Friday, July 13, 2012
One - I could abandon my journey and go right back to the way I was before.
Two - I could stay right where I am.
Three - I could quit messing around and get to my goal.
Well the number one option is out. So there's no big decisions to make there....it's the number two option that has me stuck!
You see if I did not do anything different and stayed right where I am today, it would probably be OK. I mean, I'm in a place where without going any further in my journey, I could really just live my life, do what I want to do. I have all of the mobility I need to do the activities I want to do. I can walk, run, cycle, water ski, swim, row, and so much more. My blood pressure & cholesterol is normal, I feel great, my clothes look good on me, I can buy them in regular stores, I don't look bad, just a little chubby yet, but for the most part....I feel normal.
So the motivation to move toward my goal of 150 pounds is lacking a little.
I have to ask myself......
Self to me: "What is your motivation to stay right where you are?" And, "What are you getting, what is your reward, out of not moving forward?"
There is a REASON why I CHOOSE to stay in this place!!
SO what is it?
Well...my motivation to stay in this place is.....Because it's easy! I would not have to change one thing and I would be able to maintain the weight I'm at, I could do all the things I want and I would look normal.
I'm asking myself. Why would I want to settle for this, when I could have so much more. What is my REWARD for staying in this place?
I feel like if there wasn't a reward or some benefit for my being here...I would be somewhere else...right?
So what is it?
Can you tell that I'm working this out as I write?
I am thinking the reason why I stay here, is because I can make all of the motions of appearing to move forward, because that's what I should do, but secretly, I'm holding off because I'm too afraid of what lies ahead...Of what this will really mean, to me, to reach my goals.
I mean, if my life is this hard, this busy and this crazy now....When I've reached my goal....what will it look like then? What will I be expected to do?
I'm am actually weighing out if I want to take that chance!
I guess I sort of do want to see it. I feel like I'm daily sticking my toe in the water, I kind of like what I feel, but then I get scared and pull it right back out.
So I guess, for me, it's decision time.
Am I happy.....right where I am?
Am I READY to go to the next level and reach my goals?
More to follow.....
Are you at your crossroads?