Sunday, July 10, 2011

Day 91 ~ 7 Month Focus (Cry if I want to ~ Part 1)

"It's my party, and I'll cry if I want to
Cry if I want to, cry if I want to
You would cry too if it happened to you"
IT'S MY PARTY by Lesley Gore

No really, I want to cry my eyes out. I just spent an entire hour working on a post. It was awesome. Even made me cry. I went back to fix one little thing and I deleted the whole thing and could not get it back. Stupid Blogger - always saving everything ~ every second!.....The only thing left was an "r". All that time wasted. Augh!!

Now I don't have time to recreate it. Probably couldn't anyway. It was amazing! Here's the highlights:

  • Wanted to have a pity party. Feel all I do is for nothing, I don't have impact on others.
  • Wanted to list out everything that I've failed at, wanted to prove to you that I'm right - I'm a failure. 
For crying out loud, I almost did it again. Don't know what I'm doing wrong, but whatever it is, I'm deleting everything by mistake. Frustrating!

Wow someone does not want this written.

Maybe I better slow down and get this right!

Nope - don't have the time. Have to go.....I will think on this and get back to you.



  1. Okay, that's a bummer! Stupid blogger program. I'm sorry for all your work and energy in to that post. I hope you are feeling better.

    But maybe you shouldn't do a failure list... do a success list! You could make a pretty long one at that! Maybe someone doesn't want you to put energy into a pity party, girl! Whatever you "feed" grows... so only feed the positive! Don't let those alligators get too big, we want them starved to death!!

    You have incredible impact... on me and your family and tons of others. So any thoughts otherwise are just lies. You have made great strides! This happens to me too, where I've done well and then I run into some stress or frustrations and those self-doubting thoughts come. We gotta push past that and know that it's all apart of that "trail of our faith".

    I hope you are having a nice Sunday. Take care, my friend.

    God bless...

  2. Don't you just HATE that?!? That's happened to me before! Looking for the next installment......

  3. I think blogger deleted that post on purpose because it IS NOT TRUE!! You have had a positive impact on me. I feel like I've known you in real life for ages,and consider you a friend.

    I think I understand how you feel though. I can let one little mistake become so large in my mind that I feel like a failure too. It is no more true for me than it is for you. It is just hard to believe sometimes.

  4. Oh I hate it when blogger does that! I think it saves too often. BTW I haven't commented in a while so I'm not sure if I congratulated you on passing halfway. I think the second half is easier than the first.

  5. just read your blog about your 5K!! Awesome JOB!! I don't know how you do it. You're inspirational! Keep it up - all of it - the races, the blogging, the focus.... You will make it and you are doing so well!! Congratulations!