What a difference the Lord makes. Two days ago, life was so confusing and frustrating that I wanted to run....run far far away!
The weight of the world was on my shoulders, I was sick and did not feel good, and frankly the whole process of getting this weight off was very overwhelming.
Yesterday, I spent a lot of time slowing down.....and praying! I totally went to my knees and surrendered everything to the Lord. I asked Him for His forgiveness for my busyness and unwillingness to allow Him to work in my life. All during this time, I've carried this load all by myself. I forgot to ask the Lord for help.
This seems to be a pattern with me. I go and go, I push and push, I strive and strive all on my own for a couple of years. Then I end up with something that makes me stop, reevaluate my life and gets me back on track again.
Do I think the Lord makes this stuff happen. Most likely. He at least allows it to happen to get my attention....I'm like a bull, I'm bull headed and strong willed and want to go my own way, I don't want to have any help ~ from anybody. I can do it on my own.
When He finally gets my attention, He says, "No, little girl, you can't. You can't do it on your own". I believe He allows me to experience these things so He can show me how powerful He really is. Shows me what it's like on my own, which stinks most of the time and then He shows me what happens when He's doing the work. Powerful things happen when He's in control!
I know this because, yesterday, after surrendering all of my woes to Him, I felt all the dark clouds that surrounded me dissipated, I got clarity of my mind and then this tremendous peace fall upon me. All of a sudden, I was excited about life again. I wanted to live life, to it's fullest!
All because I humbled myself before the Lord and surrendered my life, my plans, my future to Him.
The saddest thing of all. Is I've known this, I've known that I need to do this and yet, my will was too strong. I wanted to bull my way through all on my own. Look where it got me. Trouble!
Now today, no matter what happens, I will have peace. And I will continue to have peace as long as I remember......Him!
I can lay all of this stuff at His feet. I can relax and let Him do what He wants to do with my life.
I love Him so much and I'm grateful for the lessons He shows me. Would not want to live my life any other way.
How about you.....Have you surrendered?