Friday, July 16, 2010

Paying the Price

OK it's 1:38am and I've been up since midnight! Once again I've eaten food that does not agree with me. Not only does it not agree, but I ate too much of it.

Last night we had dinner with my daughter and her hubby. We ordered food from a Mexican restaurant. The meal comes with 3 soft tacos and I had calculated the calories to fit in my calorie budget for the day. So I was pretty excited.

Well I had my first taco and was feeling full already. I wanted to stop and even pushed my plate away. But there were my two lonely tacos, just sitting there, waiting to be eaten. Slowly I ate them and even managed to get in a few chips with guacamole.

Afterwards I felt sick....the worst part is, they were cold and did not even taste that great.

Why oh why do I do this to myself?

Anyway, we came home and I went to bed at 10:00pm. By midnight, my stomach was rolling. I actually had spasms that felt like a baby kicking. A little panic came rushing in ~ I'M PREGNANT and then I realized that that's not possible as I've had a hysterectomy. Then another little panic came in and I worried, that maybe the doctor made a mistake, he did not get out all my parts and there really is a baby kicking. YIKES!!!

No no no....I am just suffering from eating too much of the wrong foods.....AGAIN!!!!

Two nights prior I've woken up with severe stomach pain ~ One night it was because I had eaten too much and the other night was because I ate too late. This is the 3rd night in a row that I've lost sleep because of my bad food choices.

Since I've gotten my diet a lot cleaner, I find that I cannot tolerate food the way I used to. Which is kind of a good thing. Because now, I am realizing it's not worth eating the wrong thing or eating too much food at the wrong time. Doing the wrong thing hurts just enough that I have incentive not to do it!

I think I am learning my lesson. There is just nothing that tastes that good, that is worth suffering this kind of pain. I am beginning to realize that making the right food decision is really best for me in so many ways. I need to look at the things that hurt me like they are poison, because that is what they really are. I really do feel poisoned right now. It's a feeling that I do not want to ever experience again!!

From now on ~ I am making better choices!!

Do you pay the price for your poor decisions?



  1. I understand how that is eating at the wrong time and eating the wrong foods. I use to eat a couple times a day. Now I eat once a day

  2. Thanks for checking out my blog Joy! I find it beyond helpful to have such a supportive group of people in my life!

    And I totally understand how you feel. The last time i ate some really rich fatty food, i actually got sick. I couldn't keep it down. It was awful! On the plus side, i guess our bodies are actually working with us instead of against us, and it's letting you know that you have to treat it with a little more TLC!

    Keep up the good work Joy!
    S :-)

  3. Hi, Joy! Thanks for the kind words on my blog! :D

    There are still two full weeks left of our four week challenge. Feel free to post goals on the last challenge post (7/12) and come on along!

    It sounds to me like you have a pretty good goal in the making in this post.

    I want to stop eating past full, too. I'm having a terrible time even being willing to do it. I have not even approached "trying". I'm staying within my calorie range most days, but I'm still eating way past the "Oh, I'm getting full." stage. sigh.

    For FREEDOM!