Seems life lately has been up and down. I don't remember...ever...feeling like this. I'm sure when my kids were growing up, life was like riding the waves....I'm sure we had our ups and downs. But now, as I get older, these ups and downs, these waves can mean life and death.
When I was younger I never thought about the decisions I made, never considered what those decisions would mean for my future. Never knew what the bags of candy, fast food and horrible food choices, would do for my body now. Never thought of it. If only I had known that living a sedentary lifestyle would result in my not remembering how to do jumping jack, skip rope or even how to squat. Yeah, I forgot how to do that....
If I knew then, that it was OK to be my own health advocate, maybe I would not have jumped into so many of the surgeries I had. Did I really need to get a hysterectomy, carpel tunnel and bunion surgeries. Could I have made a better choice? (Like losing weight, getting fit, and making better choices) Looking back....most of the problems I had, that resulted in those surgeries, were linked to obesity. Had I made better choices then, I may have not needed to go there....
Today, in light of all my precious Hubby is going through, I realize how short and precious life is. I mean...2 days ago, we thought he was having a heart attack. Thankfully he is doing better, all his tests were normal...and he's feeling better. Don't know yet, what really happened with him. He's going to the doctor tomorrow, so hopefully we will learn more of what's going on.
Anyway I could be making a decision today, that will effect my life in the future. I am feeling more urgency to get this weight off and to stay healthy. I don't want to ever put myself or my family through an ER situation where I'm laying on a hospital gurney, waiting for the doctors to tell us what is wrong. I don't want to go through THAT kind of physical and emotional pain! I don't want to go there. Especially if there is anything I can do within my power to keep me from going there. If there is.....I'm doing it!
So I'm willing to suffer through the pain of exercising and stretching my muscles to get strong. I'm willing to suffer a little pain when I have to say no to something yummy and get my calories under control so I can lose and one day maintain my weight! I'm willing to suffer through whatever it takes to get and stay healthy for the rest of my life. Now I'm willing to help my sweet Hubby to get healthy so we don't have to go through another episode like we did this week. So scary!
Life is too short! It's precious!! And it's worth going through everything needed to be healthy, so it can be lived to its fullest!
How about you...Are you ready to suffer?