Wednesday, November 9, 2022

Waiting for the payment.

Have you recently noticed that I have e-mailed you from your account?
Yes, this simply means that I have total access to your device.

For the last couple of months, I have been watching you.
Still wondering how is that possible? Well, you have been infected with malware originating from an adult website that you visited. You may not be familiar with this, but I will try explaining it to you.

With help of the Trojan Virus, I have complete access to a PC or any other device.
This simply means I can see you at any time I wish to on your screen by simply turning on your camera and microphone, without you even noticing it. In addition, I have also got access to your contacts list and all your correspondence.

You may be asking yourself, "But my PC has an active antivirus, how is this even possible? Why didn't I receive any notification?" Well, the answer is simple: my malware uses drivers, where I update the signatures every four hours, making it undetectable, and hence keeping your antivirus silent.

I have a video of you wanking on the left screen, and on the right screen - the video you were watching while masturbating.
Wondering how bad could this get? With just a single click of my mouse, this video can be sent to all your social networks, and e-mail contacts.
I can also share access to all your e-mail correspondence and messengers that you use.

All you have to do to prevent this from happening is - transfer bitcoins worth $1450 (USD) to my Bitcoin address (if you have no idea how to do this, you can open your browser and simply search: "Buy Bitcoin").

My bitcoin address (BTC Wallet) is: 1LrQJeowKsXbuPSJWVnVqz3Y79EftJSPt7

After receiving a confirmation of your payment, I will delete the video right away, and that's it, you will never hear from me again.
You have 2 days (48 hours) to complete this transaction.
Once you open this e-mail, I will receive a notification, and my timer will start ticking.

Any attempt to file a complaint will not result in anything, since this e-mail cannot be traced back, same as my bitcoin id.
I have been working on this for a very long time by now; I do not give any chance for a mistake.

If, by any chance I find out that you have shared this message with anybody else, I will broadcast your video as mentioned above.

Friday, October 28, 2022

Don't forget to pay the tax within 2 days!

Hi. How are you?

I know, it's unpleasant to start the conversation with bad news, but I have no choice.
Few months ago, I have gained access to your devices that used by you for internet browsing.
Afterwards, I could track down all your internet activities.

Here is the history of how it could become possible:
At first, I purchased from hackers the access to multiple email accounts (nowadays, it is a really simple thing to do online).
As result, I could easily log in to your email account (

One week later, I installed Trojan virus in Operating Systems of all devices of yours, which you use to open email.
Frankly speaking, it was rather straightforward (since you were opening the links from your inbox emails).
Everything ingenious is quite simple. (0_0)!

My software enables me with access to all controllers inside devices of yours, like microphone, keyboard and video camera.
I could easily download to my servers all your private info, including the history of web browsing and photos.
I can effortlessly gain access to all your messengers, social networks accounts, emails, contact list as well as chat history.
Virus of mine constantly keeps refreshing its signatures (because it is driver-based), and as result remains unnoticed by your antivirus.

Hence, you can already guess why I stayed undetected all this while.

As I was gathering information about you, I couldn't help but notice that you are also a true fan of adult-content websites.
You actually love visiting porn sites and browsing through kinky videos, while pleasuring yourself.
I could make a few dirty records with you in the main focus and montaged several videos showing the way you reach orgasm while masturbating with joy.

If you are still uncertain regarding the seriousness of my intentions,
it only requires several mouse clicks for me to forward your videos to all your relatives, as well as friends and colleagues.
I can also make those vids become accessible by public.
I honestly think that you do not really want that to happen, considering the peculiarity of videos you like to watch,
(you obviously know what I mean) all that kinky content can become a reason of serious troubles for you.

However, we can still resolve this situation in the following manner:
Everything you are required to do is a single transfer of $1370 USD to my account (or amount equivalent to bitcoin depending on exchange rate at the moment of transfer),
and once the transaction is complete, I will straight away remove all the dirty content exposing you.
After that, you can even forget that you have come across me. Moreover, I swear that all the harmful software will be removed from all devices of yours as well.
Make no doubt that I will fulfill my part.

This is really a great deal that comes at a reasonable price, given that I have used quite a lot of energy to check your profile as well as traffic over an extended period of time.
If you have no idea about bitcoin purchase process - it can be straightforwardly done by getting all the necessary information online.

Here is my bitcoin wallet provided below: 1Ce3EcNUzCZhQ1a2cP14HeG6H23jWq6n2Q

You should complete the abovementioned transfer within 48 hours (2 days) after opening this email.

The following list contains actions you should avoid attempting:
#Do not try replying my email (email in your inbox was generated by me alongside with return email address).
#Do not try calling police as well as other security forces. In addition, abstain from sharing this story with your friends.
After I find out (be sure, I can easily do that, given that I keep complete control of all your devices) - your kinky video will end up being available to public right away.
#Do not try searching for me - there is absolutely no reason to do that. Moreover, all transactions in cryptocurrency are always anonymous.
#Do not try reinstalling the OS on your devices or throwing them away. It is pointless as well, since all your videos have already been uploaded to remote servers.

The following list contains things you should not be worried about:
#That your money won't reach my account.
- Rest assured, the transactions can be tracked, hence once the transaction is complete,
I will know about it, because I continuously observe all your activities (my trojan virus allows me to control remotely your devices, same as TeamViewer).
#That I still will share your kinky videos to public after you complete money transfer.
- Trust me, it's pointless for me to continue troubling your life. If I really wanted, I would make it happen already!

Let's make this deal in a fair manner!

Owh, one more future it is best that you don't involve yourself in similar situations any longer!
One last advice from me - recurrently change all your passwords from all accounts.

Thursday, October 8, 2020

Touch of Reality and I would handle it and how God will handle it...

Before today, I would honestly tell you that I have not gained but a couple of pounds during this Covid Pandemic. 

Went to the doctor today and found out that not only have I gained a couple of pounds....but I've gained 14 pounds since March.

I don't weigh myself regularly....I try to judge how I'm doing by how my clothes feel.  However, my clothes are not helping me. I can still wear the same jeans I wore 14 pounds ago and even about 20 pounds ago. So not a good measure. Yikes!

This reality really hit me hard today. Honestly I feel a little betrayed by my body. It seems that I have not eaten tons and least not 14 pounds worth. But here I am....

 But the real reality is....

  • I am not moving much. With working from home and everything being so close, I don't get a lot of steps in. And I'm not putting in the extra exercise either...
  • I'm not drinking all of my water.
  • And I'm not really eating like I should. Clearly eating too much!
I'm not working my plan.

Now I would like to rip a new one into myself for being such a failure. I want to cry, go on a pity party, be depressed and scream at God for not helping me. 

But instead...I'm looking to Him. I am asking the Lord how He wants me to proceed. Pretty sure there will be no crazy diets, excessive exercise, crying, pity parties, depression or screaming. He's got a really big plan for me. I am now ready to proceed with Him.

Already I got my food tracking book out and have determined what foods that don't make me feel well.

Instead dread, fear, anger and all the other "usual' emotions that come from me, when I am in this place. Instead I feel excited, joy, determination and you know the best thing? I feel loved! Because I know that God has my back and we are going to make this happen!!

I did many good things on my own the last time I started this journey. I can't wait to see what will happen when I partner up with the Lord. It's going to be amazing!!!!

Tuesday, October 6, 2020

Startin' and Stoppin' and Startin' and Stoppin'.....

Startin' and a Stoppin' and a Startin' and a Stoppin'....It's a pattern!! Just check out my blog posts.  Some times I stop focusing on my goals for just a few days, sometimes it's weeks, sometimes a couple of months and the last big one, was a year!  I have allowed work, problems, laziness, illness, procrastination and many other reasons to stop my progress in my health journey. 

.....I started the above post yesterday after feeling really frustrated that I had stopped, again! I had lost my mojo.... I had lost my way a little and was not doing the things I needed to do for myself. I forgot my goals. The post I had in mind, yesterday, was a post ripping myself apart and tearing myself down for being so weak willed, forgetful, slothful, etc. 

Thankfully, I got distracted, so that post did not got out. 

Today, I just happened to listen to another podcast with The Healthy Christian Women Podcast by Dr. Melody Stevens. (#34 Stop Dieting for Life). Now I was listening while working so I was not totally focused, but some things really crept in. There are a lot of nuggets in this message, but the biggest one that stood out, is that while I am walking through my health and fitness journey, the Lord is with me. He is doing a work and He is carving out things that need to go. Helping me get to my goal, all the while I'm getting closer and closer to Him. He is working on my heart and freeing me of all the life long stuff that I have been carrying around. He's doing a deeper work and refining me to be the woman He wants me to be.  That's what He wants!!! 

Me...I've wanted weight loss so I can fit into clothes off the rack. I want to run a marathon. I want to be well so I can do what I want to do. I have never really thought of what He wants for me or what He wants me to do. I just do stuff....

About 25 years ago, a sweet lady came to me at a Bible Study. At the time, I was a busy, working mom, juggling many things and was always at my limit....She said....I can remember this like it was yesterday. Anyway, she said, "Joy, God gave me a vision. He's sitting with His hands out. And in each hand He has a list. In one hand, the list is very long and in the other hand He had a short list." This woman said, "in the hand with the long list, is a list of all the good things that you want to do....for your family, friends, work etc.  And in the other hand is a short list of all the things He asking you to do....." She said, "your list is so big that you cannot even see or consider His list....

Basically I was running myself ragged. Stressing out over all the "To Do" things. I was doing really good things, but I was just not listening to Him and what He wanted me to do. 

Now people can say whatever they want and she probably wanted to just keep her mouth shut, but she spoke truth into my life that day. I have not forgotten those words and they keep coming back to me...Just like today.

I think I got my thinkin' focused on the wrong things. I think I need to be thinkin' about what He's trying to show me and is doing in my life. I need to ask Him what He wants me to do...(You have no idea how scary it is just typing that sentence out. Yikes!!!)

I think He's refining me, starting way back when with all that startin' and stoppin'. I do know that each time I come back, I am different...stronger....closer to my goal.  Now if I would get out of my way and let Him guide me, things can really happen.  Even at that Bible Study. He showed me that I have things to do and he's trying to remove "other" things that are getting in my way....

Right now...I'm super stressing about my health. I even wake up at night with night terrors....screaming out sometimes that I'm going to die because I'm not doing things right.

I can see that I've had this stress my entire life. And I guess, I am really tired of it. I am ready to surrender this to Him. I'm willing to wait for my healing, willing to be refined and ready to become the women He's designed me to be.

And I'm going to give myself some grace. Because I may see these starts and stops as weakness and failure. But I don't think He sees it that way. He's seeing a stronger, capable, determined woman coming out of her shell. A woman of God, that He created!

And that makes me pretty darn happy!!!

So excited to explore His List and to see what's next!!!!

Tuesday, September 29, 2020

Rejoice where you are...

 My hubby came into my office and saw my blog open on my laptop and saw the picture of  me when I weighed 182 pounds. He said, "Ah so cute!" I don't look like that now. So in my head I could have go all over the place.

I could have thought....

He thinks I was cute then, but not now. And he hates how I look now....Good reason to beat myself up!

Or I could have thought....

He just thinks it was a cute picture.

I am going to believe that he thought it was a cute picture. I looked at it and it is cute. But for me right now, I am just grateful that I right where I am supposed to be. I am OK with what is happening in my  body. Every day I make good decisions, I getting great sleep, I take care of the little things that make me feel good. I'm kinder and gentler with myself and I am enjoying every moment!!

And you know.....things are happening...I am going in the right direction. Even though I don't look like I used to, I FEEL better than I ever have!!!

Peace and joy to you!

Monday, September 28, 2020

I surrender....

 Without looking back, I am sure that I've already stated this, but I surrender.... I surrender my weight, health, and life totally to the Lord. I have tried so many things that the world says works to achieve health and fitness. I have pushed and prodded my body to lose almost 100 pounds with a crazy diet and excessive exercise to the detriment of my health and to regain all but 25 pounds back. I realize that I cannot do this on my own. I am totally ready to surrender this all to the one who can get this done.


I don't know everything yet as this is a work in progress, but I can tell you that the past 4 days have been amazing. The first thing I did was pray. I did not pray for God to fix anything or me or to take the weight away. I prayed that He would slow my mind down, so I can listen and hear what He wants me to know and how He want to get this done. First thing that needs to be addressed is stress...

How do I know this.....because after the prayer, I started to Family, friends, Podcasts, church, commercials, shows, Facebook, glimpses of words here and there that I would see and the word I kept hearing is: Stress...."You need to relieve your stress," "It's a stressful world", "Stress is not good for you". etc. It was like the Lord was sending the message everywhere He could to get my attention. 

OK Stress..How do I relieve it? First up, what was I listening to? CRIME SHOWS....Stressful? Oh my word, the worst! I deleted almost all of them. OK it's a process...I have a couple that are entertaining that I'm not ready to give up...yet. When I have other good things to listen to, I will delete them. In place of  crime show I found the The Healthy Women Podcast by Dr. Melody Stevens.  She has 3 seasons of episodes that I have been binging on. Her Podcasts are just full of information on sharing God's word regarding health and fitness and so many other things,

Praise music. Instead of Podcasts, I've been listening to praise music and calm instrumental music.

Yoga - I going to do yoga a couple of days per week. I took the first on-line class on Saturday and loved it.  

Deep breathing & prayer.  Every time I get anxious or worried, I would breath deep and say..."You're good, you're good. You have everything you need...all the while breathing deeply. The next thing when I'm worried, is to remember God's promises....There are so many in the Bible. Here's one of my favorites:

Jeremiah 29:11-14 NIV

11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you, "declares the LORD, "and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all nations and places where I have banished you, " declares the LORD, "and will bring you back to the place from which I have carried you into exile."

Is this new way going to make any difference to my weight loss? You know, I don't really know. We shall see. So far I have been really peaceful. I have clarity of my mind, I've enjoyed food, I've slept well without snoring and night terrors. So far so good!

Honestly, the way this feels now, I don't care what size I am. I am finally at peace....


Saturday, August 3, 2019

Sugar Sugar Sugar

I would so love to post what I want to say about sugar companies, insurance companies and our government regarding sugar. (OK I'm going to say just one thing....SHAME ON YOU!!!) But personally I don't have the energy, mental capacity or strength to get the criticism and back lash from them or others regarding eliminating sugar from our diets.

So you do your own research. I came across just two videos that have changed my mind...

Fed Up and That Sugar Film

I am not going to do any more research, I'm just going to start reading labels and eliminate sugar and see for myself.

Without knowing the things I've learned in these films, I already did this experiment in 2010. I said for a year, I would eliminate fast foods, soda (including diet) and sweets...…...And with ease I lost 50 pounds in a really short time.

Don't believe me.....check out my earlier posts...

Where I got hung up was I forgot the plan and then started to stress out about results and not believing in what I was doing. So I resorted to a crazy diet and excessive exercise and blew out my system....

Already this morning without eating a thing, I drank 3 teaspoons of sugar that were in my coffee creamer.

Oh I am awakened......