OK it's 1:11am and I can't sleep. Hate it when I can't sleep on Sunday nights, makes for a tough Monday.
Anyway here goes...
I've been at this since January and I have read a ton of blogs! I read things that I think are so silly and say to myself, "Oh, I'll never have an issue with that". I've said this on many occasions.
Well you know why I say things like that? It's because I have no idea what I'm talking about. Until you've experienced something, you can't imagine how it's going to effect you.
I read so many blogs where people are afraid of getting rid of their big clothes. I used to say, "Just do it, what's the big deal"...Well here I am, I going to write about how hard it is to get rid of them.
I tried to do it today....But I got hung up on a couple of things.....This is what I was thinking....
OK it's about the money....they cost a lot and it would be foolish to give them away...REALLY????
OK then...they are really cute and I really like them. Not, they are too big!!
Well...OK then....It's really about my security...
I had no idea!!! I am AFRAID of getting rid of them, because I might need them. REALLY???? Where is my head? No dang it, I don't need them!!!
I decided to start the pile. Darn it, I have some pretty formal dresses, oh and the pant outfit I wore at my daughters wedding, a black leather coat, all my winter coats, all of my summer clothes have to go ~ they are hanging on me. I have to get rid of a pair of "Skinnier" jeans ~ I forgot to try them on and now they are too big! Bra & Undies to big, have to go - not giving them away - no way! Oh and I'm not afraid to get rid of this ~ the Granny Christmas sweater with the sequins and bells - has to go!!! I don't even care if it fits ~ it's out of here!
I'm going to be filling many bags. My new attitude - I GET to Bless someone else out there who REALLY needs them!!!
The other thing that I always thought was weird until it happened to me, is the size thing. You know where you get stuck on the size you used to be and when you are thinner you go to the store and go right back to your old size. I said, "That would never happen to me". Yep it did. I still can't wrap my mind around size 14-16. When I was shopping the other day, I actually would have this peaceful feeling come over me when I saw a 22 or 24 size. YIKES!!!
One more....I would be so frustrated when someone wrote that they were disappointed because they missed their goal by a few pounds. I could not get over why they could not celebrate the 70, 80 or 90+ pounds they had already lost and they were crying about 5, 10 or 15 pounds. OK I GET IT!!! I am about 15 pounds away from my goal and I'm not going to make it. I GET IT...I really do.....I'm disappointed......
So I guess the point of this is....I realize that I cannot judge anyone for how they feel or for what's going on with them, especially if I have not experienced it myself. Because this stuff is tough, it's real, and it's a process to work through and not an easy one at that.
So.....I'm celebrating that I've over come some things that are really tough. From now on, when I read something from someone who is further along in the journey, I will listen to their words of wisdom. Because I'm right behind them and I WILL experience what they are talking about. Instead of judging, I'm going to be learning new skills to help me when I get there!
Thank you to all of you who have pioneered the way for the rest of us. You are helping to make our journey a little easier....if we are willing to listen!
How about you...Have you ever judged anyone in their journey and then the same thing happened to you? (Hopefully I'm not the only one)