Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Picture and Other Stuff

Want to see a picture of me? OK...Check it out. Look to the right and just under the "About me" stuff, you will see me...There I am in all my glory!! This picture was taken January 2010. Of course my eyes are closed, they always are when pictures are taken. And the little fluff ball at my feet is Beemer. He loves his mama!

OK am I scared out of my mind. You betcha! Do I feel exposed ~ Yes!...Do I have fear that you will not like me once you know what I look like ~ Yep!...Do I think you will think I'm a dork ~ Yeah! Do you think, I will think, that you will think that I'm chubby ~ Definitely!!! ACK!!!!

Breath Joy, just breath.....

BIIIIGGGG step for me!!!!!

There it's done - no going back!!!

Do you still like me?


Went to the gym tonight and worked out with my trainer. She set me up on this contraption, I really need to find out what it's called - it looks like a torture device to me and sometimes it feels like one, anyway it has adjustable arms and you can do all kinds of weight lifting with it.

So my trainer sets it all up, gets the weights ready so she can show me how to do it. She gives the handle a pull and she could not budge the weights. She tries again and fails and then she puts her whole weight into it and finally she was able to get the weights moving.

After her demonstration, she says, "Get to it", and I say "Yes, Jillian". So I approach the the thing, grab the handles and easily do the exercise. You should have seen her eyes. She just looks at me with her Jillian smile, which cannot be good for me!! (Jillian is the trainer on The Biggest Loser TV Show)

Guess I'm getting strong ~ really strong!!!

I spoke to my trainer about my weight loss. I have only lost 1 pound in the past couple of weeks, but my clothes are getting too big and I'm into size 14-16's, down from 18-20's.

She said at this point of my journey, I will start seeing inches lost, then a week or so later I will see weight loss. I told her this had already happened a couple of weeks ago. She assured me this is normal for me. Said to relax and don't pay as much attention to the scale, but more on how my clothes fit. She said the weight will eventually catch up. (I wish I could remember all of the technical things she told me about how the body works ~ just don't remember) I guess what I get out of what she said is, I need to just keep focused on my plan and everything will work out how it's supposed to. RELAX!!! Whew ~ takes the pressure off!

I think that's all I've got for now. Just wanted to let you know that I feel like I've overcome a huge thing by posting my picture. Can't believe I did it.

What fear have you tackled recently?



  1. No, I don't just like you, I love you girl!! You are BEAUTIFUL inside and out!! I am so proud of you and how brave you are!!

    And thank you for sharing what your trainer said about the inches/weight loss. That is really helpful and I think I'm at that same point. Granted, I wasn't on plan for two weeks and oddly enough during that time I stayed between 215-217. This week I've been really good and this morning I weighed in at 218. What's up with that, I don't know. But I think your trainer is right. I just need to trust the plan, trust myself, and pay more attention to how I feel then the number I see. Thanks Joy!!!

  2. Now that wasn't so bad, was it? ;-)

    You're courageous and stretching yourself. Great job.

  3. It can be scary to post pictures. You'll find most of us in blogville like you for you and not what you look like :)

    I love working out with a trainer. It's so cool to see improvement in strength. The scale is not the only factor in success. You are stronger. Success :)

  4. I think you are gorgeous!! I'm proud of you for 'exposing' yourself.

    I needed to read the part about the weight catching up. I've gained in the last 3 weeks, and I'm horribly frustrated. If I'd been off plan, I'd know what to fix to make things right. If I've been off plan, I'm in denial and completely blind to it! UGH!!

    I needed the reminder that this is just part of the journey.

  5. Well, aren't you cute! You know, there must be someting wrong with my body. (This is so you realize just how well you're doing.) We wear the same size--except I'm more 16-18. I can only get 14s in some, cut-big, pants.

    So, actually, you're size is a bit smaller than mine--yet, I weigh 17o pounds! When I was at your weight, I was wearing 22s, at least! You must be in much better shape than you think. Not getting stronger--are strong!



  6. Look at you! You're beautiful!!! Way to go!

  7. You're doing great!!! Keep it up!

  8. Bold, Courageous and Victorious.. that's you girl!! Any time we step outside our comfort zone and DO that thing we fear, we deflate that fear like an old balloon. Yay You!!


  9. Gorgeous! And your little pup is so cute, too. Congrats on posting the pic.

  10. That's great that you were able to post the picture. I'm extremely self-conscious about my appearance as well, and not always fond of the pictures. Congrats!

  11. Great JOB joy! good for you..
    you know, I was lucky in that the moment the light bulb went off in my head is when I realized that EVERYONE COULD SEE ME.
    That meant that even if I put up a picture, and someone saw wouldn't shock anyone, because THAT IS HOW I LOOKED.
    Not so shocking. At all.
    You look perfectly normal.
    awesome job on the weights....way to show your trainer.