did I do?

Run like a coward?

Nope....I sent it to her and have done so each day!

WOW ARE MY EYES OPENED!!!!

You know when you expose yourself to others, or should I say open yourself up to others, it really puts a spot light on you. By doing what I'm doing and sharing this part of my journey with my friend, do you think that I think first before I put something into my mouth? YOU BET I DO!! I really can't lie about what I'm doing, my body will tell on me.....by not losing weight. So I have incentive to be honest and truthful with what I'm doing and oh....I need to make some changes and eat less!! There is just no way around it!!

Just like I'm counting every minute of exercise I do so I can beat Jessica and the other challengers in the Fitness Challenge, I am also motivated and accountable to Jessica and myself to keep my diet clean. I want that scale to MOVE!!!

Now I am expecting some results to come in...I am now TRUTHFULLY doing the work!!!

Yesterday I had a friend who was whining about her weight. I told her what I've been doing and I asked her if she would like to get together and be accountability partners.... As soon as she got a break from me, she literally ran out the door. WOW!!! It's scary and hard to be accountable, but I feel it's a great way for me to get my stuff out in the open. That way I can really see what I'm doing. Helps me to also make improvements where needed and it helps motivate me to stop procrastinating and to get to work!!

Are you truthful with what you are doing? Do you have an accountbility partner?

Keep focused!

www.my-calorie-counter.com/calorie_calculator.asp

Setback

2011-09-20T07:19:00.000-07:00

Went to the physical therapist for my back. During the examination, she would ask me to do certain things. After I did it she would kind of giggle (under her breath). She did this many times! Finally the examination was over, and I was thinking, I had a nut case for a therapist and she finally says...."Well you are probably wondering why all the giggling." And I said, "Yes, I'm curious..." ~ Secretly wondering if I should run away!! She said, "Well, you are quite strong and you totally put me to shame." I told her of my exercise and activity level and she giggled again and said she wished that I worked for the company she works for because they are having a fitness challenge and she wanted me on her team. (Well she would not want me now....still having trouble walking and I'm not doing well with my own fitness challenge) But hey, I know, when I'm better, I will be right back at it. Anyway, it was an encouraging time talking with her. She gave me my stretch info and just a few restrictions in the gym. So I'm happy!

Went to the gym later that afternoon to work with my trainer. We were very happy to see each other! After some time, my trainer informed me that she's 12 weeks pregnant....with twins!! She is very excited, except one of her babies is not doing well. PLEASE PRAY FOR HIM ~ Baby B (She knows he's a boy!) I had a great workout with her. It was fun being back at the gym!

Today....my back REALLY hurts! Woke up in the night with pain. So frustrating! I feel like I went backwards a little. Anyway, I am going to do all I can to get this taken care of. Dang it, I want to beat Jessica in the Fitness Challenge. She's been kicking our butts for weeks!!!

That's it for now! Take care my Friends....Do all you know to do...Work your plan and stay focused!

Feeling like somethings happenin'

2011-09-19T06:18:00.000-07:00

Today I feel like I have a fresh new start....

My 2 week vacation is over...

My gym's 2 week maintenance break is over...

I'm going to physical therapy for my back today...

I'm going to my trainer (It's been about a month!)...

I feel rested...

I have a plan for my food today...

I'm ready for success!!!

How about you...Are you ready?

Keep focused!

Pluggin Along!

2011-09-18T07:58:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I had a fabulous day! I ended up not having the MRI's, as my insurance company did not get in the authorizations needed to get them done. Kind of glad because I had a wonderful stay at home day and got lots done. I'm kind of sad too because I would really like to know what's going on...I guess I will have to wait!

Fitness Challenge ~ ~ I am quite sure that Jessica will kick my butt this week.....

Workout Summary:

Sunday: Total 0 Minutes

Monday: Total 35 minutes ~ Treadmill

Tuesday: Total 30 minutes - Treadmill

Wednesday: Total 0 minutes

Thursday: Total 35 minutes

Friday: Total 0 minutes

Saturday: Total 0 minutes

Sunday: Total 0 minutes
Weekly Total: 1 Hr 40 minutes (100 mins)

Work Out Reflection
Would you say there's room for improvement? I sure would!!!

Work Out Goals for This Week
My back was quite painful this week. Days where walking was difficult!! I am anxious to get past this pain! Physical therapy starts tomorrow and my gym will finally be open!! And I will get to see my trainer!! Can't wait!!! I know she will be gentle!!

Really hope to improve my exercise this week!! Fortunately I will go back to my trainer 2 pounds less then the last time she saw me. Yeah!!!

Loretta from Loretta's Journey....wrote something...OK many things on my post, "All Around Me..." dated 9/5/11, (sorry I can't figure out how to link it) that I thought were amazing. I've reread her comment many times. But the one that stands out the most is..

Remember... the SuperHeroes of weight loss are simply farther down the road as some of us. So, don't compare yourself to them. When you get all your stuff worked out, and it "clicks", you'll be one, too!

Oh I soooo want to be a Super Hero in weight loss....How about you?

Keep Focused!

Things on my mind...

2011-09-16T22:07:00.000-07:00

Random thoughts for a Friday night.....

Yesterday I decided to wear my dress pants. I had not worn them since last spring. It's been nothin' but skirts, dresses, capri's and shorts for me this summer, but as fall is creeping in, I decided I needed a change. As I was digging through my closet I found 2 black pairs of pants. I checked out the tags and I picked the pair I thought I should wear. I tried the pants on, got them up...almost buttoned, but they did not fit....OH NO!!! Then I tried on the other pair...they fit, but were quite loose!! I was a little perplexed and could not figure out what was going on...Then I realized the pair that fit and are too loose are my pants. They are size 16. The other pair that did not fit, are my daughters, they are size 13. What's so exciting is, I'm already thinking I should be in size 13 ~ they were my first choice!!! I thought I was already there. The neat thing is....I'm close!!! YEAH!!

Today I'm feeling more in control and a lot better. I've lost all of the weight I gained on my vacation and then some. My body is feeling so much better, I don't feel like a stuffed sausage anymore. Whew, that was miserable! Calories are right where they should be. Exercise is not so good yet, as my back is still hurting. I had a great day yesterday and I think I over did it. Today it was really painful!

Tomorrow I go to the hospital for tests. I've had some issues with my ears and I was diagnosed with vertigo a while back. I also have some tingling and pressure above my right eye....So I get to go for 2 MRI's tomorrow. Woo hoo for me....They are doing one MRI on my ears and one on my facial nerves. I had no idea you could have 2 MRI's in one day. It's going to take over 3 hours. Pray for me!

Fall is here in Oregon. The weather is cool, the skies are cloudy and the trees are turning colors. I did not think I would be ready for this season change, as we've barely had a summer. But I have to say, that I am quite excited for fall...It's my favorite time of year! I love the smells, cozy fires, pumpkin patches, pumpkins, scarecrows, candles, fall decorations, pumpkin bread ~ did I just say that? Anyway, I love it!

This malware thing is getting on my nerves. I've had to delete a couple of people from my blog, as I kept getting the warning message. Please don't be offended!! If you get the issue taken care of, let me know and I will add you back. Sorry it's a pain!!

Today I went to two stores. At each one, I saw 3-4 people in wheelchairs. I mean really big people. It was sooooo sad to see them, trapped in a chair, unable to maneuver in the aisles. I saw this one lady, kind of get trapped in the check out line, between her wheelchair and a cart. How frightening is that to be trapped? I so prayed for their health to be restored! That is no way to live for sure!

Take care my Friends...Keep fighting the good fight...Don't quit!!

Stay focused!

Spreading the Love!!!

2011-09-15T07:07:00.000-07:00

So excited to receive this blog award from my friend and Fitness Challenge buddy Jessica at See How She Runs. She gave me the Liebster Blog Award. Jessica is awesome ~ be sure to follow her blog!!! "Liebster" means "favorite" or "love" in German and can be presented to bloggers you love that have under 200 followers.

I am super excited to pass this award on to....

Sarah @ Fat Little Legs - She is pregnant and getting ready to have her 2nd child. She has had an extremely difficult pregnancy, but has come through this experience amazingly! I think of her daily and when I'm struggling, I think of her and say, "If Sarah can do what she's doing, then I can do this!!!" Also prior to her pregnancy she lost over 100 pounds. This Sister gets things done!! She truly is an inspiration to me!! Good luck my Friend, I'm praying for you and your precious little one!!!

Lori at My Journey through the Deepest, Darkest Weight Loss - This Sister is a fighter!!! She's lost over 80 pounds and is almost to her goal!!! I love her because she is a faithful Friend and encouraging!! She is someone who will reach her goals! She's got what it takes!

Michele at Ruminations and Uncovering: Toward a New ME! ~ I love this Sister!!! She is inspiring. She does not let ANYTHING get her down. She faces her fears daily and pushes through all obstacles. I like that she's not afraid to try new things. She's inspiring!!

Margene at Believing it's Possible ~ This Sister gets things done!!! She has lost over 100 pounds and looks great. I know it because I've met her. She's my Oregon buddy!! I was privileged enough to be able to run two 5k's with her, her family and friends. We had a blast. I might add, that she totally kicked my butt both times, but that's OK, she deserves to win....because she is a WINNER!! She has since moved to Utah....I miss you my Friend!

Sharon at Gains and Losses: Life through Sharon's Eyes ~ Sharon is a Sister who is very creative. Her writing style and pictures are amazing. I think she should write for travel magazines ~ She's that good! I also love that when she writes, she gets to the bottom of things and really touches my heart. She is inspiring!!! Also, she's near her goal weight and is looking good!!!!

Sam at Believe In Yourself ~ I love this Sister! She is a sweet and kind...but also a fighter! She is very supportive to me and I value her friendship so much! This girl is going to reach her goals. She's got what it takes!!!

Kimberlynn at Minding My Weigh ~ My dear Sister has not posted in over a month and I'm worried for her. She is such an amazing woman! She's intelligent, funny, inspiring and just a really nice person! IF YOU WOULD SPREAD THE LOVE AND VISIT HER, I WOULD BE MOST GRATEFUL! She's just amazing and I would love to see her back! Love YOU my Friend!!!!

Other bloggers I love....but they have over 200 followers...

Chris at A Deliberate Life ~ She is another Sister who sets me straight! If I get off track and flounder, she's the one I ask to kick me in the hiney to get me on the straight and narrow. She's lost over 100 pounds and is now learning how to maintain her weight. She's doing awesome and is very thoughtful and inspiring!!

Kristin at Bringing Pretty Back ~ I love Kristin!! This Sister looks at things in a beautiful way. She's very talented, funny, and inspirational. She has helped me learn to see myself as pretty and inspires me to make my surroundings pretty. Plus she's beautiful herself ~ Inside and Out!!

Mary G at A Small Loss ~ I love Mary because she is faithful - She's there for me! I also love that she's a risk taker....she just moved across the country for work! This girl has tenacity and is also a big loser. She's lost over 146 pounds and looks great! She is a Sister that will go far in life. She's got what it takes!!!!

Sue at Mrs. Fatass - This Sister cracks me up!! I love her sense of humor. Plus she's going to be a Super Star...I just know it!! She's so real, I feel like I've known her for years!!

I would love to give everyone this award!!! Take it and spread the love!!

Love you~

KEEP FOCUSED!!!!!

Just Realized Something....

2011-09-14T14:18:00.000-07:00

I am not in the greatest place right now...Still struggling with my back (can't get into Physical Therapy until next week - Frustrating), I have not seen my trainer for 3 weeks (I've been on vacation) and my gym is closed until Monday, September 19th (Should not be an excuse....as I have a home gym).

None the less - yes all of this is happening, but I've chosen to go back to my old ways. I have slipped in the past 3 weeks before my vacation. Week one of my vacation, I did great!!! The second week I held my own pretty well, only added a bite here and a taste there. This week....I'm back to January 1, 2010!!!!!!!! Fat, sluggish, stupid old woman!

The past 2 days my calorie intake has been 2000 and I've been barely able to move. Today...I feel like a stuffed sausage....wanting to and sometimes...I've even stuffed my face with something.

Let me remind you of how this disgusting behavior feels.....

I'm hot and sweaty....can't get relief!
My tongue is fat and lazy and all the little bumps are standing up. It feels like a cats tongue - gross!!
My back hurts, so I'm walking hunched over....I look like a fat old woman!
My feet, legs and hands are bloated....
Oh and my stomach is bloated. I can't even hold it in, it's too heavy!!
I have acne again!
I am sleeping well, probably because I'm in a food coma!
My energy level is super low!!
My thinking is sharp and then sluggish many times during the day....
Right now I could use a nap!

SUCKS!!!

I want to get back to feeling....

Energetic
Sexy
Mysterious...there's just something mysterious about a person who takes care of themselves....Don't you think?
Want to feel good in my clothes....I have no fall clothes in my closet. None!! I would love to go shopping, but I can't do it feeling this way....
Need the swelling to go down so my shoes won't be so tight and I can get my rings off.
I want to be able to get back into the gym and reach my fitness goals!
I want to get my calories down to 1600!!
I want to drink my water!!
I want to reach my goals!!!

There.....I feel better and dang it, I'm fighting back!!

ARE YOU WITH ME?

Keep focused!!

Getting Back to Normal

2011-09-13T07:03:00.000-07:00

After almost 2 weeks of vacation, things have been a little out of sorts....My house is a wreck! I have had coming laundry out of my ears (almost done), boating equipment (skis, ropes, life jackets, pull toys - all of this stuff is in my living room!!), I have grocery shopping to do, I need to run some errands, the dogs need a bath, I need to pay some bills, I need to button down our yard and decorate my house for fall...yes, it's coming! I need to get my hair done, and oh my goodness....I need a pedicure!!!

All of this is needs to be done, plus I work and have to fit my health and fitness in...

Whew...I need a vacation!

I am on my way to getting back to normal....I'm right back to my exercise, even though it's ever so slowly! My back is still giving me trouble. I need to get into the physical therapist soon! My diet is getting better ~ more normal! I'm down 4 of the 5 pounds I gained. I knew it was water weight. I still feel a little puffy, hopefully this will subside soon!

Other than that...I'm still fighting and working toward my goals!!

How about you....Are you reaching yours?

Keep focused!

Strength

2011-09-12T07:14:00.000-07:00

I used to believe that if it really came down to it, should something terrible happen to me, and I'm faced with life or death...I used to believe that I did not have it in me to fight for my life. I would always say, "If that happened to me, I would die." Mostly I thought this because I knew my body, I knew what it was capable of, I knew what I could and could not do. I thought I would die, because I could not get this body to move. (I remember there were times when my kids would have fallen, they would have blood all over them, and I could only walk quickly to them, as I was unable to run.....How terrible is that?)

In watching the 911 programs yesterday, I was sobered by the reality of what the people in the World Trade Center buildings had to go through. Not only were they confused, terrified, horrified and a whole host of other emotions that I cannot even image...but they were also faced with the reality that they needed to get out of those buildings to save their lives. If they were ambulatory, some of them had to endure 80+ flights of stairs to safety ~ some even had to do that with injuries!

If it was January 2010 and I were in one of those buildings, as fat and unhealthy that I was, I would not have been able to get myself out of the building alive. Back then, I could barely go down 2 short flights of stairs without being winded. I could not imagine trying to do that with 80 flights of stairs and scared out of my mind. I don't think I could have done it on my own. Sure I might have made it with help, but then I'm burdening someone else and maybe jeopardizing their life to save my sorry out of shape butt.

I thought of this the whole day yesterday.

After coming this far, losing some of the weight and getting stronger, I feel now, I could save myself in an emergency. I am even strong enough to maybe help someone else out if needed. (Except for my sore back....it's feeling a little better today - even with that, I would still be able to do it)

Side note: My hubby left for work a little while ago.....as I am writing now, all I hear are sirens.....Lots of them. I am worried....Do you ever do this? I am sure he is OK! (I refuse to worry, until I need to)

Back to my post....

While I was thinking about this post last night, other words came to me ~ Fight...Face your Fears.....Don't give up......You can do it!!!

As I was praying to the Lord about all of this He gave me this scripture: I can do everything through him who gives me strength. Philippians 4:13

All this to say, that I am more motivated to get this weight off and get super strong. I know now, that if I am ever faced with a situation like this, I will remember that I want to live....I will fight for my life....I will face my fears....I won't give up....and I will do it with the Lords strength.

Are you getting stronger every day?

Keep focused!!!

Injury

2011-09-11T18:15:00.000-07:00

Spent a lot of time reading blogs today! So much success out there ~ WAY TO GO!!!! Some of you are struggling, but I have no doubt, for those struggling, that things will get back on track soon. Keep pushing through, stay focused...you can do it ~ I believe in you!!!

This past week I was on vacation. I had plans....awesome plans of health and fitness. I had plans of eating healthy meals and getting my exercise in. I'm in a fitness challenge with Jessica and I so wanted to beat her this week. My mind was totally there, ready for success, but my body was not.

The week before we left, I went to the doctor because of hip pain. Then last week, this pain moved from my hip to my lower back. Last Monday while setting up our camp, the pain was so bad, that I could barely walk. This was a little distressing, since the bathrooms were at the other end of the loop.

The other sad thing was that I've worked hard, this year, to be able to ready for the fun we had planned this week. I've wanted to water ski so bad and I've been working hard in the gym to be strong enough to do it...Past years, I've tried and tried and could never get out of the water. This year, I'm lighter and a lot stronger....I could do it ~ I am positive, except for this back pain. I had also planned a lot of walks and runs with my daughter. I had my exercise clothes and running shoes packed....I was ready! We even took water noodles so we could do water aerobics.

Unfortunately I was unable to do any of these things. I mostly sat on the beach, watching and dreaming of what I wanted to do. I could not even lift my grand babies without crying out in pain...Can I say that I am very disappointed?

The only way I got relief was to take Advil every 3 hours.....I hate taking that stuff!!

I am scheduled for physical therapy on my back (PT again - just different body parts - I've had PT on my knees, calves and tennis elbow) Can I say that I'm sick of physical therapy? The only bright spot is I will find out what I can do to strengthen my back so I can avoid this type of injury in the future. Need to look for the silver lining ~ right?

The other thing, because I was too afraid, or too sore, or just sick of waddling to the bathroom, I did not drink enough water, then I forgot my blood pressure meds 2 days and that always throws me and I'm up 5 pounds. It's gotta be water weight, my feet, legs and hands feel like I'm ready to pop there is so much pressure. I kind of feel like a sausage. Today I've been drinking water like crazy and made many trips to the bathroom. Starting to feel a little better.

My food intake was pretty good. I did not over eat any of the goodies that we had. A small miracle here. I just did not want it.

On the bright side, I totally enjoyed my family, we had a great time being together. We decided that we will make this trip an annual event. And my back is a little better now that I'm sleeping in my own bed and not walking and lifting so much.

I have a new goal...Next year, I will be in a totally different place.....Healthy, lighter, lean, strong and able to get up on those skies!!! I'm doing it!!!

Workout Summary:

Sunday: Total 0 Minutes

Monday: Total 0 minutes

Tuesday: Total 0 minutes

Wednesday: Total 0 minutes

Thursday: Total 0 minutes

Friday: Total 0 minutes

Saturday: Total 0 minutes

Weekly Total: 0 Hrs (0 mins)

Work Out Reflection
Well it pretty much stunk.....Don't know what else to say...

Work Out Goals for This Week
Going to physical therapy ~~ doing everything they say!! I will walk on my treadmill!!!

So no matter what....I'm pushing through this injury. It's just an injury ~ you know athletics get injured ~ it happens. I going to beat this!!

How about you? How are you doing?

Keep focused!

Oh so funny....I'm getting ready to publish this post and I look at my Labels: and it says: "wawa". I did not type this....(I typed injury ~ How did wawa show up) ~~ is this what this post is about? Am I wah wahing about what happened or did not happen this week...Am I making excuses for what I did not get done? Hummmmm!

All Around ME...

2011-09-05T09:03:00.000-07:00

Lately, it seems that some of the things I've read, heard or seen are pointing me in a common direction....A direction that I kind of understand, but cannot always stay focused on and that thing is.....

....a 100% POSITIVE ATTITUDE and FOCUS!!

I've heard if you see yourself there, you will get there.....Decide something for your life and you've got it....Think yourself thin ~ Have you heard that one before?.....Have faith!

I'm trying to be positive...think positive...live life purposely and always moving forward toward my goals. I'm trying to visualize what and how I want things to be. I kind of get there, but I always have this little seed of doubt hanging around.

I can't just give in and say, with no doubt that I will reach my health and fitness goals. I'm like 96% in....4% of me says, "You're never going to make it...." "Failure!"....."You don't have what it takes!".....

Now I know I can get there...to 100% faith that things will happen. I've done this before. I can remember 2 times in my life, that I made my mind up, got my attitude right and those 2 things happened. I HAD NO DOUBT!!! But I just can't seem to muster up a 100% positive attitude that I can get this weight off or reach my goals!!!

Do you struggle with this....Is it even necessary to reach 100% assurance that this can be done? Is it OK to have a smidgen of doubt?

Keep focused!

Suffering

2011-09-04T07:08:00.000-07:00

Are you suffering right now because you are making good choices for yourself? Even if change in your life is healthy and good, you can still suffer because of it.

It's like OK now what do I do? I used to eat when I was stressed....can't do that anymore....ouch! How am I to cope? How about when you are bored, frustrated, confused, joyful, happy? How about when we celebrate? Can't really devour the smorgasbord anymore....What will we do with our time?

For me, change means, I don't do that any more, now I do this. Finding the this (The alternative choice), may be really hard, especially if you are struggling to let go of the thing you love most!

For a lot of us, giving up food and our behaviors towards food is difficult to give up or change. It's what we do, at least I know it's what I do....I've lived like this for over 40 years and it seems it's really hard to teach this ole gal (the old saying says dog, but I'm not calling myself that) a new trick!

So what to do....Here we are, we need to make changes....for some of us (me), I need to make a lot of changes. But I don't want to give up the familiar, the things I know, the things that speak love to me, the things that make me feel OK.

I heard this last night at church....What if the very thing we give up...ends up giving us the very thing we are looking for.....Something that will give us life!

We think that food is our thing that we are looking for (I need it to cope, bring comfort, satisfaction etc), but what if we give it up and put our focus on our health and fitness.....After time, we will end up with what we really want....thin & healthy bodies ~ YES! But I believe there is so much more for us then even that. A thin and healthy body is a bonus, but what we really get is something more. I don't know what that something more is for you...But I already know, that by trying to change my life, giving up the unnecessary food, and pushing forward on my health & fitness plan...already new doors are opening for me...things are happening in my life....things that would not be happening if I had not made that first effort to try. You see if I had not made changes back in January 1, 2010, I believe I would be bed bound by now. I was heading that way. But because of the simple change of letting the food and old self destroying behavior go, I'm finally living my life....And I know the more I give up the food and old behavior, that more opportunities will present itself to me ~ I will truly be living the life that I was created for. I can't wait!

So, I'm willing to give up food, I'm willing to suffer through this process until I learn to fill my time with healthier alternatives ~ not food. I willing to push through the feelings you get when you let go of something you love. I'm willing to do all of this so I will get something my heart is looking for.....something more important, something better, something more meaningful and lasting than food ~ I'm looking for life!

Giving food up....I know there will be pain, suffering, discomfort...But I also know, if I do it, I will get something more ~ I will have a more abundant life!!!

Commit yourself today to your health and fitness plan. Make the changes you need to make, give up the excess food ~ it's not your friend! This maybe painful, but it may lead into the something you are looking for!!

Are you with me?

Yikes ~ Forgot to record exercise for the week!

Workout Summary:

Monday: Total 53 minutes
33 min Treadmill 20 min Wake Surfing

****2 hours of treading water in the lake (Jessica - does this count?)

Tuesday: Total 45 minutes
45 min Water Aerobics

Wednesday: Total 50 minutes
50 min Stability Class

Thursday: Total 60 minutes
60 minute Treadmill

Friday: Total 30 minutes
30 minute Treadmill

Saturday: Rest

Weekly Total: 4 Hrs (238 mins)

Work Out Reflection
Augh ~ Seemed like I pushed myself all week, but only got in 4 hrs. Hummm...I've got work to do!

Work Out Goals for This Week
I am on vacation this week, I am planning a lot of walking and swimming!!!

Keep focused!

My Body

2011-09-02T07:31:00.000-07:00

Been struggling for 2 years now with my ears. They just drain and drain, then the insides get all crusty and gross. So hope you are not eating your breakfast right now...Anyway, this has been going on for a very long time. Now, I have a lot of pressure & numbness over and around my right eye, in addition to some dizziness and problems walking. (I always have to look down, because if I look up, everything swims around me) Kind of strange. So I go to the Ear Nose & Throat (ENT) Doc to see what's going on. Of course, he's not too concerned about the 2 year problem with the ears, that bugs me to no end, no he's more concerned for all of the other stuff that's going on.

So instead of getting a heavy dose of decongestant, that I thought I would get...instead of getting an easy fit, I get to have a MRI...2 of them. I've never heard of that. Almost 3 hours in that stupid machine.

For crying out loud....will I ever be free of all of this medical stuff? It is so frustrating!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday it was like I went in to get my finger bandaged and ended up in surgery instead. I am so sick of this!!!!

If I could only get these little niggly health problems ~ ears, now this stupid head thing and my hip/back from hurting....and I'm sure there's something else to complain about...if I could only get these things out of the way, I would be feeling great!!

This is the exact reason why it is important to be fit and healthy (Not to say that fit and healthy people don't get sick), but a lot of my problems are and have been from obesity. I could have avoided a couple of surgeries and a lot of the other things, like knee, hip, feet and back problems, maybe I could have avoided the carpal tunnel surgery and could have avoided a number of other things....Oh I remember more.....If I were more fit, I may be able to get off of the blood pressure meds and because I'm more fit now, I was able to avoid cholesterol meds. See getting fit has its benefits!!

So are you with me today. Are you willing to do whatever you need to do to get fit and healthy? Lets do it!!

Keep focused!

The Unexpected...

2011-09-01T08:49:00.000-07:00

I used to be so rigid in my expectations that if something did not go my way, I would have a fit. Some times if I could throw myself onto the floor and have a hissy fit, I would do it. But I finally did grow out of that behavior...a long time ago!

Thankfully I am far from that person who could not change gears, because if I was, I would be having a grand ole hissy fit, right now!!

This week I'm supposed to be camping. But nope, due to circumstances beyond my control, I am at home doing a Staycation!

Knowing I had all of this time on my hands, I made "plans" to get a ton of stuff done at home, I was going to get myself ready for our next camping trip next week and I was going to hit the gym ~ hard!!

The first few days I worked around here really hard, got a lot done. I was going to make my writer workshop on Monday, but that got cancelled, as we decided to go out on the boat instead. Always shifting gears!

My Hubby and I decided that we wanted to go to the Tuesday Night Farmer's Market, but that got changed to. Instead of going there, my Daughter and I decided to go to my water aerobics class. We get there and we were all showered and ready to hit the pool, when we noticed that the pool was drained and had a huge lift in it. Huh?

Determined to get our exercise in and not to let one more thing go undone, we sought out an employee to see what was going on. I was told that they needed to do some maintenance on the ceiling and they needed to drain the pool to get to the problem. We were disappointed that our class was cancelled and said so to the employee, who happily announced that the class was not cancelled, but moved to the outdoor pool.

Now in Oregon, we have not yet had summer. It's been cool, cloudy and rainy for a good part of the summer. That day....it was all of those things. My Daughter and I both looked at each other, shrugged our shoulders and bravely said yes, to our new opportunity.

It was time to get in....and can I say....FREEZING!! The water was cold and the wind was blowing....Not a good combination for sure. Anyway, we would not be thrown off of our plan and we pressed on....We had a great workout and you know what....After exerting our energies, we found that we were quite warm in the pool after all. Getting out was another story!!!

Last night, I wanted to go to my Stability Ball class. Before I left the house, I was helping Hubby with the camping stuff. I almost did not go to my class, as I kind of felt guilty leaving him with all the work to do. I went anyway :-) So I rush to my class and entered the room and it was empty and dark. I'm thinking...another class cancelled....What's going on people? After a few moments I see this very fit woman enter the room and I realize she's our replacement instructor. So we were chatting and soon the class start time was almost there and no one else had arrived. You have to have at least 3 people to have a class. Five minutes into class and still no one has shown up. So my brave instructor traipsed down to the weight room and recruited 3 more people and we had our class! It was different and a butt kicker for sure. It was a really hard class and I was proud that I could do most every thing she asked us to do. (I could not do jumping jacks while in a plank position ~~ can you? Killer!!!)

All of this to say....That I had plans....things I wanted do....And things outside of my control changed my plans. I had a choice to make...I could retreat into myself, like I used to do....or I could embrace the change...stretch myself and go with the new direction. I am so glad I did, because each experience brought something new to my life that I would not have ever experienced before. I was willing to embrace the change and grow from it. I've had a great week so far and I'm looking forward to new changes to come my way.

How about you? Do you embrace change?

Support

2011-08-31T09:31:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I had a great day with my Daughter and Grand Babies. We spent the day shopping and had lunch together. When were we at the store my Grand Daughter picked out a treat she wanted. It was a cup of Mini Chip Ahoy Cookies. They were a dollar, so I got them for her. I thought, what a great "treat" for her.

I have been working on keeping my diet clean and I was doing well until we got home. It was kind of cold and dreary so I decided to make a pot of coffee ~ In the afternoon ~ I never do that. As I was sipping away, I decided that one of those little mini cookies would go great with my coffee, so I got one out and popped it into my mouth. Before I knew it my Daughter was coming after me....telling me to spit it out. And I'm like "No WAY!!!" and I'm running from her ~ Cup "O" Cookies in hand. She gets me cornered and she's literally going to do the Mommy thing and scoop that cookie out of my mouth ~ Like you do when a kid is eating poison. By this time, I was laughing so hard, that she almost got it, but I was a little more determined to eat this mini....

In the mean time, I still had the Cup "O" Cookies in my hand and she gets it away from me and I'm chasing after her. It's all fun and games....or is it....and the race is on. Finally she takes the cup and flings it up in the air and it lands on top of the cabinet in my kitchen. WAAAY out of reach. I mean I will need a step ladder to get it.

LOL!!! Is that support or what?

I think the cookies were 15 calories a piece, well at least I think they were. Could not tell you because the cup, with the calorie info, is still up on the cabinet. My Daughter saved me. Not only did I get my cookie, but I wore the calories off in all the running around the house. She also saved me from eating more!

I'm keeping the Cup "O" Cookies up there on that cabinet. They are out of sight to everyone else, but I know they are there....and they are a reminder to me that even 15 calories in a tiny cookie are not good for me. They are also a super reminder that my Daughter loves me and she wants me to reach my goals. She was willing to do what ever it takes to help me make the right decision. I am learning that that's what I have to do every time I'm faced with temptation. I need to be willing to fling it away!!

How cool is that?

How about you....Will you go to any lengths to avoid a 15 calorie cookie?

Keep focused!

Observations

2011-08-29T07:56:00.000-07:00

This weekend I have been inundated with the word that we are fat in America. I got snippets of information from the radio, Internet and TV...it seems every body is talking about it. So I decided to Google, "How many obese people are in America 2011", and the very first article came from CBS News. They say that, "Two-thirds, more than 190 million Americans are overweight or obese".

Then I Googled a little bit more and found....

The CDC says that,

Trends by State 1985–2010

During the past 20 years, there has been a dramatic increase in obesity in the United States and rates remain high. In 2010, no state had a prevalence of obesity less than 20%. Thirty-six states had a prevalence of 25% or more; 12 of these states (Alabama, Arkansas, Kentucky, Louisiana, Michigan, Mississippi, Missouri, Oklahoma, South Carolina, Tennessee, Texas, and West Virginia) had a prevalence of 30% or more.

Oregon came in at 26.8%

YEEEIIIKKKEEESS!!!

As all of this information was swimming around my beady brain, I decided to check out what obesity looks like in my town....At the grocery store, I saw some thin people, many over weight and some very over weight people. I also saw this family of stick people. They were very cute...everyone of them were super thin, I mean really thin ~ BUT FIT!... They were all dressed in athletic clothes...Dad, Mom, and 2 kids. Adorable!!

I checked out the carts of the obese people verses the stick peoples....What I saw does not surprise me at all. In the obese carts I saw chips, cookies, candy, prepackaged foods, and some fruits and vegetables.

In the stick people's cart I saw...Lean meats, Fruits and Vegetables.....That's it!!

Hummmm.....

Then I caught two snippets of conversations....

#1 ~ This very large lady was moving through the dairy section and I heard her say, "I'm on vacation, no way am I eating yogurt!"

#2 ~ This very large guy says to the cashier, "Don't go grocery shopping when you are hungry, look at this, I splurged on Pop Tarts." Then the cashiers says, "Well at least there is some fruit in them." His cart was full of chips, cookies and prepackaged foods - not a veggie or fruit in sight. Then he held up the line, waiting for the cashier to get a carton of cigarettes....filtered of course.....!

Hummmm.......

As I was waiting to check out, I realized that the 5 of us, in my lane ~ including the cashier were all over weight. All of us. 5 out of 5...That's 100%!!!

Hummmmm!!!

This is not an epidemic for others. This is an epidemic that I'm right in the middle of....I see it everywhere and I'm part of it!!!

I am part of the problem...

I am ONE (1) of the 190 million Americans who are obese!

I am ONE (1) of the 26.8% of Oregonians who are obese!

ME.....Yeah me....GUILTY!

Well...I am not taking it anymore. I'm certainly doing my part to change the statistics, to change the face of my City, State and Country. I want a better statistic. I want to be on the side of the healthy, fit and thin statistics. I'm doing my part. I'm changing and I am working hard to get there!!

How about you....Are you working hard to change the face of your statistics?

Keep focused!

I'm an athlete!

2011-08-28T09:36:00.000-07:00

Well at least my trainer says so....And I believe her!!!

So with my new attitude and belief that I'm an athlete, I decided to really push myself at the gym. You see, I can do it. But I will only do it for someone else. Example: I will push myself to my limit and beyond for my Trainer, at my water aerobics and stability ball classes ~ WHEN PEOPLE ARE WATCHING!!! But I refuse to do it when I'm on my own. Which is a total bummer, because I do a lot of exercise on my own. So if I'm not pushing myself....then....I'm wasting my time! Wasting a great workout!!! Stalling my progress!! ACK!!

So this week, I did it...I pushed myself. Every time I worked out I was a sweaty mess. I bet I was even sweating in the pool, just could not see it!! It was an amazing week of exercise. It was especially amazing because of all the stuff we went through with my Hubby. Sadly, I could not exercise every day, but the days I did were amazing!!

The best and funnest day was yesterday. I decided to go to the pool and lap swim. I have swim fins that I use...Seems like I'm cheating, but I have to tell you, that if I did not have them, I would only last about 2 minutes. Yesterday, I swam ~ hard ~ for 45 minutes without stopping! Here's where my athletic, competitive spirit comes out. So....I'm in my lane, swimming like a wild woman and this guy gets into the next lane. I'm swimming away and all of a sudden I realize he's pacing with me. Each time we get to a wall, it's a race to see who will get there first. (I know he's pacing with me, because at one point, I held off to see if he would just keep going, but it seems he waited for me and we kept at our little game).

When this all started, I had already been in the pool for 15 minutes and then my new challenger and I were swimming our hearts out for another 15 minutes. At one point, I look up and see him exiting the pool. I totally smoked him!! I even went on for 15 more minutes. I'm the winner!!!

Soon after the challenger left, a new lady came in and tried the same thing. And I'm like, "Oh no, you're not beating me." She soon left too.

Funny thing is....these people did not even know they were in competition. They don't even know that I won, I beat them.....I'm the winner....HA HA HA HA! I'm a goof!

Anyway, it was fun...it was great pushing myself beyond what I usually do. It was fun feeling like an athlete....feeling the competition. I loved it!!

OK - Now for another competitive thing. I started a Fitness Challenge with Jessica at See How She Runs. This is my first week. Below please find my stats:

Today Weight: 212 (Up 4 pounds - ack!)

Workout Summary:

Monday: Total 70 minutes
30 min Treadmill
25 min Elliptical
15 min Planks, push ups, squats

Tuesday: Total 60 minutes
40 min Treadmill
20 min Weights & Abs

Wednesday: Total 35 minutes
35 min Treadmill

Thursday: Rest

Friday: Rest

Saturday: Total 45 minutes
45 min Lap Swim
Plus I cleaned the house for 4 hours, but don't know if that counts for exercise in this challenge.

Weekly Total: 3.5 Hrs (210 mins)

Work Out Reflection
This week I worked my butt off when I could. A little disappointed that I did not get 1 more day in. But with all that's gone on this week, I am happy with what I DID DO!!

Work Out Goals for This Week
I am on vacation this week, but I plan on working out at least 6 days this week. I am planning a lot of walking, bike riding, water aerobics & stability ball class and maybe some swimming. I'm feeling a little competitive :)

That's it for me....Would you like to join our Fitness Challenge?

Keep focused!

Benefits of a Rockin' Attitude

2011-08-27T06:35:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I had a ROCKIN' ATTITUDE!! It was a great day! It was the last day of a very tough week and the last day before our two week vacation. Just by that alone...it was a great day. The other reason it was great, was because of my attitude. My circumstances were still the same, but because of the new attitude, I handled the whole day differently. I was joyful, I handled some difficult situations, was very productive at work and home, went to the doctors, had dinner and went shopping with my Hubby and had a great food day! It was an awesome day!

I heard something the other day on an old Dr. Laura radio program. I thought I wrote everything down word for word, but it looks like I only got the highlights from her conversation. She was talking about giving into your bad thoughts.....She said,

"Stop thinking you are a beggar." (To me, I heard, stop taking what just comes along, get what you want) Have you ever heard the old saying, "Beggars can't be choosers"? I think that if you take what you get, you can't choose what you want!!!

"When you see that you can't, then you can't!" (I have told myself so many times that I CAN'T!!! I have not accomplished many things because I think I can't. So sad!!)

"So much of what we do in our lives is a mind game within our own heads. If you think you can't, then you will not behave in a manner that will make it happen." (That word behave is screaming at me!!!)

"If you believe that you can't get healthy ~ you won't believe in a way to reach your goals." (Believe is another word itching to get into my brain!)

"The war is in my head!!!"

You think?

I have thought and said many times, that if, "I could only get my mind out of the way...I could do...."

I cannot tell you how many times, that I have not done things, because I told myself that ~ I can't....

I've forgotten how to BELIEVE in myself and I certainly have not BEHAVED in a manner that would bring success.

Well I'm changing that today!!

How about you do you believe and behave in a manner that brings you success?

PS: Went to the doctors yesterday. The med tech took my blood pressure and she used the "normal" sized blood pressure cuff instead of the extra large one they usually use. I got all excited and told her what happened. I told her how much I hated that huge extra large cuff and said how excited I was that I got to use the "normal" one. We both celebrated, with whooping and clapping. Yeah....we did that...so cool!!

Keep focused!!!

Attitude that Rocks!

2011-08-26T07:25:00.000-07:00

You know when you are trying to focus on something. I mean really focus....you've decided that once and for all, you are going to change something in your life. You've made all the preparations, you've got your tools in place, you've surrounded yourself with the right people, you've made your mind up ~ you're going to do it!! It feels right and so good. You know that no matter what....you making it happen.......Nothings stopping you.....

Then a whole bunch of crap hits the fan and blows you off of your plan.....

This almost always happens....Let me re-phrase this....This is what always happens to me!!!

I want to know...who brought this fan...lets kill it and get rid of the blasted thing....It messes with everything. Geez!

Yesterday, not only did the crap hit the fan, but I also got waves of frustration, along with a storm of BS, which all combined, made my day almost unbearable. I forgot my wonderful plan of changing my attitude ~ With all that went on, I forgot what I was supposed to do and my attitude stunk it up the whole day.

Now some good things....even though it was a bad attitude day....it was not a bad food day. So I did not turn there. That is good. Did not exercise or drink enough water. So not so good. But I did not overeat, eat candy, junk food or fast food. For me...that is good.

Today I could so go back to that same ole crappy attitude. I mean nothing has changed today...I will still have to face the same ole stuff, but what I can change is my attitude!!!

SO TODAY...I'M GOING TO HAVE AN ATTITUDE THAT ROCKS!!

No matter what is dished out today, I'm looking to my Lord, I drawing from His strength, I going to work my health and fitness plan, I'm going to have a great attitude. I'm going to smile like I've won the lottery (a big one), I'm going to give out, work hard, love and embrace every challenge that comes my way and most importantly, I'm taking back my peace and joy! I am going to ROCK THIS DAY!!!!!

How about you....ARE YOU WITH ME?

Keep focused!

Riding the Waves.....

2011-08-25T07:28:00.000-07:00

Seems life lately has been up and down. I don't remember...ever...feeling like this. I'm sure when my kids were growing up, life was like riding the waves....I'm sure we had our ups and downs. But now, as I get older, these ups and downs, these waves can mean life and death.

When I was younger I never thought about the decisions I made, never considered what those decisions would mean for my future. Never knew what the bags of candy, fast food and horrible food choices, would do for my body now. Never thought of it. If only I had known that living a sedentary lifestyle would result in my not remembering how to do jumping jack, skip rope or even how to squat. Yeah, I forgot how to do that....

If I knew then, that it was OK to be my own health advocate, maybe I would not have jumped into so many of the surgeries I had. Did I really need to get a hysterectomy, carpel tunnel and bunion surgeries. Could I have made a better choice? (Like losing weight, getting fit, and making better choices) Looking back....most of the problems I had, that resulted in those surgeries, were linked to obesity. Had I made better choices then, I may have not needed to go there....

Today, in light of all my precious Hubby is going through, I realize how short and precious life is. I mean...2 days ago, we thought he was having a heart attack. Thankfully he is doing better, all his tests were normal...and he's feeling better. Don't know yet, what really happened with him. He's going to the doctor tomorrow, so hopefully we will learn more of what's going on.

Anyway I could be making a decision today, that will effect my life in the future. I am feeling more urgency to get this weight off and to stay healthy. I don't want to ever put myself or my family through an ER situation where I'm laying on a hospital gurney, waiting for the doctors to tell us what is wrong. I don't want to go through THAT kind of physical and emotional pain! I don't want to go there. Especially if there is anything I can do within my power to keep me from going there. If there is.....I'm doing it!

So I'm willing to suffer through the pain of exercising and stretching my muscles to get strong. I'm willing to suffer a little pain when I have to say no to something yummy and get my calories under control so I can lose and one day maintain my weight! I'm willing to suffer through whatever it takes to get and stay healthy for the rest of my life. Now I'm willing to help my sweet Hubby to get healthy so we don't have to go through another episode like we did this week. So scary!

Life is too short! It's precious!! And it's worth going through everything needed to be healthy, so it can be lived to its fullest!

How about you...Are you ready to suffer?

Keep focused!

Blessings Never End!

2011-08-24T08:08:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a life changing day! I got a call from my Hubby and he said he was feeling terrible and needed help. His symptoms....Pain, numbness & tingling in his back and neck. Extreme headache and weakness. Then chest pains & tightness in chest and pain in his left arm, nausea, and he was sweaty.

I immediately went to get him and we went to urgent care. They were unable to help him there and sent us to ER. So that's where I was until 10pm last night.

During the night they did a C-scan, MRI and blood work. This morning I found out everything was NORMAL!

Blessing!

He still has a hard road ahead, but I'm optimistic! He's in pretty good shape now and I think it will only take a little bit and he will be in great shape!! We will work on this. Now maybe he will be willing to jump on the Health and Fitness bus!! Finally!!!

Another Blessing!!

All through the ordeal, I have had a peace....really, I've been quite serene! When it all started I just had to give it to the Lord and let Him do the work.

A great Blessing because it's not up to me what happens...everything is in His hands. Whew!

It was such a crazy day! I had not had much to eat, except for a couple of nuts, since noon. By 10:00pm I was starved! We were going to go out to get something to eat, but we decided to just go home. When I got home, I got things ready for today and had an English Muffin, fruit and some Silk Milk. My whole calories for the day was under 1500 ~ Even under stress!! YEAH!

In the past events like this were always a recipe for disaster!! Fast food would always be my first choice. I thought about it yesterday...I really did, but quickly put that one to rest and never thought of it again! Whew!

Blessing!!!

Then today, I was up at my normal time, got in my exercise, Bible reading and had a great breakfast. I'm now going to get beautiful and go see my sweet Hubby in the hospital.

I just know he's going to be OK and I can't wait to get him home!!!!

So the point of this is to say....You will have OBSTACLES, BUMPS, PUSHES, PROBLEMS, FRUSTRATIONS, and HITCHES in your health & fitness journey ~ Life Happens!! But just because things happen, it does not mean you have to jump out of your plan. YOU KEEP ON FIGHTING FOR YOUR HEALTH ~ NO MATTER WHAT!!!

Are you looking for Blessings today? They are out there!!

Keep focused!