Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
I did everything I needed to do!! I got up on time, exercised for 30 minutes in the morning, read my Bible, went to work and worked hard!! Saw my trainer did 40 minutes of cardio and my weight lifting routine, went to the store, did laundry, made dinner, had time to read, drank all my water and then some, kept my calories under 1500 (don't know how I did that ~ was totally satisfied the whole day) and journaled my food.
Today I had a 2 pound weight loss (I had gained about 3 1/2 pounds).
Yesterday showed me that with focus, I can get a lot done in a day. But most importantly, it showed me that my body does what its supposed to do, when I do what I'm supposed to do.
So this morning, I was up @ 5:00am, did 40 minutes on the treadmill, watered my outside plants, made breakfast, read my Bible and now I'm blogging and it's not even 7:00am yet. I can already tell this is going to be a highly focused day.
I think that I'm most happy with myself when I am obedient to what I know to do. When I am obedient and the scale does not move, than I can say I did the best I could do. But what I hate most is when I'm not obedient to my plan and the scale does not move. Well then, I am very, very hard on myself. Geez who wants to go there?
So my friends, I want to encourage you to be obedient to your plan. Do EVERYTHING you know to do and do it everyday!!
Let me know how you did today.
Monday, June 28, 2010
Looking back over the week, I realize that I have to get my calories under control. I am not consistent at all. I need to be around 1500 calories, not 1700. Joy did you hear that? 1500 that is the magic number!
I have been playing around with things and it's time to get serious!! I am so thankful that I've lost as much weight that I have so far, but I could be doing a lot better with a little more focus.
So today, I vow, that I am going for it!! I am going to get my calories under control, I am going to exercise daily and push myself to the next level!! I am going to get my water in. I am going to journal my food. I am going to do this!!
So tired of small time thinking...it's OK if I have candy, I've lost 42 pounds ~ I deserve it. NO ~ IT'S NOT OK!!!!
...it's OK if I don't exercise today, cause I did it yesterday. NO ~ IT'S NOT OK!!!
...it's OK if I don't get my water in, or journal, or have just a little bit more.... NO ~ IT'S NOT OK!!!!
Not sure why I've given myself permission to sabotage my plan. That is not OK and I'm changing this today.
What about you? Do you give yourself permission to sabotage your plan? Make the choice today to move forward!!
Sunday, June 27, 2010
As I write this my sweet Sister-In-Law Tracy is in surgery. She's in her early 40's, married, of course to my Brother-In-Law and has two boys. Yesterday she got up to do her normal, everyday things like we all do. She became weak and could not remember her kids names. The ambulance was called and off to the hospital she went. Many tests were done and they found that she has a brain tumor the size of a 1/2 dollar.
Even at this moment when I am struggling with not knowing if she's going to live, or how is her life going to change, will she remember her kids and husband, will she be the same, even with all that, I'm sitting her feeling sorry for myself, because I do not feel well.
It's been a tough week for me, I've not had the energy lately to exercise or even to make healthy food. I only got to the gym 2 times and walked on my treadmill a couple of days. Also I got some bad news at work, seems we may be making a lot of changes in our office, just don't know what they will be. Feeling out of control, my bills are a mess, my house is a mess, the slugs are eating my flower garden and my poor Sister-In-Law is on an operating table, fighting for her life.
Don't know if I can offer anything inspirational or uplifting at this moment, but it occurs to me that things aren't so bad, yeah I don't feel good, but I can still get up and move around, do what I want to do and need to do. My job is just a job, if this one ends, there will be another one. The bills and the house, geez I will never feel in control of these things, I just need to get over that!! And the slugs, well, I'm going to take care of them. Think I will replace the chewed up plants with beautiful flowers in honor of my Sis.
My point to all of this is, life is too short!! You think you have plenty of time and then one day something happens to you that changes the course of your life. I am pleading with you today, maybe even begging a little - GO OUT AND LIVE YOUR LIFE!! Don't waste one more minute, you don't know how many more you have.
Be a Blessing to your family, reach out to someone you had a fight with, reconcile your relationships, go buy a flower for your neighbor, start a Bible study with your neighbor, take a college student out for coffee, get to know them!! Fly a kite, smell some roses, eat a treat (just a small one), look at the clouds - find the elephant, go to a baseball game, ride your bike, play board games, make up a board game, eat sushi, run that marathon, go swimming, buy a $10 lemonade from the kid down the street, send a card to someone who is sick, send a card to someone you love, write love notes to your kids and husband, pet your dog, cry....just be a Blessing to others - live your life.
I'm taking my own advise and I'm going to the craft store to get some supplies so I can make something for a friend. Then I'm going to the plant store. Smile!
Please pray for Tracy and her family. She is a cancer nurse and Blesses so many. We need her in this dark world.
May Blessing and Hugs!!!
Thursday, June 24, 2010
But after spending the good part of my evening reading your blogs ~ I am inspired!!
Sam at Believe in yourself ~ http://believeinyourself1.blogspot.com/ ~ She has an AWESOME ATTITUDE!!!
Enough is enough at ~ http://cornwallfitgirl.blogspot.com/ ~ She has a TENDER HEART!!!
Sarah at http://fatlittlelegs.blogspot.com/ ~ She has CHANGED HER LIFE!!!
http://learningtobeless.blogspot.com/ ~ She has DETERMINATION!!!
Lesia at ~ http://herewegoholdontight.blogspot.com/ ~ She pushes THROUGH THE TOUGH STUFF!!!
Deb at ~ http://debwillbethin.blogspot.com/ ~ She likes CHALLENGES!!!
Vickie at ~ http://vernswifevickie.blogspot.com/ ~ She's A CREATIVE COOK!!!
There are so many more friends out there who have helped me push through the highs and lows of this most awesome journey. THANK YOU!! (I would like to list you all, but my sweet hubby is making me go to bed)
Who inspires you?
Blessings and hugs to you!!
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Just bought a pair of short, pants and jeans in a size 18. They were kind of snug when I got them a month ago. Now, I can almost slide the pants over my hips. I know it's a good problem ~ right?
I can't keep up!! Pants are too big I get small ones, then I need new underwear and oh the bra's, oh the bra's, my favorite article of clothing. They are too big too!! You know I hate buying bra's, this is a problem!!
I wish I could afford getting everything that fits at the same time, but I just can't. So I have to work in stages ~ so something is always too big!!
I know, I know ~ what a problem!!
I am learning, not to get too excited about an outfit, because soon they will be too big!
Sounds like I'm complaining ~ I'm not ~ just trying to figure out how to keep the pertinent body parts covered and not look like I'm wearing a circus tent!
One thing I noticed ~ my size 24 clothes weighed a lot. The fabric was so massive, when you hold them up, it looks like you can cover a window with them. They were huge, so much fabric and they weighed a ton. My new sized 18 Capri's are tiny. They fold up into nothing and hardly weigh a thing.
My husband used to give me grief, because when I would pack a bag for an over night trip, I would have to bring a full sized duffel bag. Jammed packed with just enough clothes for the trip. He would say, "we're only going for the night ~ looks like you've packed for a week!" There were times when I would be a little offended and could not understand why I had to bring to much. Well I am realizing, it was not that I was bringing too much, it's just what I had to bring was so big and bulky, it just filled the duffel to the brim.
Now I'm anxious to go on a road trip. Want to see how the duffel looks, see if the smaller clothes make a difference!
Do you struggle with the clothes thing? What have you done to keep yourself clothed?
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
In the mighty name of Jesus, I pray with great faith that the new doors you have for my life will open.
I will break through to new life opportunities.
I will remove all longstanding obstacles through faith, prayer and fasting.
By faith, I stretch toward the new challenges You have set before me.
I will not draw back.
I will not lose heart.
By faith, I will destroy any obstacle that hinders progress and I will advance beyond all previous limitations.
I will not quit, give in, or give up.
I will not retreat, back off, or set down.
I will not shift into neutral, take a break or do nothing.
But by God's grace, I will break through and move ahead with supernatural strength.
From 21 Personal Breakthrough Prayers & Scriptures by Frank DaMazio
I hope this prayer encourages you.
Monday, June 21, 2010
Sunday, June 20, 2010
I did this for many reasons, but mostly I did it to see what God wanted to show me during this time. First of all, He showed me that I spend WAAAAAYYY too much time with these things. So instead of doing what I always do, this past week I read a book, was out every night doing something fun, spent a lot of time with the Lord, went to the craft store, picked out some beads and made some book marks (this is sooo much fun, I think I've found a new hobby!!!) and I made myself wait to see what the scale says.
During my whole weight loss and fitness process, I have been obsessed with what it says. I waited each morning to see what kind of day I was going to have. Literally if I had a good weight in the morning, I would be a little more liberal with my food that day. If the scale told me that I gained, then I would ease up on my food and have a better food day.
Since I did not have the scale telling me daily what to do. I decided that I was just going to do what I'M SUPPOSED TO DO ~ EVERY...DAY!!! I journaled, I kept my calories at or under 1600 per day, I drank my water and I exercised! Then when I got on the scale yesterday, I got my reward ~ down 3 pounds. The scale reflected what I put into the week and was right where it's supposed to be.
So from now on, this is what I'm going to do. I'm not going to weigh in every day ~ just once a week. I'm going to journal, eat good food and keep the calories at 1600 per day, I'm going to drink my water and exercise. The rest is up to my body.
No more playing around with an electronic object, that literally gave me permission to mess around. No more messing around for me!!
How about you ~ do you let the scale mess with your head, your plan, your life? If so, make the decision today to choose your plan and not the scale!!
Saturday, June 12, 2010
I will be taking a break this week and will be back next Sunday.
Just know that I'm focused, excited and pushing onward to total health and fitness!!
I will be thinking of you and praying for you!!!
Keep on task, do what you know you need to do, do the right thing and don't ever, ever, ever give up!!!
With much Love and many Blessings to you!!!
My legs are looking good!! I used to have these fat pockets on the insides of my thighs and they are almost gone! My calves are shrinking and the back of my legs are looking a lot smoother, not so bumpy!! (I am really starting to like my new mirror! I find myself checking stuff out all the time!!!)
My arms are getting firmer, starting to lose the wings. And, I was able to sit in a restaurant booth and not have my boobs land on the table. I actually had room - so my stomach is going away!!
I also noticed I had to move a notch on my bra, because it's getting too big, and oh, my boobs actually fit in the cup! (Just the small things that make me happy!)
The best thing....My new pants I just bought, size 18 are getting too big!!
Yesterday, I went to the store because I needed to buy some shorts. They did not have an 18 in the store, whats up with that? Anyway, I decided to try on a size 16. Guess what. I got them up and they fit in the hips, but I could not zip them up - yet!!!
Size 16....I can't even tell you when I was a size 16. It's been years, let me think, well it would have to be at least 20 years ago!!! AMAZING!! I think I'm gonna make it!!
Still holding at 39 pounds ~ but determined!! Size 16 ~ HERE I COME!!!!
How are you doing? What's your next goal?
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
I was so elated!! Today the scale moved to what I thought would be a 40 pound weight loss. To my dismay, I realized I've lost only 38 pounds.
I thought when I hit this particular number, I would be there, I would have achieved this goal. Geez...I've even counted it out in my head, just knew it would be the right number.
But today, when I used a calculator to figure the total, I realized I've been wrong this whole time!! I don't know how I've missed this. I look at my blog page almost every day and I see the weight loss ticker. It's been showing 37 pounds lost ~ forever!! And today I confirmed it, the ticker will say if I'm at 236, then I've lost 38 pounds, not 40.
I am really bummed out, as I have been pushing myself so hard to make this goal. I know I will make it, but the rate I'm going, it may be another week or month....
I'll keep going, but I'm sad...
Has your mind played tricks on you? If so, do what you can to keep in the now and really know what's going on!!
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
So I'm working away and as I look over the heads of my classmates, through the pool house windows, all I see is the sun reflecting off of the McDonald's Golden Arches. The whole sign was brilliant, bright and gold and it was beckoning me to come..."Come and part take of my golden deliciousness"...No it did not really say that, but it was pretty convincing.
Well I know that I have a healthy dinner at home, but I thought, maybe...just maybe....I could get me a little treat. I just happened to have some bucks in my purse, so this would be a perfect opportunity to go through the drive thru, get a burger & fries and eat it all, by the time I got home.
It was my perfect opportunity. Well the arches were beckoning, what would you do?
And I had money....I never have money!!!
Nobody would know!!!
It's a perfect plan...
What would you do????
WELL I WOULD HAVE BEEN VERY UNHAPPY WITH MYSELF IF I SPOILED MY 6 MONTH SABBATICAL FROM FAST FOOD!!!
So I made the right choice! I decided to go see my trainer who was manning a booth at our Tuesday Night - Farmer's Market. She was very pleased that I made the right decision and so was I!!
Instead of buying me some misery, I decided to treat myself to some lovely and delicious, FRESH - JUST PICKED strawberries.
Victory over temptation!
Have you been able to resist temptations like this? I hope you do!!!
The movie is about a scientist who tries to solve world hunger. He creates a machine that will make food, but encounters a problem of global proportions. There is an accident, the machine goes nuts and then food begins to fall from the sky.
Big fat, juicy hamburgers fall from the sky....
Then eggs, bacon, candy, ice cream , pancakes, steak and other delicious food....
You might think that's what I find disturbing. Here I am restricting this type of food and and I'm watching a whole town of people eating tons of it without a problem. Even the Mayor goes from slim to obese right before our eyes. That is disturbing....
But that's not what's bugging me....
There is a scene where the Mayor decides he's going to spruce up the town and bring tourists to the remote island where they live. He unveils all his plans and as the last attraction is unveiled we see that it is a super giant glass fishbowl, filled with water and swimming inside is a sardine. The Mayor says it's the largest sardine ever, but it looks very tiny in this huge fishbowl. The Mayor is telling the crowd that this sardine will be doing some tricks for them ~ it will be jumping through a hoop of fire!
Well after hearing this, the look on the sardines face indicated that he did not think this was a good idea. You could see fear on his face. He did not want to do it.
So all is going well, until the scientists food machine goes crazy and starts to fly around dragging the scientist through the town with all its festivities. He and the machine eventually get caught up in the stand of the giant fishbowl. It bumps around the stand and finally the machine flies off into the sky.
Here's what bugs me....
The fishbowl begins to topple. It finally falls off of the stand and begins to roll away. Water is splashing everywhere and the sardine is rolling around and around inside the bowl. Finally is lands on something and begins to go in the air. The sardine is airborne and notices the flaming hoop of fire. He looks at it....and makes a decision to go through the hoop.
He goes for it and makes it through with a whoop of excitement!!!! And then, and then.....a seagull swoops in and eats the sardine!!! Augh!!!!
He went from fear, to determination to death...right before my eyes.
I have watched this many times and every time I see it, something in the pit of my stomach churns....I have been thinking about this for 3 days and this is what I've come up with...
The fishbowl is me. I'm transparent. I think I'm strong and can do anything, but like the sardine, I am afraid and fearful and everybody can see it (my fat is telling them). In January, I decided to take the bull by the horns and began taking steps toward getting this weight off and getting fit. I am doing it, I'm still on track, I'm having success, I am heading for the flaming hoop of fire...
And now I'm afraid to go through, because I don't want to get my hopes and dreams snatched away....by a seagull....no I don't want them snatched away from me, by life.
So I been fighting to hang to what I know ~ so afraid of the unknown. I have been willing to stay in the fishbowl and not willing to jump through the hoop of fire ~ because of fear!!!
BUT NOT TODAY ~ I am deciding today, that I am not going to succumb to this fear any more. I am releasing it today and I AM JUMPING THROUGH THE HOOP OF FIRE!!! Nothing is going to stop me!!!
Do you have fear? Are you willing to jump though the hoop of fire to get what you want? Think about it!!
Sunday, June 6, 2010
That's how I've felt for a couple of days. So today, I decided that I was taking a day off, just for me. I woke up this morning, crawled out of bed and spent the entire day reading a wonderful book.
It's the fourth one of a series and I think it goes up to seven books, maybe more. It's an uplifting series about a women who is a lot like me. She goes to a women's prayer conference and meets 12 ladies. They experience a tragic incident together that binds these strangers together and transforms them into strong friends. Each book is chocked full of stories of the things that happen to real people, like you and me. It shows how, with God's help, the ladies and their families get through all the things that happen in real life ~ the good and the bad.
These books are interesting, eye opening and inspiring! They remind me of just how awesome God is and how He can restore any situation for His good. I have never laughed and cried like I've done with these books. They are thought provoking, attention grabbing and just plain fun! I just can't put them down!!
Check them out, the books are called The Yada Yada Prayer Group by Neta Jackson. Make sure to get book one and read them in order. There is a lot that goes on with the ladies and you don't want to miss a thing.
I feel filled up with joy and ready to tackle a new week with energy, excitement and success!!
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Yesterday, I had a great day. Went over my calorie intake by only 75 calories (That's great for me!), got all my water in, worked out and journaled my food.
So I got my reward ~ the scale moved!!!
I am almost at my lowest point in years and just .4 lbs away from a 40 pound weight loss.
So grateful I did not stop and pushed through this hard month where the scale did not move. I kept telling myself, the scale does not tell all. I am getting it!!
My next goal is 231...what are your goals?
Friday, June 4, 2010
I really liked her quote ~ "The beginning is exciting, the end glorious...the middle is messy." I guess I'm at the "Messy" part of my journey.
Are you stuck - Check out Chris' blog - She's inspirational!! http://chrislivessimple.blogspot.com
That's how I'm feeling right now. I have all the tools I need, I know what I'm supposed to do and I'm doing most things to get this weight off, but I just don't have the time to really push myself to the next level. I want a break through, but I'm stuck!!
Prior to January 2010, my life consisted of TV, TV, TV, oh and laundry, paying the bills, working, doing some cooking and that's about it. I had so much time on my hands it was pathetic.
Now that I have energy ~ I want to do everything!! My days are so full, fun and exciting. I'm living the life I've always wanted. I have interesting things to do, I'm meeting new friends, exploring the little things I've always wanted to explore....
THIS SUMMER, I AM ON THE LOOK OUT FOR A LEMONADE STAND. I WANT TO BUY MYSELF A $10.00LEMONADE. How fun would that be to Bless the socks off some little kids. I've always wanted to do that!!
OK I'm back now...What I'm trying to say is I'm having fun. I want to have fun, but what I really need to do is focus!!
I want to be able to go to the gym and spend as much time as I need, instead of rushing through my routine. I need some time to explore new recipes. I need to spend some time on my house ~ I still have Easter decorations up and it's June!
I guess I have to say "no" to some things....for just a time, so I can get this weight off and get to my fitness goals. I need to find a balance for my family, church, health, weight and fitness goals, work, friends and fun...Is it possible?
This "ole" horse wants to get to the finish line....Fast....but I'm stuck at the gate.
Do you have any ideas?
I have not had any weight loss for over a month. My food is in order, I'm exercising enough (my body hurts every day ~ so I know I'm giving it my all), I'm getting my water in, journaling, blah, blah, blah....
And the scale just blinks at me ~ "You're still 237"...Augh!
By God's grace, I have not given up. Prior to this year, I would have. I have allowed that scale to tell me who I am. Every day it says, "Yup, your fat, your still fat, you're a fatty!!"
But today, I'm not going to listen to that stupid scale. I don't believe what it says. I'm leaner, I'm stronger and I'm looking a lot better!!!
I have to remember there are other things that show me that I'm on the right track.
1.) People are noticing.
2.) My clothes are falling off.
3.) I like what I see in the mirror.
4.) I have less saggy fat hanging around.
5.) I have energy, more than I've had in years.
6.) I am stronger, healthier, happier, saner and excited!!
So sorry scale, NOT TODAY, I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going with what I know.
Does the scale tell you who you are? If so, don't listen to it!!
Thursday, June 3, 2010
However, recently I've noticed that I've been catching glimpses of myself in mirrors and I am beginning to like what I see!!!
Starting to notice new definition in my face, well actually, a new face is emerging. I kind of don't look like myself anymore. There is a youthful, attractive face peeking out at me! So amazing! Kind of like looking at that new face!
Last night at the gym, my trainer had me laying on my side, looking at the mirror. We were doing some crazy exercises that involved stretchy jump ropes. Anyway, for the first time, I could look, at myself in a mirror, without being sick to my stomach. I actually looked curvy in the right places, no extra tummy flab hanging down and my arms & legs looked pretty amazing!!!
So guess what, I went to the store today and I purchased a full length mirror. This is a big step for me, as I have not had the courage to buy one or to look into one for years....I have to tell you that not having a full length mirror can be a problem. There have been days when I've run out of the house, not really knowing if I had all of the pertinent body parts covered. I'd be flying out the door with my bags in one hand and then I'd be feeling myself out with the other hand making sure I had clothes on. Geez so embarrassing!!! Now with my new mirror, I will be able to check myself out before something embarrassing happens!
New thing happen every day...what's happening to you?
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Some of the things....
Biking, rowing, crafts, time with family, 7 week Bible study ~ met 3 new friends, church, work full time ~ business trip, gym/trainer, exercise, journaling/blogging, reading, cooking/baking, gardening, cleaning my house - HA!, camping, shopping, swimming with my daughter and grand baby, visiting my sick neighbor, spending a lot of time with my sweet husband, and spending time with God!!
All this accomplished and much more ~ just in the last 2 months.
It feels so good to have energy and to be alive!!
All because I am living a healthier and active lifestyle.
I can tell you candy, sweets, and junk food do not bring me this much joy!!
What do you do with all your energy!?!