I know, I know....I'm someone who is usually "joyful". But not today, today I'm a little blue...
This journey has really been a lot of fun. I know, FUN? But for me, I've really enjoyed it so far. I have been at it since January and have had some success!! Definitely stronger, lighter (lost 45 pounds so far), and more agile. Got to love that.
However today I'm am feeling the pressure of it all crashing on my shoulders. I still have 95+ pounds to go. Will I ever make it? Can I continue on this path of activity? I'm tired...really tired.
Will I ever stop fooling around with this thing and get serious and make it happen? Will I ever stop sabotaging myself with goodies? Will my body help me get fit and stop having injuries? Will I make it?
This is what I want to go back to...
I want to eat a bunch of chocolate, like I used to do. I really want to!
I don't want to exercise. I don't want to go to the gym. I want to stay home. My home, I have not been here very much. I just don't want to go anywhere.
I don't want to make healthy food, can't I just go and get something?
Alarm Bells are ringing in my head....Danger....Danger....(Is anyone thinking of Will Robinson about now - If not...you're too young....Google it and you will know what I'm talking about) OK I still have a little tiny bit of humor left in me.
What is this about? It's been 7+ months, am I getting tired of this routine? Am I getting ready to turn back to the old me? Is this normal? Am I in trouble?
What should I do?
OK maybe I'm more than a little blue....